well I understand this .. of my last three pastors two died of aids and one was caught adultery, not confessed to adultery . was caught.
Now truth is I'm just gun shy, gun shy! these men will not and can not lead me or mine any place I ever want to go..
I/we want to part of the answer, the real answers .. if that means praying HIM( the Lord) and His truth and his spirit into man's reality, then I will do that! mostly what I am doing hopefully is raising a generation of real men who love God only and understand the fight and what "submitting yourself one to another " really means, and what it looks like .. . at least I'm giving it a run..
I am to old and tired of following the unqualified, who pretend to be qualified. who just pretend to be "over come"rs. and they get by with it because they don't want people in their churches who can read their mail. so no one in the church does it or wants to either.
Just because "Jesus forgives me.. " doesn't mean they are qualified any longer to lead anyone.
I love them, I forgive them , I pray god forgives them ....
BUT NO I don't have to follow any of that !
we feel for now that we have been released from the craziness. maybe time to heal and time to pray!
maybe something new is on the horizon.
and I play to pray it in..