It seems that I lost my own identity, as if I'm a total stranger. It seems that my old habits are returning. I prayed hard to God to help me, but he didn't answer. I can't remember anything from the past. I look in the mirror everyday and ask myself who I am.
Weird. I can't even remember 1 minute ago. What is happening to me? My attitude and personality have been changing rapidly these days. I lost my ways, faith, and sense of direction.
Maybe I'm a criminal in the Lord's eye.
I...don't know how I feel when I sin.
I'm changing...back ...to old habits....
Help me, God. I beg of you.
The biggest challenge for me is when nothing is happening to me.
I recently failed my police process and yet, I can't really feel it.
My face is turning darker each day and I kept praying and praying.
Each minute that I breath, I can sense some sort of darkness within me. I believe in God and faith in Christ.
Even then, I feel possessed, as if someone is controlling me. I can't even think for myself.
I recently cursed at God and fell into lust.
Who am I really? Children of God? or merely an illusion?
I'll still love God even if I go to hell.
Nothing matters now...
my sins have kidnapped and taken me to the world of my own guilt.
The funny thing about this is that God tend to comes for me at weird time..but good time.
The only thing i can say about is that he saved through hellish times. ..we'll see.....
Weird. I can't even remember 1 minute ago. What is happening to me? My attitude and personality have been changing rapidly these days. I lost my ways, faith, and sense of direction.
Maybe I'm a criminal in the Lord's eye.
I...don't know how I feel when I sin.
I'm changing...back ...to old habits....
Help me, God. I beg of you.
The biggest challenge for me is when nothing is happening to me.
I recently failed my police process and yet, I can't really feel it.
My face is turning darker each day and I kept praying and praying.
Each minute that I breath, I can sense some sort of darkness within me. I believe in God and faith in Christ.
Even then, I feel possessed, as if someone is controlling me. I can't even think for myself.
I recently cursed at God and fell into lust.
Who am I really? Children of God? or merely an illusion?
I'll still love God even if I go to hell.
Nothing matters now...
my sins have kidnapped and taken me to the world of my own guilt.
The funny thing about this is that God tend to comes for me at weird time..but good time.
The only thing i can say about is that he saved through hellish times. ..we'll see.....
