For months, I have been going crazy trying to make a big decision.
Should I stay at my dream school or go to an affordable school?
Last year in January, I was accepted into my dream school and transferred from a school I was attending that was in my state. However I realized at the last minute that the school is way too expensive for my family. The bills were so high I almost didn't go back to school.
When I first got accepted into the school, something told me this is where I needed to be. I put the decision in God's hands for me to go or not. When I got accepted, I thought it was God telling me yes. But my experience thus far has been a 6/10. Haven't made any friends, didn't go out cause I had no one to go with, administration is terrible. However, this school is known for notable alumni, and it is "historical." It is very well known and I can land so many opportunities and internships here.
But of course like I said, the school is very expensive. The tuition even increased so now it is about $60k a year. I rely heavily on loans, no scholarships. It is becoming increasingly difficult to afford tuition. I won't even get into the horrendous housing situation. They don't have enough space to house all their students and the school is located in an expensive city. I clearly didn't research enough and think this through. But again, I thought this is where God wanted me to be. He pulled off miracles and paid off big bills. So I thought maybe he can continue doing that?
But then I thought that was ridiculous. The main struggle is the tuition here. The tuition has caused me so much stress and put a lot on me mentally. So I had to research other schools. I found a school in my state that is pretty cheap. I'm trying to get some grants, + my loans I think it'll be even cheaper (trying to make sure now). The school has pretty good ratings, it's about 40 minutes away from where I live. But this will be my third college now. Transferring is a terrible experience with making sure all my credits transfer, starting over again, etc.
I say all of this to say...that I am so confused. I had a feeling that God wanted me to be at the expensive university. But then again if he doesn't, why would he put me through all that trouble? I've been praying for months for God to give me some sort of sign, but I haven't received one yet. I'd think I'd have my mind all made up, but then feel like I'm making the wrong decision.
Should I stay at my dream school or go to an affordable school?
Last year in January, I was accepted into my dream school and transferred from a school I was attending that was in my state. However I realized at the last minute that the school is way too expensive for my family. The bills were so high I almost didn't go back to school.
When I first got accepted into the school, something told me this is where I needed to be. I put the decision in God's hands for me to go or not. When I got accepted, I thought it was God telling me yes. But my experience thus far has been a 6/10. Haven't made any friends, didn't go out cause I had no one to go with, administration is terrible. However, this school is known for notable alumni, and it is "historical." It is very well known and I can land so many opportunities and internships here.
But of course like I said, the school is very expensive. The tuition even increased so now it is about $60k a year. I rely heavily on loans, no scholarships. It is becoming increasingly difficult to afford tuition. I won't even get into the horrendous housing situation. They don't have enough space to house all their students and the school is located in an expensive city. I clearly didn't research enough and think this through. But again, I thought this is where God wanted me to be. He pulled off miracles and paid off big bills. So I thought maybe he can continue doing that?
But then I thought that was ridiculous. The main struggle is the tuition here. The tuition has caused me so much stress and put a lot on me mentally. So I had to research other schools. I found a school in my state that is pretty cheap. I'm trying to get some grants, + my loans I think it'll be even cheaper (trying to make sure now). The school has pretty good ratings, it's about 40 minutes away from where I live. But this will be my third college now. Transferring is a terrible experience with making sure all my credits transfer, starting over again, etc.
I say all of this to say...that I am so confused. I had a feeling that God wanted me to be at the expensive university. But then again if he doesn't, why would he put me through all that trouble? I've been praying for months for God to give me some sort of sign, but I haven't received one yet. I'd think I'd have my mind all made up, but then feel like I'm making the wrong decision.
