I hear so much of the sense of peace everyone gains when they go to Christ. I on the other hand, feel more pain, guilt, sorrow, and overall depression then ever. It isn't just myself (for myself I'd understand, cause I think it is normal to feel bad for my past and mistakes I still make at times) but i used to be able to hear a moving song, or see a hurting child, or walk by the homeless, and yes i would feel for them, but it didn't really get to me...and if it did I could turn away. Now, anytime I see someone...especially children (which is funny, cause kids (aside from my own daughter) normally get on my nerves)...in pain or in need i want to do it...I have this urge to go find a homeless person and take them home and clean them up find them a job they can walk to a place they can stay, and get there life together, I want to save all the abused children...i feel like I NEED to...and because i am not in a situation that gives me the finances or time to do this I feel empty...I see their pain...AND I HURT SO BAD for them...it is an actual physical pain in my heart...ok...so am i a freak, or what is up...
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What Is Wrong With Me?
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Nothing is wrong with you , you have the love of Christ dwelling in you.
Ephesians 3:19
And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God.
2 Thessalonians 3:5
And the Lord direct your hearts into the love of God, and into the patient waiting for Christ.
1 Timothy 1:14
And the grace of our Lord was exceeding abundant with faith and love which is in Christ Jesus.
1 John 3:23
And this is his commandment, That we should believe on the name of his Son Jesus Christ, and love one another, as he gave us commandment.
1 John 5:1
Whosoever believeth that Jesus is the Christ is born of God: and every one that loveth him that begat loveth him also that is begotten of him.
Ephesians 3:19
And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God.
2 Thessalonians 3:5
And the Lord direct your hearts into the love of God, and into the patient waiting for Christ.
1 Timothy 1:14
And the grace of our Lord was exceeding abundant with faith and love which is in Christ Jesus.
1 John 3:23
And this is his commandment, That we should believe on the name of his Son Jesus Christ, and love one another, as he gave us commandment.
1 John 5:1
Whosoever believeth that Jesus is the Christ is born of God: and every one that loveth him that begat loveth him also that is begotten of him.
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You're not a freak. I know exactly how you feel. I feel the same about pretty much everything you said there.secretdawn said:
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It is good to know that others feel that way...does anyone have a suggestion as to how i could satisfy this urge...or at least get to where i don't feel guilty all the time? It is extremely overwhelming at times and leads to depression...
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I didn't realize I could do that...
Could this be one of those "calling" things i have heard about...i planned on going to school to teach theatre and english, but could it possibly be that isn't what i should do with my life.
Could this be one of those "calling" things i have heard about...i planned on going to school to teach theatre and english, but could it possibly be that isn't what i should do with my life.
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Your experiencing the burden that Christ himself feels.......... Pray !! ......Actually it could be that maybe what hes teaching you here is the need to pray whenever your faced with a situation and feel helpless to alleviate it. Dont be depressed !! Take it as an opportunity to speak to God about what your experiencing. Who knows? Maybe some day you will find yourself in a position to do something about it. Prayer is powerfull and effective!! Dont go rushing into anything. if God calls you to a ministry and your open to him and walking with him then he wont leave you in any doupt as to what to do!!secretdawn said:
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You could volunteer and be helpful to others. Work in the soup kitchen, or help the local Sally Ann (Salvation Army) with their Christmas kettles. Donate some winter clothes for the needy. Visit people in the hospital or prison, or whatever feels doable for you. It could be such a blessing.
Also, it could be a "general" calling, in that you could have a heart for helping others. It does not necessarily mean that your goals are to be discarded. Teaching is good, and it is a way to give of yourself to others, too.
Although it is a widely held view, I do not believe God has a specifically tailored, detailed, life-plan for people who follow Him. I think He has a general plan for all believers, to be found in Scripture. But within those Biblical general guidelines, you are free to make choices and decisions.
I hope this is helpful.
Also, it could be a "general" calling, in that you could have a heart for helping others. It does not necessarily mean that your goals are to be discarded. Teaching is good, and it is a way to give of yourself to others, too.
Although it is a widely held view, I do not believe God has a specifically tailored, detailed, life-plan for people who follow Him. I think He has a general plan for all believers, to be found in Scripture. But within those Biblical general guidelines, you are free to make choices and decisions.
I hope this is helpful.
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I donate what i can, money, clothes, i give money to people on the street whether i can afford it or not (usually not), but sometimes i just want to grab these people and say God loves you...you have a purpose...I believe in you and so does HE! GRRR...it is frustrating...but i will pray about it, i don't know, maybe i should reevaluate my job choices or something...
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pmarquette
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Psalm 118.5 KJV (119.5 NAB ) in my pain and anxiety , I called upon the Lord
and He heard and answered me [ paraphrase : daddy fix it ; I asked He heard
done deal ]
The hardest thing is to forgive ourselves ;
to put it behind us , and go foreward ( Proverbs 24.16 )
Paul said " to forget what is behind ( for there is nothing we can do ) ,
and press on to the prise ( what we can do - better , different , or change )
of the high calling of Christ ....
Where do you hurt the most ? What do you need the most ?
Find some one and sow that thing : love , compassion , forgiveness ,
mercy , grace , money .... that in due season , you might harvest
what you have sown in love ...
and He heard and answered me [ paraphrase : daddy fix it ; I asked He heard
done deal ]
The hardest thing is to forgive ourselves ;
to put it behind us , and go foreward ( Proverbs 24.16 )
Paul said " to forget what is behind ( for there is nothing we can do ) ,
and press on to the prise ( what we can do - better , different , or change )
of the high calling of Christ ....
