The past two days have been really bad I have been trying to force myself into believing that either there is a God or no God. It has been exhausting. My pastor tells me if I want to believe in God I can and if I choose not to I will go to hell. What if you want to but just don't. I know people like that. If you do not believe, have faith or trust God is there how can you make yourself and why do u deserve hell when if God exists he did not give you these things ding ding ding he predestined people. Then my pastor said I have to trust God to save me if I do believe but doubt because he promised he would save me. Uuum then why all the you have to believe in God with all your heart to be saved etc.