What triggers and... how do you deal? (trigger warning)

[Kristen.NewCreation]

Recently I went through a great loss in my heart, and for the first time in probably a year, I was tempted to cut. The trigger was my kitten had used her claws and caught me really bad. It had initially crossed my mind, but when my emotions got out of wack, I had to really work to fight the thoughts.

I reminded myself I have too much time. I prayed, and I just refused to move until I was thinking clearly again.


What triggers you to want to self-injure and how do you deal with the thoughts so you don't?

In Him,
Kristen

 

[livingforGod135]

arguments at home, dissappointments (in myself)

get ova the thoughts by remembering how badly i want 2 beat this, and im not gonna beat it if i give up 'now' ... or call someone

 

[berry2000]

being angry, which turns into being angry at myself for being angry in the first place.

Feeling unimportant, neglected, or somehow abandon (real or perceived).

Suicidal thoughts mixed with emotional turmoil.

I try to call someone. Remember scriptures that remind me of the truth, journal, or write poetry.

 

[flying_kiwifruit]

Disapointment whether it be in my imagination or real life, alot of that comes from no longer being a top of the class student like I used to be.

Anger at people which I can't express, so I turn it onto myself.

Pure self hatered some night for letting my self become like I am.

And lastly feeling a emotion, been numb for don't know how long so feeling anything strongly can be very overwhelming.


My distractions, working on my Novel until I need to go to sleep, writing poetry, listening to some types of music, if I can going for a walk. I have people I can text or MSN but rarely do this as I dont like bothering people.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

I try to call someone. Remember scriptures that remind me of the truth, journal, or write poetry.

I have journaled as well... I find writing very helpful. The truth and feelings don't always agree do they. We know that this will pass (truth) but it feels like it never will.

My distractions, working on my Novel until I need to go to sleep, writing poetry, listening to some types of music, if I can going for a walk. I have people I can text or MSN but rarely do this as I dont like bothering people.

I too like writing and music. I find music can be very soothing but sometimes certain music grate on my emotions.

 

[Terax]

Self-hatred.
When I feel like I annoy someone.
When I feel alone.
Random sometimes.

I don't really do anything to stop myself most of the time. I guess talking to someone or keeping myself busy helps every now and then.

 

[brokenwings27]

ok.. what triggers me...
hmm i guess sometimes just being alone for long periods of time.. cuz my thoughts tend to wander, disappointment,
thinking about the things that made me start SIing in the first place,
sometimes the thought to SI just pops into my head
feeling lonely,
and the rest i m not sure

how i cope
i paint sometimes
i wrote a poem once, but now i cant really bare to read it because it sounds so evil
i read
i do sudoku
or i just.. sit there and think about it until i think about something else... basically

 

[anteloperunner]

What if the trigger is an entire day of the year? How do you deal with it?

you cant spend the whole day excersing or doing distraction stuff. I have found a way to cope with almost all other triggers but this one.

 

[Loopi]

What if the trigger is an entire day of the year? How do you deal with it?

you cant spend the whole day excersing or doing distraction stuff. I have found a way to cope with almost all other triggers but this one.

I have a day of the year too. The anniversary of my Nan's death. You're right, distracting yourself for a whole day is really difficult. Spending the day doing something "feel good" for yourself seems to work for me. Shopping with friends, going out for a meal, getting your hair done...something that passes a fair few hours. It is tough. But i find that when my day is full up with things that take care of me and make me feel good, then its easier to deal with the rest of the day.

Other things that trigger me:
Anger - not being able/knowing how to express it, so i turn it back on me. Then i get angry at myself for being angry.
Frustration
My mother
Feeling like everything in the world is my fault, and that i have to be sorry.
Suicidal feelings.
Being so spaced out that i feel like a zombie.

I don't always deal with it very well. I used to write A LOT of poems. When i live with my mother i used to find my chinchilla a great way to deal with triggers too. Chasing him around my living room playing certainly is a distraction. I email someone. I go for a walk. Mainly I play world of warcraft and get lost in a game chatting to other people and forget who i am and whats bothering me for a few hours. By the time i log off, i normally don't feel so bad.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

I really like the things that are being shared that help. I'm glad too that we can see what creates challenges... as that helps us to be able to plan to make good choices.

When you are using the things to help yourself, do you move from one thing to try to another? I've found that it's important for me to do multiple things to manage my thoughts and impulses depending upon the struggle.

The key I've found too, is being around people who I can spend time with and talking through the feelings, even if I don't share all that I'm thinking.

 

[Leechness]

...i do sudoku...

i should give that a try.


its either i have v little selfworth --- and in a desructive frame of mind.

or

just cravings. - nothing attached, though sometimes if i think about it too much i find things to assoicate it with. i feel relaxed straight after a session.
often thoughts orientate round - my sexuality, how im properly destined to be alone. being replaceable. my meaningless existance. my friend's marijuana in take...

im often, nearly always at a friend's house (as i refuse to cut there) helping out with domestics - so that keeps me company for a while. though if the need is too strong i go home... i once went out to a park near their house after midnight to do it...now that ive confessed it here - i sounds so desperate

watching movies always helps.

ive started to try and call to ask for prayer - because even though im at a friend's house - im always conscious they'd get annoyed and think different of me if i told them everytime i want to -- they said they dont without me asking if they do...so i suppose im being paranoid

now that one or two people know - and we've talk about it, my choice or not, i try and remember truths they've said to me...
not very "spiritual" but like someone said before - i dont want their prayers going waste.
twice after prayer, the following day, it actually feels lifted and a million miles away- that's a spiritual release :]

when i have a sound mind i realise a lot of my thoughts are lies and irrational. I've having more days where im beginning to see it being wrong - must be the prayers

yeah -- whole day ones are hard...erhk. i get them often. its exhausting just trying not give in.

 

[dragonbesas]

Either i just get a bad craving for it or:
1. The cold...that's when i see my scars a lot more...they get really red and sometimes hurt and that triggers it
2. Blood
3. sound of a gun shot
4. arguments with my loved ones (rare)

Well now...i either talk to my best friend (now my boyfriend ;p) who is a good christian, pray, or just sit down and think...regather my thoughts