I'm 43, have the best wife and children, successful at work, respected at church, but feel so ashamed of who I am when no one else is looking or around. I feel isolated and alone with no strong Christian men in my life to ask me the hard questions.
I struggle with porn, have weeks free of it, but then succumb to the trash. I've all but given up on trying to do anything about it. I've prayed so many prayers, shared with other people about it in the past and now it's just that thing, that sinful part of me that gets what it wants, and it is disgusting to me.
I had some bisexual experiences when I was in private school, 30 years ago. And that has messed me up a bit. No, I don't want a relationship with another guy, but I watch women doing anal porn, and I know it is just wrong.
But I just don't know what to do about it. I'm very sincere when I ask God to give me the strength, and then I fail. Yes, very familiar with Romans 7 thank you. Sometimes just wish there was another guy that knew everything about me and accepted me for who I am, I think some of that stuff would lose its power over me.
I struggle with porn, have weeks free of it, but then succumb to the trash. I've all but given up on trying to do anything about it. I've prayed so many prayers, shared with other people about it in the past and now it's just that thing, that sinful part of me that gets what it wants, and it is disgusting to me.
I had some bisexual experiences when I was in private school, 30 years ago. And that has messed me up a bit. No, I don't want a relationship with another guy, but I watch women doing anal porn, and I know it is just wrong.
But I just don't know what to do about it. I'm very sincere when I ask God to give me the strength, and then I fail. Yes, very familiar with Romans 7 thank you. Sometimes just wish there was another guy that knew everything about me and accepted me for who I am, I think some of that stuff would lose its power over me.