Where do you hurt the most ? What do you need the most ?
Find some one and sow that thing : love , compassion , forgiveness ,
mercy , grace , money .... that in due season , you might harvest
what you have sown in love ...
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Where do i hurt the most...hmmm...i hurt for others the most...like i am poor, and have a daughter, my 4 year relationship just went down the tube, my best friend and i are fighting...but...i have my daughter, my ex will one day be a good friend, and i am moving up, slow as it may be...it is a struggle, but i have a chance...why doesn't everyone else have that and why should i deserve it? what makes me special?
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Secretdawn - It sounds as though this is more of a blessing in disguise in a way. From reading your reactions to various things it sounds kinda like you have got a heart for these people (through past expirences), at that though, I would caution you to be careful who you help.
For the guilt over past mistakes, it's time now to step up to the plate and face this one head on. To chose to stand upon the promise that you are forgiven, and everything you do, or will ever do has been paid for in full by the blood of Christ. You must stand upon that promise.
One of Satan's main goals is to get people looking so far into their pasts that they cannot see what's at hand, what He has planned for now. Like on the show happy days, Fonzie says;" Those who live in the past, are mostly dead."
The past is dead, don't try to let it rehearse itself over and over again. You are forgiven and the debt has been paid for in FULL, there is not a drop a guilt left for you, because He destroyed it with His drops of blood.
Though the past is an extremely difficult thing to face, and the reaction you mentioned may be you trying to work out the guilt by "undoing," the wrongdoing. The past cannot be changed, but you cna change what tomorrow will bring and what you will do, that's the key to healing through this.
The best thing to do is pray, in fact one of the only things. I have found that when the past comes to attack, the only thing that fights of the enemy is prayer and reminding myself I am forgiven... Because Satan is going around like a lion looking for those he can eat and destroy. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak. Watch and pray.....
For the guilt over past mistakes, it's time now to step up to the plate and face this one head on. To chose to stand upon the promise that you are forgiven, and everything you do, or will ever do has been paid for in full by the blood of Christ. You must stand upon that promise.
One of Satan's main goals is to get people looking so far into their pasts that they cannot see what's at hand, what He has planned for now. Like on the show happy days, Fonzie says;" Those who live in the past, are mostly dead."
The past is dead, don't try to let it rehearse itself over and over again. You are forgiven and the debt has been paid for in FULL, there is not a drop a guilt left for you, because He destroyed it with His drops of blood.
Though the past is an extremely difficult thing to face, and the reaction you mentioned may be you trying to work out the guilt by "undoing," the wrongdoing. The past cannot be changed, but you cna change what tomorrow will bring and what you will do, that's the key to healing through this.
The best thing to do is pray, in fact one of the only things. I have found that when the past comes to attack, the only thing that fights of the enemy is prayer and reminding myself I am forgiven... Because Satan is going around like a lion looking for those he can eat and destroy. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak. Watch and pray.....
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I had to put my answers up above to the different sections cuz I haven't figured out yet how to do seperate quotes yet.pmarquette said:Psalm 118.5 KJV (119.5 NAB ) in my pain and anxiety , I called upon the Lord
and He heard and answered me [ paraphrase : daddy fix it ; I asked He heard
done deal ]
Amen to that! I have problems with anxiety and I am now learning that when I feel something come over me, I just stop and bow my head in prayer. It is an awesome thing when I feel better all of a sudden. Thank you Lord!
The hardest thing is to forgive ourselves ;
to put it behind us , and go foreward ( Proverbs 24.16 )
I have a semi bad past and I am finding that it is harder to forgive myself and put it behind me. That is one to work on.
And just a quick question. Is that the right verse? Cuz in Proverbs 24.16 I have in 3 of my Bibles (KJV, NLT, & NIV) for through a righteous man falls seven times, he rises again, but the wicked are brought down by calamity.
I was just wondering if this was the right one or not.
Paul said " to forget what is behind ( for there is nothing we can do ) ,
and press on to the prise ( what we can do - better , different , or change )
of the high calling of Christ ....
Where do you hurt the most ? What do you need the most ?
Find some one and sow that thing : love , compassion , forgiveness ,
mercy , grace , money .... that in due season , you might harvest
what you have sown in love ...
I just wanted to share too that I feel the same way. I am learning how to help out more.
Just for an example: The other day there was a guy standing on the side of the road, dressed in a coat, hat and gloves, with a sign that said "Will work for food, family is hungry." My heart completely went out to this guy. I wanted to stop the car right away and give him $20.00. The only problem was that he was on the other side of the street I was going in to. So I asked God, "If I am meant to give this stranger this money, he will be out here in the same place when I come out." That way, neither him nor I would have to cross the busy street and I would only have to stop for a few seconds. The funny thing is, is that when I drove out of there, he was gone. Now knowing myself, I drove down a block to see if he was there, and sure enough he was. So I asked God the same question. I turned around and went out the way he was facing. This guy ended up folding up his sign and started to wonder around by the trees so I wouldn't have access to giving him any money.
I think that God was trying to tell me that this was the wrong person to do this for. I should have listened the first time.
There was a time about 4 months ago, same situation, were I couldn't get the money out fast enough for this man. I knew that I was meant to help him out. I had the best feeling inside.
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