Where did it start? where did i come from? how did i end up in Southern California?
Let me explain.
It all started in a small town located near topeka, Kansas. I had just turned 13, and my sister, quiet a bit older then I was very popular. Little did i know the ways she was. After my birthday party, my sister introduced me to something that started the decline of my life. That something? the most powerful feeling i had ever gotten, the first time i smoked marijuana. I felt amazing, i felt happy, i felt, for the first time in my young life, free. This went on for several years, then when i turned 15, it marked the first time i ever tried cocaine. I lined it up in my card board cut out, and took one huge sniff. After then, i dropped out of school as soon as i turned 16. my life consumed of me stealing money from my parents to get drugs. Cocaine, crack, marijuana and acid. All has a huge grab on me. Then around 17 years old, my sister had gotten high on crack with me, and i had my first ever sexual experience. at first, it was awkward, i mean, she was my sister. But then after awhile, it just became what felt "natural". when i was 19, my sister decieded her life was over. she jumped in front of a train, and died instantly. This sent me into a deep depression. i kept using heavely to make the pain of my only love gone, go away. at 22 years of age, i fallowed my first girlfriend, well, i should be honest, my first boyfriend out to SoCal. where i now reside. I got busted for selling heroin, and i spent 2 years in jail. This is where i found god. And Jesus spoke to me, and let me realize that i can be, and will be forgiven for the life of sin i had. I quickly was baptised, and have been clean ever since. after i got out, i got a job, worked hard, and attend church every sunday. I'm finally happy. I'm clean, and proud to say i'm a good christain.
This is where i come to you guys, please pray for me. please pray that i will be able to forget all my horrible memories, and only look towards the future i have with god. i pray everyday, that no one will ever endure the past i had.
Let me explain.
It all started in a small town located near topeka, Kansas. I had just turned 13, and my sister, quiet a bit older then I was very popular. Little did i know the ways she was. After my birthday party, my sister introduced me to something that started the decline of my life. That something? the most powerful feeling i had ever gotten, the first time i smoked marijuana. I felt amazing, i felt happy, i felt, for the first time in my young life, free. This went on for several years, then when i turned 15, it marked the first time i ever tried cocaine. I lined it up in my card board cut out, and took one huge sniff. After then, i dropped out of school as soon as i turned 16. my life consumed of me stealing money from my parents to get drugs. Cocaine, crack, marijuana and acid. All has a huge grab on me. Then around 17 years old, my sister had gotten high on crack with me, and i had my first ever sexual experience. at first, it was awkward, i mean, she was my sister. But then after awhile, it just became what felt "natural". when i was 19, my sister decieded her life was over. she jumped in front of a train, and died instantly. This sent me into a deep depression. i kept using heavely to make the pain of my only love gone, go away. at 22 years of age, i fallowed my first girlfriend, well, i should be honest, my first boyfriend out to SoCal. where i now reside. I got busted for selling heroin, and i spent 2 years in jail. This is where i found god. And Jesus spoke to me, and let me realize that i can be, and will be forgiven for the life of sin i had. I quickly was baptised, and have been clean ever since. after i got out, i got a job, worked hard, and attend church every sunday. I'm finally happy. I'm clean, and proud to say i'm a good christain.
This is where i come to you guys, please pray for me. please pray that i will be able to forget all my horrible memories, and only look towards the future i have with god. i pray everyday, that no one will ever endure the past i had.
