what are you feeling right now? (11)

[Mr. Runningfish]

plumsink - you don't have to apologize or ask to be forgiven, not by me. I'm currently going through this too. I guess depression is something I'll always have to live with. I pray he gives us the strength we need in the lows and the ability to remember him, thank you, praise him- even then. Praying for you.

cmjames84 - it's good to be content. Praise him.

sarahelizabeth - let's praise him for your happiness!

aflower4God - Praying for you now Miss Flower.

Broken Hearted - Be safe BH - trust him. I'm praying for you! :hugs:

 

[strelok0017]

I feel like I'm holding something back from the Lord, as if I don't want to confess something. I don't know what.
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EDIT

Fighting spiritual battles can be as fighting against ghosts sometimes. And I know that the devil and his puppets lie to us, that's not what I mean. What I mean is rather being aware that you're fighting but it feels like going against the wind that just keeps blowing at you harder and harder... At moments I feel as if God is pushing me away. For the last couple days I don't even know if He cares about small prayers about small stuff or just glorious ones (I haven't defined this yet but one example would be for the conversion of your family, strengthening of your faith and zeal etc...).

Other times when things are quiet I can feel even worse. I can tell something is wrong when I'm calm, like today. I want to look to Jesus all the time and once I'm done with this studying I will but I don't like this quietness. It's sort of comforting but very distracting. This is paradoxical.

 

[Criada]

For months, I have been free of depression. I was happy, I was confident about what I wanted to do and was doing it. Maybe even thinking, I don't ever have to be depressed again.

And now I am back in the pit. I doubt everything I am doing, doubting everything in general. I feel like the world is horrible, too horrible to bear. Like the whole human race is falling off a precipice, and inventing new precipices all the time to fall off of, utterly lost. We're all madmen, and the worst madmen don't even see it. And the madman who is yelling in the street, yelling "all is lost, repent" is the only one who knows he is a madman, and so is to that extent sane. And no one listens, they go on being mad until finally all their evils come home to roost. The worst Dachau is the Dachau no one believes in, even as it is killing them. The Dachau of the soul.

I'm sad, I'm even lonely, not something that happens to me very often. When things are good, I always think alone is a good thing. I'm happy to do my own thing. Now I wonder whether I have cheated myself. I wonder whether I would trade it all in, everything I am, everything I've done, everything I know, for just a little human warmth.

Forgive me, I had to tell someone.

So sorry, Robert - praying that it passes and you can find contentment again.

 

[Criada]

I feel SOOOOOO used by this one guy!
My best friend kept on warning me over and over again. But I didn't listen I KNOW she is sick of me too cause I will not listen to her.
I should just go.

Praying, sis.
You are loved!!

 

[Criada]

Thank you life. I just messed my life up for nothing and now Im done with it

I don't know what happened, sweetie - but I am praying.
Love you

 

[Criada]

try to treat everyone the same as possible, I know it can't be done perfectly...but it remains, that I am loveable to some but not to others and why can't I have the same effect on everyone...I don't know

edit: this is not unrelated but I did IM someone telling them that it felt like they weren't interested in talking to me...I'll probably get ignored by her though. I did emphasize that I wasn't trying to be mean but I fear a nasty response anyway.

Praying, sweetie

 

[Criada]

I feel like I'm holding something back from the Lord, as if I don't want to confess something. I don't know what.

He knows your heart, brother - don't worry about it. If your attitude is one of repentaznce, you don't have to specify every sin.
Read psalm 139

 

[aflower4God]

try to treat everyone the same as possible, I know it can't be done perfectly...but it remains, that I am loveable to some but not to others and why can't I have the same effect on everyone...I don't know

edit: this is not unrelated but I did IM someone telling them that it felt like they weren't interested in talking to me...I'll probably get ignored by her though. I did emphasize that I wasn't trying to be mean but I fear a nasty response anyway.

 

[strelok0017]

He knows your heart, brother - don't worry about it. If your attitude is one of repentaznce, you don't have to specify every sin.
Read psalm 139

Yeah, I know that but I keep hitting this, ehm, spiritual wall or something that I know I'm supposed to pass but I can't. I won't be going into details but I often feel as if I have forgotten to repent of something. I know I shouldn't fear but I fear not fearing more than I fear fearing. I'm an ultimate paradox.

If not for the sovereign grace of God I'd be hopeless.

 

[sk8Joyful]

What an Interesting question: what are you feeling right now? - well, lesseee - I woke up Laughing , and
haven't stopped since. Yet, it's bound to get even better , because in about 10 minutes I'm leaving for the Ice-arena,
where this entire weekend we are having another Figure-skating competition, so
if you know anything about me at all, you'll know where I'll enjoy lots of FUN... PRAISE God!

 

[aflower4God]

I HATE GOSSIP!!!

 

[SplendidTree]

Busy busy busy! But I did a lot of walking today and that was great.

 

[RuthD]

I'm feeling so lonely. I have an ad at a site to meet a man. I'm over weight and most men don't want that. So it says I have something like hundreds of views but only one guy was interested and I think he was shady. He was still married. I turned him down of course.

 

[TomCS]

In a state of tremendous upheaval. There are too many things coming at me at the same time in my life. I feel afraid and overwhelmed by it all.

 

[Jeshu]

Yeah, I know that but I keep hitting this, ehm, spiritual wall or something that I know I'm supposed to pass but I can't. I won't be going into details but I often feel as if I have forgotten to repent of something. I know I shouldn't fear but I fear not fearing more than I fear fearing. I'm an ultimate paradox.

If not for the sovereign grace of God I'd be hopeless.

Yes I used to be like you, for me it boiled down to the fact that I was to busy with sin and had not yet stepped into His perfect rest. (Heb 3&4) Be warned that a guilty conscious attracts Dragon breath.(Rev 17) That is why Jesus wants us to be dead to sin.That we stop looking at sin and 't sinful life down here and keep our eye on Jesus? For then God's perfect love casts out our fear

So please be dead to sin brother, look at Jesus instead for then no fear but joy will well up into your heart for He overcame sin - also yours - awesome isn't!

 

[plumsink]

Feeling better now. Had to have a few drinks and have a little cry last night, and I'm back on my feet.

Prayers for any suffering tonight.

 

[aflower4God]

Feeling better now. Had to have a few drinks and have a little cry last night, and I'm back on my feet.

Prayers for any suffering tonight.

Praise God answered prayers my dear sweet brother, I am so glad that you are feeling better, yep a good cry helps me sometimes.

 

[aflower4God]

I'm feeling so lonely. I have an ad at a site to meet a man. I'm over weight and most men don't want that. So it says I have something like hundreds of views but only one guy was interested and I think he was shady. He was still married. I turned him down of course.

I have been praying my heart out for you my dear sweet loving sister, you deserve a good man to treat you like GOLD!!!!! You are a dear blessing.

 

[plumsink]

I'm feeling so lonely. I have an ad at a site to meet a man. I'm over weight and most men don't want that. So it says I have something like hundreds of views but only one guy was interested and I think he was shady. He was still married. I turned him down of course.

Be careful friend, lots of shady guys out there. Have you considered joining groups where people share similar interests? Just for like friends, or singles groups at church? It seems like it would be better to get to eyeball a guy in person in a sort of neutral environment.

Of course, I'm the last person who should be giving advice on such things.

Hope you find someone nice!

 

[plumsink]

Praise God answered prayers my dear sweet brother, I am so glad that you are feeling better, yep a good cry helps me sometimes.

Thanks dear petal, ya I guess I had to get it out of my system. Feeling okay now.