Wavering strength

[BJinKansas]

I am in need of some encouragement.  The last year has taken such a major toll on me emotionally.  In April of last year my husband lost his leg from the knee to cancer.  While still coming to grips with his loss, and the change it was making in the entire family, we found out that I too was ill.  I was diagnosed with hepatitis C.  I have undergone treatment which was 6 months of Interferon (a chemo drug) and rebetrol.  I have cleared the virus.  Which means that I am in remission, and for that I praise God.  I find it difficult at this point to hold onto my strength,  I am not the same person physically that I used to be, I am much weaker, my mind isn't as sharp, and I tire very easily.  My husband is not a christian, and is the master of denial, when it comes to the reality of my desease.  There is no communication about it.  I also do double time around the home and work full time.  I'm tired, and I'm weary.  I need encouraged.

 

[mel3]

Hi BJ, you have been dealt some pretty rough blows this past year. I hope God gives me the right words to say to encourage you. I suspect you are feeling more physically drained than spiritually drained, but they both kinda go hand in hand don' t they? Sometimes it can be very difficult to be strong in our faith when our bodies are feeling physically ill. I am glad that your body has responded to treatment. Isn't it great to think that our God is still in the business of healing and restoring? Psalm 9:10 says Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you. Continue to put your trust in Him, BJ. Even when you are faced with days of uncertainty. He has pulled you through this year so far and He's not gonna leave you now. I pray that your husband will see the same God you see. He is our loving Father and He wants us to have a personal relationship with Him thru Jesus. May God open your huband's heart and show him the great things He can give to Him. Our rewards are not here on earth but in a much far better place than we could ever imagine. Hang in there, friend. We are not promised much in the way of earthly things but we can have peace knowing that he will not leave us here to deal with our problems all alone. Hope you feel better soon. In the mean time, slow down and enjoy some time for yourself. You deserve it!

 

[MizDoulos]

BJ, you will find prayer and encouragement from those here in the Struggles forum. God's grace and peace be with you and your husband.

 

[Sharky]

Hey BJ. We know it's hard. Most of us have been there before even me.

Everyone suffers. Keep in mind that God can test our faith which could mean loss of everything but as we persevere through that test, He will give back to us many times more than we lost and at the same time strengthen us once again. Don't be too taken down by your suffering. God is always with you the whole way so keep your eyes on Him. These bad things won't last forever.

 

[sbbqb7n16]

Job 1:21

 

[Blessed-one]

take rest in the Lord and put your trust in Him. In our darkest hours, God is often most palpable. i'm praying for your unbeliving husband, your health and family. Take heart in that God is always here for you, He may be speaking to you through events and people around you.
*hugs*

 

[Auntie]

Praying for you, BJ.


Also, welcome to Christian Forums! We are so happy to have you as a new member.

 

[psalmist]

I am praying for you BJ. The Lord is with you and He will give you peace if you let him. Place your trust in Him and slow down. Take a little time for yourself. I will pray for your husband too. God Bless you.
Psalmist

 

[endure]

here friend
i hope this helps you.
rom 8.16-18
16.the spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit that we are the children of God.
17.and if children, then also heirs: heirs of God, and jiont heirs with Christ; IF SO BE THAT WE SUFFER WITH HIM, THAT WE MAY ALSO BE GLORIFIED TOGETHER.
18. FOR I RECKON, THAT THE SUFFERINGS OF THIS PRESENT TIME ARE NOT WORTHY TO BE COMPARED WITH THE GLORY WHICH SHALL BE REVEALED IN US.

your a child of god, and dont grow let the sufferings you go through stop your good works and obedience to god, becuase you will be rewarded with so much that it will greatly overshadow all that you had to go through to get it, just as jesus suffered and was rewarded, as we suffer also for his sake, we will be rewarded with him.
be encouraged, the joy of the lord is your strength.
i hope this has given you joy.
revelation of the truth brings great joy, it was only when peter took his eyes off the truth that he began to sink. keep your eyes set on the truth, whatever you go through, you will be rewarded abundantly.
storms may last for the night, but joy comes in the morning.

yea though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i wll fear no evil, for thou art with me!
sometimes you have to go through the valley, and go through many tribulations, but he is with you, and he will see you through.

listen to this
ps 125.1
they that trust in the lord shall be as mount zion, which cannot be removed, but abideth forever! OH PRAISE GOD!

oh and i love this one
ps 126.1
when the lord turned again the captivity of zion, WE WERE LIKE THEM THAT DREAM!

