What depression feels like

[Heartfelt123]

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No friends call or come over anymore
I feel so alone on this earth
Just me, my mind and my crazy feelings
The darkness closes in around me
Im in darkness but the sun hurts my eyes
I feel cold, like the blood has stopped going to my hands
Nothing but emptiness and lonelyness
Does anyone love me? Do i know what love is?
I sit and stare
watching the images stream and glare
I think but i dont care
Who am I? and what an I?
Ive tried to make something of my life
Ive tried to find Jesus (still searching)
Sometimes i think i hear Him, His Creation
But its just a figment of bipolar imagination
Fido and Wiskers bring me no comfort
The hole in my heart grows bigger each day
I feel my soul starting to decay
I try to cry but i cant
Sometimes the tears are right on the edge
But they disapear before they fall
I need to cry and wail
But each time i try i fail
Love has abandoned me
Nothing left but pain and anxiety
Do we have to see the darkness to see the light?
If so I think there is no light left in me tonight.

 

[Loven God]

Depression can take over our life , if we let it . It is a hard thing to do to stand against deppersion . It can be done with a lot of fight and prayer . I have felt all of those sgins of depression . In my darkest hours I sit close my eyes and just say the name of Jesus over and over until I feel less depressed and more safe again . It works for me , that is when in the darkness I see the light .