was pressured but said NO to abortion. my story

[lostndown]

i had a miscarriage on july 7th. the dr did a ultrasound last month and couldnt find a heartbeat or my baby. im doing ok just emotional when im alone and pray more. it's really hard. i was getting excited bout being able to hold my baby in november. i had a motherly instinct i was having a girl, so i named her Alexis Kayelyn.

i have a heart necklace that i wear everyday/night, so my baby is close to my heart. i love my baby with all my heart. i was looking fwd to having a baby, but not by rape. i was scared but a lil more happy bout a baby. i felt movement after july 7th, but dr said it was prolly cuz i was use to feeling the baby move and stuff. i miss that feeling, alot.

Is my baby in heaven, waiting for me to get there so i can hold him/her???? i sure hope so cuz i need that peace of knowing God is holding my baby and has her in his arms.... thanks for all the encouragement. i was due on 11/10/06. i dunno how to deal with that day in a lil more than 2 mnths but i know i'll cry alot probably cry/pray a lot. im ok so dont worry.

i g2g off but pm me if i can talk to you sometime. could yall pray for me??? thanks.

 

[flower child]

dont know if you saw my previous post, but i so admire you.I am sure that god is taking care of your baby ibn heaven - if anything this time has prepared you for being a mother, not jsut any mother but a faithful strong mother.

God will bless you with more wonderful children for standing up and making the desision to keep a baby conceived by rape, even though people close to you tried to get you to abort it.

so dont be sad, thank god that he is taking care of her until he gives her back to you, weather that be this life, of in heaven

 

[lostndown]

thanks hon. that means alot, hearing that. *hug* im having a rough day but im ok. i g2g off though, so feel free to pm me if u need anything or wanna talk.

~michelle~ (alicia)

 

[mourningdove~]

i had a miscarriage on july 7th.

Dear lostndown,
I am so very sorry for your loss.
I would like to pray for you today, okeedoke?

"Father God, I lift lostndown up to you, and ask that you would comfort this dear sister. She has had a heavy burden to carry this year, and has now experienced a great loss. Father, you understand these things, as you once watched as your Only Son, Our LORD, lost His life on the cross for us. But, just as Jesus was resurrected from the dead, so we believe that lostndown's child is in heaven with you now. And, as your resurrection power is available to those of us that know, love, and serve you, I pray that you would move more powerfully in lostndown's life at this time to lift her up, lift her spirits, comfort her in her moments of grief and pain, and draw her closer to you. May she be ever aware of your Presence in her life, Father, as she goes thru this difficult time of healing. Thank you Loving Father, I thank you for your great love for us. In Jesus' Name. amen."

 

[lostndown]

thanks. that helps when i know i have people who care, praying for me. *hugs* its hard but i know my baby is in heaven. my due date wouldve been on november 10. i questioned God after i was raped, but i apologized this month for ?ing Him, cuz its not His fault it happened or mine, it's my ex bf's.

i g2g but i'll be around soon when i get on.

~michelle~ (alicia)

 

[mourningdove~]

thanks. that helps when i know i have people who care, praying for me. *hugs* its hard but i know my baby is in heaven. my due date wouldve been on november 10. i questioned God after i was raped, but i apologized this month for ?ing Him, cuz its not His fault it happened or mine, it's my ex bf's.

i g2g but i'll be around soon when i get on.

~michelle~ (alicia)

Hi alicia!

I'm one of those people that like to pray, and so when it seems like someone could maybe use a little prayer, I just sorta "do" it!

Because Our Heavenly Father is a Loving Father, we have the assurance that our babies are in heaven with Him ... and that is such a good thing! ... but yet, that does not mean that we don't still miss them because they are not here with us.

Of course, it's like this whenever someone that we love passes on to heaven. We are happy for them, but not so happy for us because we miss them. And so, if you are feeling abit "low" right now and missing your little one, it is a very normal way to feel. And I believe that God understands these feelings that we have - afterall, He knows what it's like to have a Son die. He watched Jesus die on the cross and I would think that He was greatly grieved over what was happening to Jesus.

So, I believe God understands when we get kind of angry about things, and even angry abit at Him, because He understands us and knows what it's like for us to lose someone that we love.

I'm glad you were able to work thru your anger with Him and apologized to Him, as He so wants to be in close relationship with us, and that's kinda hard to do if we're mad at Him.

"Father, I lift up this sister to you and ask that you would continue to comfort her in her time of grief.
Draw her close to you, Father, and give her peace. In Jesus' Name. Amen."

 

[lostndown]

thanks so much hun. it helps knowing im not alone in this. my due date wouldve been november 10th. so i would be 7 months preg. right now if i didnt have a misc. it's hard.

thanks for the prayers. it means alot. if i can help any1 by being a good listener, just pm me.

~michelle~ (alicia)