....wow, when god sets you free, and brings you out, it will be like a dream, too good to be true! dont give up. be encouraged by that.

oh and read ps 91, its packed full of great encouragement.

 

[VOW]

To BJ:

I have a friend who just finished the interferon treatment for HepC. It took a toll on her. She lost a lot of time at work, and she had some terrible trouble with a supervisor, which sure didn't help matters any.

Often times she would just open up to me in an email and pour out all her worries. I would try to encourage her. The medication not only kills the virus in your body, it messes with your thinking. People are automatically put on antidepressant drug therapy with interferon, and their family members are cautioned to watch them for possible clues to suicide.

For you, you have FINISHED TREATMENT. Praise GOD! The battle is over. You can now start healing. It will be a slow process, because the interferon is basically a poison, meant to kill the virus, and it does an excellent job of whaling the dickens out of your entire body at the same time.

Take care of yourself, Hon. If you are the breadwinner, just concentrate on doing your job well. Home will always be there, housework is neverending. If you don't have the strength to do it all, just put it out of your mind for now. Day by day, you are going to be getting better, and the time will come when you will be able to do all that you want to do.

For now, just rejoice and praise God you made it through treatment!


Peace be with you,
~VOW

 

[ZiSunka]

When life gets difficult, lean on God harder.

I have just recovered from a chronic illness that affected me the same way your is affecting you--I even lost the ability to read! My body was so sick I couldn't make sense of words printed on a page. At the same time, I lost a close loved one in a sudden way.

My faith took a dive. I wanted to trust God, I wanted to be a good, victorious Christian, but I just couldn't. I didn't have the physical or emotional strength to see me through. But down there at the bottom, I learned that St Paul was right, it is when we get to the end of our own resources and strengths that we finally fine the truth about God. He gives us his own strength to carry us through.

People say that God will never give you more than you can bear. In a way, this is wrong. He will give you more than YOU can bear, but not more than HE can bear for you.

When you get to the end of yourself, He is there to pick you up and carry you the rest of the way.

Picture yourself in his arms, like a little lamb, being carried over a raging river. That river is your circumstances, your illness, your husband's problems, your family's adjustment issues, everything that's hurting you. Sure you're on a tightrope over this rushing water that feels like it will drown you. But Jesus is walking that tightrope, holding you in his arms like a precious thing, and he never misses a step or stumbles.

When you come to the end of yourself, let him carry you.

 

[carmen]

Being in a storm. And being asked to walk on the water in faith is a courageous, brave thing to do. Being like peter and doing it alone. is hard.
When your body aches and you are so drain of energy. Expected to work hard. remind yourself you are doing everything as unto the Lord. For the Lord. I know how hard it is when we don't receive the understanding and comfort from Love ones. Trust in the Lord, lean on him, he is your comforter and he will get you through the storm and to the other side. And when you have doubts, worries, and fears he will pick you up just like peter. The Lord is the strength of you life.

Will pray for you.

 

[Dewjunkie]

BJ,

I know all too well what you are going through. I only rejoined my walk with God a little over a year ago, and have been struggling to keep it strong ever since. This summer, my 3 year old daughter was killed and my wife was paralyzed in a horrific car accident. My 18 month old daughter and I walked away, fairly uninjured.

I am exhausted. I have to care for my wife and daughter full time, work in law enforcement full time, and take care of all of the household chores alone. The past 2 weeks I have been battling my worst allergy attacks in recent memory. I pretty much collapse at the end of the days.

I try hard to remain faithful, positive, and strong, but as you know, BJ, it isn't easy. But, I can honestly say, the days I lean on Him and His people are the days I get through more easily. I spend a lot of time here, and your Christian brothers and sisters here truly care and are truly inspirational. Turn to God first, then turn to His people. I have days where I try to get by on my own, and I struggle mightily. We cannot get through these things alone, and the wonderful thing about God is that He doesn't make us. He is here for us always, all we have to do is ask.

I know God has a purpose for what I have been through, and He does for you also. I will pray that God gives you the strength to get through your trials. From someone who is also going through trials, please don't give up on God. He'll never give up on you. Nor will we.