What caused your ED?

[Silver-winged Flyer]

Is the main reason for people having an ED because they think they're overweight?

I suffer with depression and I've started skipping meals because I needed to control something in my life. Now I don't even want to eat because I don't enjoy food. Could this turn into an ED? I'm concerned its starting to go too far. I'm not concerned with my weight, that doesn't play any part in my skipping meals.

 

[HolyOne87]

well, i dont necessarily think everyone who has an ED does it because they are overweight. I do it for my own reasons, and one of them isnt because im overweight though. So you arent the only one.
I do it mainly because of depression as well.
Have you talked to someone about this or no?

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

No, its only just started in the last few days. Today I felt alot better and I ate what I normally would so it doesn't look like its too serious at this stage.

 

[Soulwings]

Please be careful. If you find yourself skipping meals for a longer period of time, and get kind of phobic about eating ... please seek help. I don't want to see you develop an ED and not have proper treatment ready.

My ED started out as a "diet" because of what someone said to me regarding my weight. It quickly spiralled down into what an ED really seems to be - all about control. I'm a control freak - just realised this lately and am trying to give it up - but controlling what and when I ate was one way that I felt I could control my own life. Of course, we don't really have control over much of what happens in our lives, only how we respond to the things that do happen, but then I wasn't really thinking like that. Food became the enemy. And it just went on from there, til I started treatment this summer. Since then things have been so much better.

 

[AngelsArms]

Hi,
I think mine started from depression also... but i am also overweight so that probably played a part... but i think the main contributing factor, was that I was sooo busy with stuff on every lunch break, every morning and afternoon or the week and even stuff on the weekends that i used it as an excuse not to eat...

 

[bumblebee62331]

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[beckybooiloveu]

ummm... being actually medically overweight... well almost... and being to busy and accidently missing meals from being too busy... which lead to purposly skipping meals... etc etc...

 

[HolyOne87]

No, its only just started in the last few days. Today I felt alot better and I ate what I normally would so it doesn't look like its too serious at this stage.

thats good to know. Like Soulwings said, just be careful. I sure hope its nothing serious and that its something you can conquer over.

 

[broadway_bound]

thats good to know. Like Soulwings said, just be careful. I sure hope its nothing serious and that its something you can conquer over.

I too, hope its nothing serious. Mine started from depression, the fact that i was home alone everyday after school played a part in it too. I'll be praying for you, though.

 

[Silver-winged Flyer]

I too, hope its nothing serious. Mine started from depression, the fact that i was home alone everyday after school played a part in it too. I'll be praying for you, though.

Thank you for praying for me!
If I'm doing okay then I'm fine, I can eat but as soon as I have a bad day I don't eat. Today's my first bad day in a while because I did something really stupid yesterday that I feel like I should punish myself for.

 

[Taliaana]

Mine started when I was trying out for my high school dance team and I saw a judge point at me and then grab her stomach. She was talking to the other judges about how big I was. Later depression made it worse. My parents would fight a lot about things that I did, so I though that if I wasted away, there would be nothing for them to fight about.

 

[Gwen'sMom]

I just never felt good about myself. My self-esteem has always been low. I have also suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my life. I binge eat. I don't know exactly why I binge. But I'm sure it stems from the problems I listed above.

 

[Kirley]

I haf to agree with kate somewhat.. my mum used to pack 'yucky' boring lunches so i used to throw them out way back in primary school and used to try get out of eating my dinner so many times.
Then it was unsightly fat that i could see appearing (although other ppl wouldnt see ne) and i didnt want to get overweight like my nana and grandma.. then it just went from there and increased wen i got really depressed afta alot happened at the end of high school. Plus i just never seemed to fit into my family and tried ways to get noticed, and everyone always commented on how they wished they could be skinny like me... and i used to get bullied in school so had low self esteem always.

 

[shazabella]

Low self esteem because of abusive relationships / abusive childhood + a need for control in my life + being too busy + lack of appetite

- Shaz

 

[HolyOne87]

just wanted to give everyone a hug, because I can relate in one way or another to each and every one of you!

*Hugs*

 

[MellieMoo]

wow! it's amazing to read all of these responses. I can really relate to what's being said here.

My ED started out "innocently" in my pre-teen years when I tried to lose a just a little bit of weight. (not that i even needed it, just thought my thighs were fat). Over the years my ED managed to morph into where I am now overweight, and an overeater/binge eater. I wish I could control this area of my life, but abusing it (as I have for the last 25 years) with dieting/bingeing and yo-yoing ... it's tough. I tried to control it but it controls me, sadly. unfortunately, this area of my life is not shining as it should for Christ.

 

[Bunnymedic]

I had an eating disorder for about 4 years....when I was 16-20.
I stopped eating and started excercising like crazy to keep from getting 'fat'.
I stayed skinny,but I also developed hypoglyemia.
Now I am a member at a local gym
I work out regularly but not excessively and eat frequently but healthy...
This life style helped me over come my fear of getting fat and get over my ED

 

[freedomsong]

My ED started when I was in eighth grade. I wanted to lose weight because I was always being compared with my sister who according to evryone was "model" material. Also, I am an extreme perfectionist who felt that I needed to control something when my life went spinning out of control.

 

[PureGrace]

Be VERY careful. You're quite literally just playing with fire here. You dont want to come down this awful ED road. Please, care for yourself and even though it may be hard to go back to normal eating, realize how much better it will be for your future.

 

[freedomsong]

Thanks for the concern, but I have had an ED for 6 years now