What Helps During Suicidal?

[redblue22]

I am NOT thinking about hurting myself.

But I do wonder what helps during those times. Honestly, I can't hear much during those times, so I think it might be good to ask during the better times.

Someone asked me why I didn't and I don't know. I don't know how even some friends survived attempts. God.

I fear hell. I felt angry that someone might use my death to get some comfort when they didn't care. Sometimes a friend's attempt stops me. Also started to see a pattern that life had ups and downs. So, I expect the ups when I'm down, and downs when I'm up. No surprises anymore. I felt sad and never even bothered with a note because who would care. And I came up with a weird plan I called "suicide lifestyle." I wrote down all the reasons not to. Went through, crossed them off. Decided to. Then made a list of all I wanted to do before I did it. My list grew and I found there were some fun things. And even some therapeutic things. I figured why not try all the suggestions while I was at it. Life has been an adventure. My list has grown so long over the years that it really would take two lifetimes to do everything.

When I've considered, I've talked to people and they get really mad. Peope do not want to be bothered. I tried calling some of the numbers, but they just tell me that if I'm serious that they can't talk to me. Irony. I'm not sure what counts as an attempt. I guess it doesn't matter.

I never know what to do when someone comes to me. I try to love, listen, and accept them. I'm a little afraid to say to a jumper, "Well, do it. But let's talk about a little plan." Pray.

I just wonder what you found helps you or others.

Probably nothing to worry about. I mean, it has been years since I even considered an attempt. But I've gotten kindof brave and wanted to stop keeping this all secret. So I wanted to share and ask at the same time. Thank you for listening.

 

[whitebeaches]

Thank you for sharing this. I like how when someone comes to you you try to love listen and accept them. I think that is so important. Life is so precious and we are so special and God loves us so much that he gave us each other to help each other through the tough times and to enjoy the good times.

I try to help my friends. I pray for them and are there for them. I offer them hugs and support. I let them know I love them and they are important to me. I listen to them as they talk and I have given numbers before as well so they could call a hot line at anytime. I don't know how much I help them but I always try to be there for them.

 

[Alienated]

When I told the cops I wanted to die, they stripped me naked and through me in a rubber room for 13 days. I was mentally ill, my mom was dying of bone cancer, I was homeless, and strung-out on drugs, and starving to death. Some days they checked on me, but most they didn't. And that was seven years ago.

I see thread after thread of young people here that is talking about wanting to die. And I just don't understand it, nobody is willing to spend any time with them. Or actually listen to them, because all they can say is I want, I want, I want, And people caudle them with " Praying for you" " Throwing Hugs you way " " Jesus loves you"... etc... THAT"S NOT LOVE !!!!! That is apathetic contempt....

They are suicidal because they have NEVER been shown love, they are dying of loneliness. Nobody has the time to actually befriend them, actually open their heart and share their pain. " You know like Jesus commanded !! A three fold cord is not easily broken, and pity the man who has no one to help him up. Instead they get polite ways of " I don't want to hear it", and just go away !!! And if you don't have Joy you don't have God !!

If you ask these kids if they got anyone to talk to, the answer is ALWAYS NO !! They are afraid to go to church, because they get blamed and brow beaten, or just ignored. And That's a Fact Jack !!! We created this problem, and refuse to step up to the plate and take responsibility for our IDLENESS and SELFISHNESS.

Love is not a emotion it's ACTION. These kids need to be shown love, not just told. Words are lies, actions are not. God so Loved the world He GAVE. So we give them electronic (((HUGS))) ! That's murder in Gods eyes. If your brother or sister is in need, and you don't supply it. How can you have the love of Christ in you?

All I'm saying, is we live in a over populated world and nobody actually talks to anybody else. If we really want to claim we have love in us, maybe we ought to start showing it. And not push them away to a doctor to take a pill, or let someone else deal with them. We are CHRISTIAN"S we promise life, but what do we really been delivering ?

 

[redblue22]

thank you for sharing your experience. gave me a lot to reflect on. I could feel the emotions.

I would be careful with the idea that it is only young people. suicide knows no age. I think the depressed elderly get overlooked because people figure they lived life and haven't much longer anyway. (the elderly are seen as subhuman--just look at how people regard elderly romances as "cute" as if they were children) Resources can run out after college--if you went to college. mental illness, such as mood disorders, can be a lifelong battle. People seemed to think once I got out of my teens all would be fine. Well, it is for some. But it comes back again for others.

I am encouraged by your words. I look forward to others. Thank you.

RB

 

[Alienated]

Why do you think I was visiting this thread ? You felt the emotion in it because it's my story too.
I concentrated on the young so you could relate.

Mental illness, mood disorders, and personality disorders, can also be cured... It's called a psychic change, a spiritual awakening.
I haven't gone to college but studied on my own, with a special twist. ( I Lived it )


I totally destroyed my life, lost all hope, every one that meant anything to me. Ended up living in a treatment center, severely brain damaged. Then God spoke to me and said, Learn all you can about me, and all I have Created. I spent 6 years doing that. Then He said "Now turn around and look what I brought you through, Now do you trust Me ? Will you walk through fire to get to me ? And will you be willing to die for someone you don't even know? I said YES !! Jesus loved even a old drunk like me, and gave me back all the years I wasted. He let me struggle and see how bad life can get, to give me true empathy to share with others. And have the strength and will to NEVER quit.

 

[LenorPennyp]

Why do you think I was visiting this thread ? You felt the emotion in it because it's my story too.
I concentrated on the young so you could relate.

Mental illness, mood disorders, and personality disorders, can also be cured... It's called a psychic change, a spiritual awakening.
I haven't gone to college but studied on my own, with a special twist. ( I Lived it )


I totally destroyed my life, lost all hope, every one that meant anything to me. Ended up living in a treatment center, severely brain damaged. Then God spoke to me and said, Learn all you can about me, and all I have Created. I spent 6 years doing that. Then He said "Now turn around and look what I brought you through, Now do you trust Me ? Will you walk through fire to get to me ? And will you be willing to die for someone you don't even know? I said YES !! Jesus loved even a old drunk like me, and gave me back all the years I wasted. He let me struggle and see how bad life can get, to give me true empathy to share with others. And have the strength and will to NEVER quit.

I have learned a great lesson from you, my situation is also being like yours and I'm also thinking of moving towards God's path.. this is only the way I think.