What's on your mind?

[Saucy]

Thanks brother. I guess, too, we need a place to go and vent. Even if our emotions are wrong. Hopefully there will be people who want to be there at your worst and understand the pain youre dealing with.

 

[KandiJo]

Thanks brother. I guess, too, we need a place to go and vent. Even if our emotions are wrong. Hopefully there will be people who want to be there at your worst and understand the pain youre dealing with.

I am so praying for you Saucy. I had no idea about your mother, and I am so sorry I didn't hear about it sooner.
You are 100% entitled to your emotions. Guy or not, those are real. God never tells you to hide them, or stuff them down. We should never do that either. Emotions are not wrong, nothing to be a ashamed of. If you feel something, you have a reason to feel that.

We shouldn't assume people are looking for attention when they say something, or ask for something. A lot of people have problems coming out to ask for things. I hate saying I need help, and if I do and people ignore it... Or treat me bad for it, then I feel like the worst human in the world. If someone asks for something, we are to go and help them. The bible says that, and if you believe the bible and believe in God then you need to realize we are all SERVANTS. We are here to help. We are here to shine God's light and serve people, just like our master did when he was here.
He never told someone no when they asked for help and we should be the same way.

 

[Saucy]

Thank you Kandi for your prayers and kind words. They mean a lot.

 

[KandiJo]

Thank you Kandi for your prayers and kind words. They mean a lot.

I care about you. I know we don't talk much, but I do. I'm very sad to see you and your family hurting.

 

[Saucy]

Thank you. I care about you too. Its so difficult when one horrible thing after another piles on. And the worst part is feeling alone and then having others just think the worst about you. I just lost my cool last night and Im sorry. I was triggered.

 

[KandiJo]

Thank you. I care about you too. Its so difficult when one horrible thing after another piles on. And the worst part is feeling alone and then having others just think the worst about you. I just lost my cool last night and Im sorry. I was triggered.

It happens, I am glad you stated how you felt, and I apologize for not being there.

I never check out the prayer thread, and I realize that is horrible. I am certainly going to keep an eye on it from now on.

 

[LoveDivine]

Thank you. I care about you too. Its so difficult when one horrible thing after another piles on. And the worst part is feeling alone and then having others just think the worst about you. I just lost my cool last night and Im sorry. I was triggered.

I've found that life tends to go in cycles. Sometimes you are at the top of the world and the next minute it seems like life couldn't get any worse. It's really tough to watch someone you care deeply for struggle with serious health issues. I've found though that the really terrible phases in life do eventually pass and are replaced with some sweeter moments. The hard part is to stay hopeful and have faith during those sorrowful times.

 

[Saucy]

I've found that life tends to go in cycles. Sometimes you are at the top of the world and the next minute it seems like life couldn't get any worse. It's really tough to watch someone you care deeply for struggle with serious health issues. I've found though that the really terrible phases in life do eventually pass and are replaced with some sweeter moments. The hard part is to stay hopeful and have faith during those sorrowful times.

Yeah that's probably why this moment has hit me harder. I had overcome a lot in the past year, as I said. I found an excellent paying job and was able to get back on my feet and all in a span of 2-3 weeks, my boss got really sick and he dropped his projects, including the ones I was working. I was out of a job and in panic mode because rent was due and just decided not to pay me. Then my mom was in and out of the ER and multiple doctor's appointments, there was family drama and a rift between my mom and sister which I was in the middle of and trying to bring peace and it kept heaping on and heaping on and I am worn out. I don't know how much more I can handle. And then all this went down last night.

I just don't know what to do right now. I've been shaking, unable to sleep, my landlord is bearing down on me because he was supposed to be paid two weeks ago and I'm doing my best to cling to God. I'm not trying to get all "woe is me" and look for sympathy. I don't know. Some people are better at handling things by themselves. I've had to handle it all by myself since my dad died, trying to fill his shoes and take care of the family and myself and it's all crumbling down around me. My niece is about to turn 3 and I had these really cool gift ideas and now I don't know if I'll be able to get her anything, which makes me feel like a crumb because she always says I'm her best friend.

