- Oct 10, 2011
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I talk to God about my sins all the time, even right after I do them, and I lament them greatly, I wonder if it's so much so, that God does not have to consider punishing me for them anymore... that's just a feeling I get from him sometimes...Fear discipline, or fear discipline...?
IOW's fear of being punished, or fear of hurting or displeasing God, or taking him for granted, or abusing grace, just for the sake of not wanting to do those things to God, out of your love for him, and not so much fear of the actual punishment, or spanking...?
But not wanting to hurt God, so very much, that the actual punishment is not the main issue, but that you so do not want to displease him so much, that if and when you do, you beat yourself up, much much more so than God ever does, or perhaps, even has to...?
Like a child that's not crying or is in despair because of the spanking, but because he really truly knows how much he displeased his parents, in that moment, and has fallen from grace in his parents eyes in that moment, and that is mainly why he or she is crying or is upset (with themselves)...
God Bless!
I don't like to disappoint him at all, cause I love him so very much... I am much like the child, who beats themselves up very much and cries and laments a lot and greatly, if you even halfway think you might have disappointed your parents in even the slightest smallest way, that you break down in tears, and lament greatly, if you parents even give you a bad look, or even look at you in the wrong way... Get's me everytime...
That's all he has to do with me, is just look at me wrong, or in the wrong way, and I crumble...
God Bless!
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