When I was in college I had a severe struggle to concentrate on my studying and in my classes. I got a degree in biology and took difficult scientific courses like biochemistry, analytical chemistry, organic chemistry, and calculus. When I would study in the library I was distracted easily by hearing people whispering. I had two professors tell me that I should be tested for Attention Deficit Disorder, but I did not get tested and did not like being told there was something wrong with me. Yet in all my lab time at college I was always the slowest one in the lab and would usually depend more on the other students if I was in a group working in a laboratory. I managed to get a 3.4 in college but had to take low credit hours each semester. After college I got a job in an animal testing laboratory which I worked at for two years. I could not complete the training to the satisfaction of the company. Just like I had trouble concentrating in college, so I had trouble concentrating on my job. I was usually slower than my co-workers. I had trouble with making enough mistakes that they wouldn't let me move much farther beyond practice rat dissections. The job required meticulous attention to detail. After two years I was terminated for not having completed the training. After that I got a job bagging groceries in a store, which I have had for over three years.
By gaining a better understanding of myself, I have come to the realization of why I can't stay focused on scientific work. I just have an overactive mind. I think about a lot of stuff in life while I do my work. It does not hurt me on bagging groceries enough to make a difference. But now I understand the barrier between me and scientific work. While I am working, my mind is at work too, thinking about various things, like people I've been talking to, spiritual things, etc. Because I have a train of thought going at the same time I am working, I do not concentrate as closely as other people on scientific work. Even at the grocery store I make mistakes and forget to smile at customers because I am usually deep in thought during the work. My train of thought could be even described as daydreaming, because that's really what I do. I don't believe it is ADD because there is a controversy about whether ADD is really real, and since I know it's due to a wandering mind, I don't feel it's worth taking medication for it. I doubt medication really has the power to change thought processes.
I also struggle in church during sermons and Sunday school class. My mind usually wanders a lot during the message when I start thinking about other things and my concentration drifts from what is said. I also watch sermons on TV and internet and I find myself rewinding the sermon often because of thinking about other things.
Some people have told me that God will give me victory over the problem and bless me with a self-controlled mind, but I'm not so sure.
What should I do? Is it possible to train the mind to not daydream and think of anything at all while I'm at work, or would I have to be a robot not to have any extra thoughts floating around?
By gaining a better understanding of myself, I have come to the realization of why I can't stay focused on scientific work. I just have an overactive mind. I think about a lot of stuff in life while I do my work. It does not hurt me on bagging groceries enough to make a difference. But now I understand the barrier between me and scientific work. While I am working, my mind is at work too, thinking about various things, like people I've been talking to, spiritual things, etc. Because I have a train of thought going at the same time I am working, I do not concentrate as closely as other people on scientific work. Even at the grocery store I make mistakes and forget to smile at customers because I am usually deep in thought during the work. My train of thought could be even described as daydreaming, because that's really what I do. I don't believe it is ADD because there is a controversy about whether ADD is really real, and since I know it's due to a wandering mind, I don't feel it's worth taking medication for it. I doubt medication really has the power to change thought processes.
I also struggle in church during sermons and Sunday school class. My mind usually wanders a lot during the message when I start thinking about other things and my concentration drifts from what is said. I also watch sermons on TV and internet and I find myself rewinding the sermon often because of thinking about other things.
Some people have told me that God will give me victory over the problem and bless me with a self-controlled mind, but I'm not so sure.
What should I do? Is it possible to train the mind to not daydream and think of anything at all while I'm at work, or would I have to be a robot not to have any extra thoughts floating around?