remotecontrol said:
Why is it that I only feel like Jesus is real when its late at night and I'm a feeling sleepy? I just don't understand this.
During the day I don't really think about God and just carry on in my sinful ways. Then come night-time I feel remorseful about things.
It's weird.
Matt
Wow, it's actually good! You have a sensitive soul that loves God, but out of habit you sin, and it saddens your conscience.
Know that if you have such remorse (which is quite uncomfortable), the opposite is also possible -- incredible peace and joy that is sweeter and dearer than any thing this earth can give you. What you need to do is just try your best and do God's will. Then you'll see that the Kingdom of God is indeed within you. Right now God is showing you Hell within...
One advice. Say this prayer over and over during the day. You can wisper it: Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me. Say it once, and then again, and again. Feel how it pours a healing oitment over your aching soul. After a while you won't be able to live without the sweetest name of Jesus. Warnings: do not accept any thoughts, visions, feelings, becuase the devil hates it when we pray and will try to confuse and deceive you. Just concentrate on the meaning of the words, talk to God like a person nearby with humility, and ignore all the crafts of the devil, he's not strong against the most powerful name of Jesus. You can do this also at a certain time, for example, at night when you have those remorse periods, for 5-10 min (if you don't want to mumble something infront of others all day long). If you feel like you don't want to stop, DON'T! Keep going! This might bring tears, they're good.
Some scripture for backup:
"Pray without ceasing" (1 Ti 5:17).
About repeatative prayer:
In Matthew 29 we read about Jesus praing to the Father the same thing three times.
The Jesus Prayer (this is what it's called) is ancient practice. This prayer helps you remember God all day and keep you from sin. It also brings the Kingdom of Heaven into your heart, gives much satisfaction and peace to the soul. It's powerful enough to fight the devil and help us withstand temptation. All its power, of course, comes from God. These are not all wonderful fruits of the Jesus prayer, however.
Forgive me. Lord have mercy on me.