Well..=[

[SaRAWR]

i used to cut
and managed to stop


But now iv started again
for a couple of days.
i know this time it will be harder to stop


I cant stop
a few of my friends know but most of them seem to be dealing with it so wrong that just makes me want to do it more

I have about 30or so scars in about 4inches of skin

and my friend tents to punch my arm as a joke
and she does it on my scars and it really stings and i dont want to tell her to stop coz she'll know somethings up coz i always let her
and she'll ask why and really dont want to tell her.


I know it will be hard to stop this time

what to do.
i REALLY dont want to tell my mum and dad coz last time they were really mad and kept asking questions and wouldnt leave the room till i answerd making things so much worse

i told a teacher last time.
shes ment to keep things confudentual
and she goes to me "i wont tell anyone if you dont want me to"
so i said "thanks" then while later when im in the room she told another teacher.not even a teacher iv ever been taught by =[
i know if i tell a teacher ill be sent straight to her(she sorts out theese kind of things) and because of what happend last time she broke my trust with her



Anyone have any ideass how i can slow down/stop


Thanks

xxxxx

 

[Nobility]

Sweetheart... this must be a really difficult time for you

I'm praying for you Now... I really do suggest you talk to someone again, it's really is the way to get through it. If you feel that your parents aren't going to be helpful, then just keep it quiet from them for a time, but open yourself for finding someone to talk to. Do you go to a youth group or a church at the moment? If so, you could talk to either a youth pastor or pastor at your church (or they may have counsellors). When you told your teacher, I imagine the reason she told the other teacher was to work out how to deal with it. One way you could handle it, would be to ask for a meeting with that teacher and say that you knew she told someone else, and why. And if the answer is ok to you, then talk to her about it again. You really do need to be talking to someone hun..

Now, on how to stop/slow down... Steffi, one of the supervisors of this forum has posted a great good list of links that could really help you... here it is:
http://www.christianforums.com/t446...o-to-de-escalate-and-divert-an-emergency.html

When I was trying to give up, my way of learning to stop was that I had to last 15 mins on the first day of HONESTLY trying to not cut. This often included doing things in the link above like listening to music, or writing a song. The next time I added 5 mins (no matter whether I'd cut or not the time before or not). Once I reached 30 mins, I extended it to 10 more minutes a time... and once an hour, I pushed it out to 15 mins. And finally once 4 hours, I pushed myself a day.

You see sweety, you can beat this I know that because I have and I'm not going to stop praying for you and giving the support as it is needed. If you ever need someone to PM, my PM box is always open and I'll reply as soon as I can... God loves you girly!

 

[SaRAWR]

Awww thankyou so much
=]
I think i might talk to the councler and someone at my church
And thankyou for the link.Ill be looking at it after iv posted this =]

Thank you so much
I'll try and do what you did.=]
its seems liek a good way

once again.thank you ever so much.

Sarahxxx

 

[Nobility]

Also hun... Something I'd love for you to get is a goal for how long you are attempting to go for... at the start this may be something like 5 or 10 days, or may be bigger like 30 days. Keep it realistic but a challenge though

 

[SaRAWR]

Thanks
i went to go and see someone today and they gave me a huge bookelt about it but basicly she HAD to tell my mum and dad =/
But hopefuly things will egt better now. and i will try and go a couple of days without.


It is hard though =/

xxxx

 

[Nobility]

Aww... that's awesome I'm praying for a good response and good lot of support from your parents girl

 

[x0xJesusIsLovex0x]

It is hard to stop cutting, I know the feeling, but be strong and don't let the blade get in your mind. Do something with your family and friends. Enjoy your time, don't even think about it. Make it the last thing in your mind.