Where did He go?

[peacehopejoylove1987]

Last year August 28th 2013 i was baptisted and accepted jesus as my savior. My whole life changed after that. i quit using drugs, i became a better person, i dreamed prophecy dreams it was incredibly incredible!! In November of 2013 i moved in with my long time boyfriend of 7 years. (We have kids together and jobs split our family apart for a summer so finally we got to live with each other again) we moved to. a new town and everything. things were different between us though. i went to church, he'd stay home. i talked about God, he'd get mad and say that's all i ever talk about. one day, the day after Valentines day i realised he had been cheating on me. he swore he would quit if i married him so in April of 2014 we married. i married a nonbeliever hoping things would change had we got married. It didn't. he just got more secretive. but lucky for me I'm quite the investigater so i was still able to find out. We fought all the time over it. i would cry and cry and he sweared it'd stop but by the next day he was at it again. In May he took my son with him to one of his affairs and i finally lost it. i snapped. something inside of me died. I started sinning like cursing and slept with other men. I left my husband and am still lost. i can't hear God anymore. I have repented (i think?) And I've tried to get that strong relationship back but it won't come back. Where did He go?

 

[AGTG]

He loves you so much. I'm beginning to tear up just writing this. These are not my tears, how could they be? I don't even know you. It's Christ in me weeping for you.

His mercy endures forever. You've done the right thing to come here. He hears your cry. Repentance starts as a thought in our heart and mind and manifests with action in our behavior. You've set your mind straight about how you've indulged in sins and now all you need to do is turn from it and towards Him.

Remember what Jesus said, "A smoldering wick I will not quench."

This means that even when someone has walked away to the point that there is seemingly no light of Christ within them, He will not turn them away.

Hear me now: God is going to set you ablaze again for His purposes!

Spend time confessing the sins you've fallen into. Know that His blood is washing you clean with each statement of confession. Declare each time that you are cutting all ties with the kingdom of darkness from these sins. Remember, nothing is too hard for the blood of Jesus to wash away! He is going to make you clean like wool! Don't listen to the devil if he accuses of the things you confess. You're washed of those sins, never return to them and call upon the name of Jesus if temptations come. He will always give you the way of escape and the power to overcome those sins when you call on His name. He has the power!

Start feeding your spirit person by spending time in prayer every morning and afternoon. Strengthen it with time in His Word every day. Get plugged back into a church and become strengthened by the fellowship of believers. This will also help bring a measure of accountability.

Seek some deliverance ministry. Often times, Christians are under great demonic oppression within and without because of doorways they've opened sinning or because of curses in the bloodline related to sins of parents and grandparents (you would be surprised how our families have impacted ourselves spiritually). There is a network of deliverance ministries across the nation called "Restoring the Foundations."

You should be able to find a church or ministry local to you that has people trained and experienced in helping you.

Let me say a prayer for you: Father God, I thank You that Your mercies and faithfulness are never lacking. It is Your desire to restore us in right standing by the power of the work Your Son Jesus accomplished on the cross. I ask You, Father, that you will dispatch angels of deliverance, protection, salvation, warring angels, and ministering angels to this woman to help set her house straight and bring a measure of the light and life of Christ once again within her vessel. Bless her richly, Father, with a revelation of Your love for her, that she may never again stray from Your narrow path for her. In Jesus' mighty name I pray!

 

[1watchman]

Yes, ATG, as God said in Isa. 42:3 "the smoking flax shall He (Jesus) not quench". That is a precious thought, that one who has a little faith and reverence for God, He will value.

One needs to then know and trust the Savior, and make Him Lord of one's life; then and only THEN one can get on the right ground and live for God (note John 14).

Repentance is essential for all who know the Lord (1 Jn. 1:9-10); and salvation is essential for all who know not the Savior and are not devoted to Him.

 

[peacehopejoylove1987]

Thank you so much for your reply!! What happens after i fully repent of my sins? Will God start speakung to me again? Also i feel like there is no connection to God when i pray like i use to... do you know why that is?

 

[AGTG]

Thank you so much for your reply!! What happens after i fully repent of my sins? Will God start speakung to me again? Also i feel like there is no connection to God when i pray like i use to... do you know why that is?

God has never stopped speaking to you. It's by His prompting that you have turned back towards Him and even came onto this forum. The real issue isn't whether He is speaking, it's how we can get ourselves in a position to hear Him.

