We all have our struggles, some more so than others. God is certainly Gracious to everyone. Why? Because Jesus is the light of this world and He is sharing His light through every one of those who believe in Him. No matter what we struggle with. Paul, he is a very good example of what you have said. He wanted God to take away his weaknesses but God said He would strengthen him from those weaknesses instead. God's Grace is sufficient enough. 2 Corinthians 12:5-10
Please understand that I say this to be uplifting, I am truly sorry you're going through hardship, but know God is with you, and us too!
I just wonder how real many people on this forum's faith would be if they were stripped of all their desirable qualities and life privileges and forced to live a life like mine. Would their faith be as strong then?
I see too many fakers in this religion. You have all these millionaire preachers with their ten million dollar homes, gold plated Lamborghini's, private jets ready to fly to Tahiti, and high status/popularity in their churches and genuinely believe that they served God with great faith. It's easy to have faith in God when you have $25,000 in the bank but how strong would that faith be if you're $25,000 in debt and have angry creditors coming after you?
I know for a fact that many on this forum would consider my faith 'weak' but truth is, I'm just being honest. On the other subforums you have Christians threatening to leave the religion because life was not the grand adventure they thought it would be. There are people in the world getting killed for their faith and people just leave Jesus out of personal convenience. Furthermore, there are many Christians who say we are perfect in weakness but then turn around and honor the strong: the talented musician, the charismatic preacher, the rich tither and whatever celebrity who comes to church ready to be converted. It's hypocrisy that only I seem to be aware of.
I often question if Christians even believe what Jesus taught. They use their God given talents to live their own lives for their own benefit while I tried to invest what little God gave me to make other lives better. Guess who gets treated like an actual person and who doesn't? Other Christians actually get to live life. I only get to survive it.
God added diversity to a world that cannot handle diversity. Even among Christians people look at each other either in pride or envy. I'm on disability pension from the government and conservative Christians from the States give me crap for accepting help from the government. Other church goers are unwilling to be help me out so who do I have to rely on for support? These people seem to care more about their own wealth than the life of another person. One of these days God is going to tell them, "To Hell with your culture, what have you done to advance my Kingdom's ideals?"
Very, very few of you can understand my frustrations. Go ahead, just shy away from me for my anger instead of welcoming the stranger. I am a stranger in a strange land that fears differences. It's human nature. It's why I cannot put my trust in humanity but in God instead. I'm tired of all this world's politics and I feel no need to help a world that regards me as an abomination anymore.
I'm done with this philanthropy ministry.