I've been doing a lot of reflecting on my recent attitude and feelings toward my Christian walk and something very worrying occurred to me. I've found that my main motivation for doing anything that I do (praying, going to church, staying clear of temptation) is fueled by my fear of eternal damnation.
I don't know if anyone else goes through this, but it is scary. What if I am Christian mainly because I'm scared to go to hell?
I think many come to Christ in order to avoid hell.
We are naturally interested in self-preservation... and that's healthy and right.
Otherwise, God wouldn't use hell as a motivator.
However, He does command us to love Him with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength.
That's a far cry from doing what he tells us to, just to keep from being punished.
Of course, naturally, we love ourselves more than we love God.
So, how does one go from loving self most, to loving God most?
It's a process, called sanctification.
And I think we in Western culture have a problem with the idea of "loving God" because of our terminology. We think there are different kinds of "love" because to us, love is primarily an emotion.
We can't change our emotions. They just happen to us!
But to the Hebrew mind, there is only one word for love. (Unlike Greek!)
To the Hebrew mind, love is not primarily an emotion. It's a choice.
If one says in Hebrew, "I love spaghetti," he is really saying, "My food of choice is spaghetti."
If one says to his wife, "I love you", it is a statement of choice. "I choose you, over all others."
If one says to God, "I love you," it is the same statement: "I choose you to be my God."
Therefore, to love God with all the heart, soul, mind and strength, is to choose HIM without heart reservation, without soul reservation, without mind reservation, and without reservation of bodily strength.
Jesus Christ is our Bridegroom. He expects his bride-to-be, to keep herself from all others, only to Him.
He expects us to choose not to gaze upon the world, fascinated at what it has to offer.
Because those who love this present world, and want the world to love them, are enemies to God.
If we love the world, we are spiritually two-timing on our Bridegroom!
James 4:4
If you see you love the world (or yourself) more than you love God, then repent.
Ask for forgiveness.
And then, start paying attention to your Bridegroom, as if you were His bride-to-be.
Act as if you are in love with Him.
It's a choice.
It's not hypocrisy.
Hypocrisy is trying to fool someone. You aren't trying to fool God. You are trying to love Him.
And if you do this, you will soon find yourself feeling the emotions of falling-in-love with Jesus.