Sometimes demons can block someone from experiencing God's presence. This is why I suggested seeking deliverance ministry. Additionally, after wallowing in the pig-pen of life we may need a time of consecration unto Him. This would include the repentance and confession, daily praying and studying His word, and perhaps a fast of some sort to mortify the flesh so you can begin to walk in the Spirit again.

Ultimately we don't go by feelings, we go by faith. Then, if you feel His presence, well and good. If not, know it doesn't matter. We take everything by faith! But keep pressing in, seeking His face, and He promises to reward you:

Matt 6:6 But when you pray, go into your room and shut the door and pray to your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.

You can trust in this promise. His answers to His promises are always yes and amen!

 

[peacehopejoylove1987]

Thank you so much for your words of wisdom!! I've been lost for the last 7 months I almost lost all hope. thank you again!!

 

[jannikitty]

God didn't leave. You did! He is there welcoming you back even as the father of the prodigal son welcomed his child home. It just takes time to restore what sin has done to you. You made choices which took you away from God's grace but His mercy endures forever. Now you must return to walking the Christian way, get into the Word, try to apply it, and find the support of Christian fellowship.

Prayer for you for all. Believing that He who began a good work in you will bring it to conclusion.

 

[peacehopejoylove1987]

Thank you so much for your words of wisdom

 

[Peripatetic]

I'm sorry to hear about the suffering that you've endured. It sounds like you are striving through it though, and this is just one place on your journey. The fact that you are seeking Him and these answers shows that He isn't gone at all.

Even when we are walking a path of faith, there are still ups and downs, certainty and doubt, times of closeness and separation. Some may result from our good and bad choices, but many do not. Hang in there... keep listening. Sometimes we "hear" in ways that you least expect.

 

[1watchman]

Since I am not seeing any regard for the Savior, friend, I do not know if you are "born again" (John 3). Believing in God and trying to follow and trust Him, is not salvation nor access to the blessings and mercies of God (note all of John 14).

One must have the Lord Jesus in their heart and be devoted to Him to have any part in His Father. Religion is not what God gave us, but His "only begotten Son". I hope that if you have not already found Jesus, the Christ of God, dear friend, you will call upon Him and receive Him now. Then you can be fully restored to Jehovah-God and enjoy your life now and evermore walking with the Lord Jesus. God is always waiting to see what we will do regarding His eternal gift. Look up always!

 

[TheGirlOnFire]

Psalm 136 The Message


136 1-3 Thank God! He deserves your thanks.
His love never quits.
Thank the God of all gods,
His love never quits.
Thank the Lord of all lords.
His love never quits.

4-9 Thank the miracle-working God,
His love never quits.
The God whose skill formed the cosmos,
His love never quits.
The God who laid out earth on ocean foundations,
His love never quits.
The God who filled the skies with light,
His love never quits.
The sun to watch over the day,
His love never quits.
Moon and stars as guardians of the night,
His love never quits.





23-26 God remembered us when we were down,
His love never quits.
Rescued us from the trampling boot,
His love never quits.
Takes care of everyone in time of need.
His love never quits.
Thank God, who did it all!
His love never quits!


His love never quits, he has never lefted your side.


You just need to snuggle up to him, press in and let him pour his love over you, read his word, fellowship, church.


If you need anyone to chat too pm me. Praying for you x

 

[Albion]

I'm not seeing anything here that suggests that God has gone anywhere. You, on the other hand, seem to be running away from him as fast as possible...and then feeling that you're without him.

Last year August 28th 2013 i was baptisted and accepted jesus as my savior. My whole life changed after that. i quit using drugs, i became a better person, i dreamed prophecy dreams it was incredibly incredible!! In November of 2013 i moved in with my long time boyfriend of 7 years. (We have kids together and jobs split our family apart for a summer so finally we got to live with each other again) we moved to. a new town and everything. things were different between us though. i went to church, he'd stay home. i talked about God, he'd get mad and say that's all i ever talk about. one day, the day after Valentines day i realised he had been cheating on me. he swore he would quit if i married him so in April of 2014 we married. i married a nonbeliever hoping things would change had we got married. It didn't. he just got more secretive. but lucky for me I'm quite the investigater so i was still able to find out. We fought all the time over it. i would cry and cry and he sweared it'd stop but by the next day he was at it again. In May he took my son with him to one of his affairs and i finally lost it. i snapped. something inside of me died. I started sinning like cursing and slept with other men. I left my husband and am still lost. i can't hear God anymore. I have repented (i think?) And I've tried to get that strong relationship back but it won't come back. Where did He go?