I'm curious to know what type of 'evidence' of God that the resident atheists around here might accept, and find compelling? At the present moment, do you believe that there is "no" evidence of God, little evidence of God or just not convincing enough evidence of God for your personal tastes? Do you believe that the topic of God can be studied scientifically? Must all cause/effect relationship be demonstrated empirically in controlled experimentation to your personal satisfaction, or would you accept simple uncontrolled observations as a form of "evidence", even if it's less than convincing evidence?
I read broadly, including great thinkers like Lao Tzu (The Tao), Emerson, and pieces of so many thinkers, anyone that was well known I could find, and of course also Jesus of Nazareth included. Eventually I was noticing Jesus's statements were an intersection set of other ideas from around the world, like Buddhist compassion and such. An intersection set much of it, but what about some of the radical things like "love your enemies".....?
I remember deciding to test some of the radical ideas by direct test, because I thought -- 'he's got a lot of things right clearly, like 'love your neighbor', and so what about this radical idea, could it work, even though I don't think it will?'
So I did test it, which was difficult of course, to show love to someone that was disdainful towards me, the only persisting enemy I could find in life even after about 35 years, and the hardest to ever love of anyone I knew at that time.
So I did, at least in actions and words and attitude, and even to some extent in truly trying to see things from his point of view, and have sympathy, inside my own thoughts.
The result was shocking and really amazing to me.
This (very troubled) person that seemed so arrogant and dismissive and casually belittling, disregarding, etc., suddenly turned into a warm and friendly person who seemed to genuinely esteem me.
Boy was I surprised.
I went on and tested every statement of Jesus that I could test, in a variety of ways. What if I just forgave a person even though they did not deserve it? Tried it. It works!
They all worked, and more, they worked really great. Giving results far better than every other way of being I had tried -- my life became rich with more love and well functioning friendships. This wasn't a one-off -- I was a person that tried anything and everything that seemed interesting, so it was comparing to a lot of various other ways to live, including a lot of stuff like healing old emotions, owning your stuff, meditating, etc., all of which are good, and help anyone, and worked also, but.....not nearly so dramatically to produce such total and far reaching results as His ideas.
So.... you see, after a perfect string of 100% working well ideas with no failures among them, I began to wonder if it could be that most anything He said was true....so I read more and thought on it more, trying to piece it all together with life without presuming He was divine.
Later I decided to find out if it was all real, and God existed. I reasoned that if God existed, then He would answer a prayer to be brought to Him. And so I took a leap of faith, then, and prayed sincerely, for a moment, one day, "God, make a way from me to you. ...... Bring me to you."
I prayed it with real faith in that moment, a leap of faith. And as Him being God. As actually praying to God Himself. So I was humble before Him in that prayer.
He did.