Wants to Rid of my Homosexuality

[Lifenotforsaken]

Hi, I am a male christian and i am 19 this year. this is my first time talking about my homosexual tendencies.. I am having this trouble ever since i was 10 years of age. It all started when I was curious about the term gay at that time and i searched it out on the internet out of pure curiosity as a kid. I then saw pictures of naked men, homosexuals etc. My immediate reaction was repulsion and disgust. But there was a slight attraction and increase in my curiosity even though i felt disgusted by looking at those images. the following days, secretly i continued to searched up on the internet on gay men and porn. slowly I learn about masturbation. this cycle has been going on until now.

This addiction and sin has made me become an anti-social person. It's a huge contrast to when i was 10 years old and before that i was very sociable and was normal, a boy having crushes on girls. I am afraid to talk to people or have trouble communicating to people especially males as I fear that they will find out that i am homosexual and at the same time, it is a wall that i put so that i wouldn't be attracted to them too. This habit changed my personality totally. I feel very ashamed about myself and i find it hard to type about this here. I feel very tired and fearful as i have tried by praying to God or distracting myself through the Word when I am faced with such tmptation. I have been successful for a little more than a month of not viewing porn or masturbation until yesterday i started viewing it again.

I dare not anyone about my issue, I am hoping to get help and tips here as i see many threads that are somewhat similar to mine. I read in this forum about an accountable partner, I'd like to know more about it and how it works. I really don't want my life to fall apart through this habit... I want to be a blessing to others and learn to love people as I was able to in the past. I hope to read your thoughts and suggestions about this. I'm sry for the post being long. thank you for reading.

 

[Fowler]

Hello!
I am not homosexual, however always ready to help people who suffer from different sexual issues. In my case I had severe masturbation issues, which I overcame with God's grace.

You are free to pm me or email whenever you want.

You know, all these sinful thoughts come from our mind. Therefore, we should start from "head" and then move to body.

I used the following system, which helped with masturbation, and I am sure will help you.

1)Porn. Burn, Smash,Delete any kind material which relates to it. If you cant, ask your close friends. You can also download free software which blocks you know what kind of ads on your computer.
2) DOnt stop praying! Here are some good links

(http://www.scripturemenu.com/BibleVe...tml?topicid=33 , http://www.scripturemenu.com/BibleVe...tml?topicid=42)

which can help you in your struggle.

3) Different distraction techniques played a pivotal role in my struggle. When I saw a woman, I always wanted to mas++++ However, with its' help I managed to control myself whenever I want.

https://www.irecover.com/en/coping_t...y/distraction/

http://cognitive-psychology.suite101...ion-techniques

Distraction Techniques - No More Panic



God Bless You!

 

[jgt50]

I looked for some resources to help you get started on your struggle to help you with your problem. I found some sites for you to go to.

Try these:

Exodus International :
For 30 years, Exodus has served men and women who are affected by homosexuality. Freedom is possible through Jesus Christ!

another is the
International healing foundation run by richard cohen.

his testimony:

"People can and do change their sexual orientation.
I've done it, and I've helped others do the same."
Richard Cohen, M.A. ​

Thats all i can find of now. God loves you and he will be the one who will help you win. Victory is close as God is your father who will defeat this enemy.

Let me know if I can help in any way.


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[Criada]

I am sorry you struggle with this, brother I have been in your situation, and I know it is very hard, especially at your age... raging hormones make lust harder to deal with!
You have had some good advice here.. especially about protecting yourself by putting a filter on your computer. I use K9 web protection, which is pretty good, as long as you give someone else your password and get them to change it so you can't over ride it!

One thing I would like to remind you of is that God loves you, very, very much. You are tempted in this area... so am I, others are tempted in other areas... everyone faces temptation, and yours is no worse than anyone else's!! God will give you the strength to resist, and He will never stop loving you

PM me if you need someone to talk to... in your situation it is sometimes easier to talk to someone of the opposite gender

 

[Ave Maria]

I recommend the following:

Courage

NARTH Home Page

 

[writergirl4god]

Hi Lifenotforsaken! Setting Captives Free has a very good (and free) online course on finding freedom from homosexuality. You can it here:

Door of Hope - Setting Captives Free

They will also try to set you up with a mentor to walk through the course with you.

I am praying for you!

Love from a sister in Christ,
Jess

 

[anewday]

I will be praying for you. I'm not exactly in the same boat as you, but I'm trying to over come po## and mast#######. PM me anytime.

 

[Elvenkind]

You are talking about your initial way of getting into it, so I'm thinking you need a similar way to get out of it. Like if you now feel disgusted by the idea of women, then try to move closer to it step by step. You say you want to get rid of it, and I'm not sure if it's possible to get rid of it, but at least that was my idea, to gradually "replace" the sexuality into what feels more desirable for you. And maybe you need good friends and stuff that knows that you have these problems, and can make you feel better about life.

 

[Lifenotforsaken]

Thank you sisters and brothers for your encouraging words and taking the effort in commenting and too with the referrals, I appreciate them very very much. This walk alone hasn't been easy but I feel more hope seeing that I am not walking alone, infact walking alone with fellow brothers and sister that has similar issues and with God as well. I will surely look at those useful sites you guys posted, thank you for the concern through the replies here!

 

[lordworshipper]

Before you go into any exgay programs, be sure to research them well first, as you want to make sure it's going to work for you. My friend learned that the hard way. There are several methods. I haven't found any that work for me, but I do hope I do.

You're not alone!

 

[ianjones]

I agree. You're not alone. My entry was exactly the same as yours. I am so sorry that you have gone down that path. It is lonely and dark and very painful.
I would say to keep praying, keep fighting temptation, and always try your hardest, with everything that is within you to not look at any porn ever again. I would say the same thing with touching yourself. Don't do it. It still feeds those same desires. Take care of your mind and body and never take your eyes off of Jesus.

 

[Dragons87]

I also recommend the course on Setting Captives Free; in fact, I'm doing it right now. It won't teach you to get rid of homosexuality; it will guide you to become holy for God. I'm sure if your relationship with God is strong, he will guide you away from sin and into righteousness.