I struggle with what you're talking about too. It seems like Christianity just enables cruelty while allowing Christians to just be slaughtered.
Romans 8:36
English Standard Version
As it is written, “For your sake we are being killed all the day long; we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered.”
I think the idea is that through your own kindness and love you eventually convert your enemies to also be loving and kind through Christ. but when that doesn't work, yeah, you get wiped out like what happens to christians that get mowed down for God. but you have to consider people on the other side that are on the side of your enemies. They don't see how your enemy wrongs you, they see how you have wronged your enemy. I believe in getting justice according to the law, which is why you follow the laws of the land, unless it's like the Holocaust or something.
Hebrews 13:17
17Obey your leaders and submit to them, for they are keeping watch over your souls, as those who will have to give an account. Let them do this with joy and not with groaning, for that would be of no advantage to you.
The thing about justice is, I think God expects us to go and get it, but not revenge. Justice is maybe petititoning for new laws and going to court.
Matthew 23:23
"Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You give a tenth of your spices-mint, dill and cummin. But you have neglected the more important matters of the law-
justice, mercy and faithfulness. You should have practiced the latter, without neglecting the former.
I think the passage implies that justice is the responsibility of the rulers, but in america we're all citizens, so it's everyone's responsibility, and people kind of expect you to stick up for yourself.
I think also people are supposed to pray for justice, but understand that ultimate justice will be served by God in the afterlife.
Luke 18:1-8
New International Version (NIV)
The Parable of the Persistent Widow
18 Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. 2 He said: “In a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared what people thought. 3 And there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, ‘Grant me justice against my adversary.’
4 “For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, ‘Even though I don’t fear God or care what people think, 5 yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won’t eventually come and attack me!’”
6 And the Lord said, “Listen to what the unjust judge says. 7 And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? 8 I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?”
I don't believe in revenge. If the law says it's fine, then just pray for justice. The problem with hate is that it is the opposite of God.
It's kind of like has already been said here. We're all fallen, so we're called to forgive so that we can be forgiven.
You say your reason for living is hatred and getting revenge. What happens when your satisfied? Will you just commit suicide? Can't you find a reason to live for based on love, like loving your family?
also, christianity spreads best in my opinion by showing love for your enemies, not hate, and you want everyone to be christian so that everyone is saved.
you know, the funny thing is, most people genuinely believe they're the good guy and that they're not going to hell.