 

[Take Heart]

Hoping to pass my 2nd semester of Nursing which is coming to an end sometime in August. Please pray that I especially pass my practicum at the hospital and that I pass all my courses. I really want to be in this field and I believe I've been called to do this. Thank you so much in advance

 

[Saucy]

Praying for you! I know you'll knock it out of the park!

 

[LoveDivine]

Yeah that's probably why this moment has hit me harder. I had overcome a lot in the past year, as I said. I found an excellent paying job and was able to get back on my feet and all in a span of 2-3 weeks, my boss got really sick and he dropped his projects, including the ones I was working. I was out of a job and in panic mode because rent was due and just decided not to pay me. Then my mom was in and out of the ER and multiple doctor's appointments, there was family drama and a rift between my mom and sister which I was in the middle of and trying to bring peace and it kept heaping on and heaping on and I am worn out. I don't know how much more I can handle. And then all this went down last night.

I just don't know what to do right now. I've been shaking, unable to sleep, my landlord is bearing down on me because he was supposed to be paid two weeks ago and I'm doing my best to cling to God. I'm not trying to get all "woe is me" and look for sympathy. I don't know. Some people are better at handling things by themselves. I've had to handle it all by myself since my dad died, trying to fill his shoes and take care of the family and myself and it's all crumbling down around me. My niece is about to turn 3 and I had these really cool gift ideas and now I don't know if I'll be able to get her anything, which makes me feel like a crumb because she always says I'm her best friend.

That is really horrible. I wouldn't worry about your niece. She is only 3 and young children really have no idea how expensive or costly a gift is. If you really can't afford to get her a gift, she'd probably feel just as special if you read her a "birthday story" or something. You could even write her a special one.

It is tough to feel all alone and helpless. I'd also add that death of a close family member changes your life forever. It's impossible to truly be the same person after experiencing tragedy. In a way, that isn't a bad thing. Sorrow often produces deep compassion for others. When you do pull through all of this, you will be a stronger person.

 

[Saucy]

Thank you I greatly appreciate you, especially when you checked up on me. That meant more than you know.

 

[Take Heart]

Praying for you! I know you'll knock it out of the park!

Thank you so much Saucy! Your prayers and encouragement mean a lot

 

[Messy]

My niece is about to turn 3 and I had these really cool gift ideas and now I don't know if I'll be able to get her anything, which makes me feel like a crumb because she always says I'm her best friend.

My kids got a 5 euro flying thing from someone and they were so happy with it. Their favorite toy when someone asks what they want is a 2 euro or less fart cushion. One woman said: but don't you want anything else? Huh? Why two presents?
Or a 5 euro soccer Ball, always a big success. I had times where I had to give something like this for their birthday and they were very happy with it.

Btw that must be very hard having to do all that on your own. Praying God helps and strengthens you and that your mom gets healed.

 

[Saucy]

Yeah I understand. She will probably be happy with a box to play in lol. I'm just bummed because I was going to get her one of those Barbie jeeps she can drive around in lol. She already had a million books and little toys she barely gives a wink at. I wanted to do something extra special. Maybe I'll have to settle for another Barny movie she will watch over and over and over again, which is an added bonus because it tortures mommy haha.

 

[AphroditeGoneAwry]

I would like to meet the Littles.

 

[Owlette]

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[Saucy]

I understand Owlly

 

[Owlette]

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[Saucy]

They aren't sure. It's been difficult for her to get the right kind of care, especially since moving up from Texas and having to change her insurance. Doctor's have been inconsistent and it's been a nightmare. They found the cyst when she was just moving up here and they didn't think it would be an issue, but she's had a few seizures since then. Even just a few months ago she had one and fell down the stairs and bruised her ribs really badly. So yeah, it's been difficult for her.