SnowyMacie
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- Apr 12, 2011
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I truly wish I could think like that. I really mean it.
Unfortunately, my entire existence is at the mercy of a narcissistic world that can deny me a job, friends, a home and, in extreme circumstances, my life. We live in a world where might makes right and the meek like me can be thrown away at any time. I am not comfortable with that fact. I don't think anyone with disabilities should be.
Until God calls me home, I will always fear for my existence. Humans are a fickle species, they can be your best friend one day and your mortal adversary the next. That's the reality I face every second of my life.
You can think like that, I do. I was bullied and rejected like you were in school, and absolutely hate this society we live in because of the jobs (my first job out of college was literally for an evil company that made it's money by lying to it's employees) that I've had previously. I slowly came to realize that they only have so much power over me as I let them have, and while the circumstances of my life may be entirely out of my control, how I respond to them is completely and solely my responsibility. My favorite poem is the infamous Invictus by William Ernest Henley...
Out of the night that covers me
Black is the Pit from pole to pole
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody but unbowed
Out of this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid
It matters not how strait the gate
How charged with punishments the scroll
I am the master of my fate
I am the captain of my soul
The theme of the poem is about perseverance and being in charge of what you make of our situation. This poem inspired numerous people, including Nelson Mandela while he was incarcerated. God does not want anyone to suffer, but it happens because of that evil in the world. We can either respond to suffering like Henley (who wrote the poem while suffering from tuberculosis and having amputations), Mandela, and countless others, or choose to wallow in self-pity because of it.
I'm not attacking you or telling you that you are wrong for feeling a certain way, I think it is justified, but I am just saying that it is not your only option.
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