I tend to wake up in the morning, have a few seconds of peace, and then BAM, I start worrying and ruminating about something. It's enough to make me nauseous and I don't want to get out of bed and go to work--in fact, I had to stop writing this post and run to the bathroom because I nearly threw up.
That's a general problem, that happens to some degree with almost anything I worry about.
In this case, I'm worried because my boyfriend and I were having a conversation about theology (he had some questions he was wrestling with) and the answers I gave... FELT wrong in the moment, but I said them anyway. (They were hard questions about trusting God and managing to have no fear--if a person fully trusts God, they should have no fear. Fitting conversation.) And we talked some more and came to a better conclusion, but I'm just scared that he's going to remember something wrong that I said and latch onto that. I feel like I deliberately led him astray, but I can't remember everything I said. Thankfully he's the type to analyze pretty much everything, and I did tell him that he should talk to the pastor, but still.
Edit: in fact, I texted him this morning telling him to just mentally throw away everything I said and start over with the pastor. Which I guess is technically impossible, but it's the best I can do now.
That's a general problem, that happens to some degree with almost anything I worry about.
In this case, I'm worried because my boyfriend and I were having a conversation about theology (he had some questions he was wrestling with) and the answers I gave... FELT wrong in the moment, but I said them anyway. (They were hard questions about trusting God and managing to have no fear--if a person fully trusts God, they should have no fear. Fitting conversation.) And we talked some more and came to a better conclusion, but I'm just scared that he's going to remember something wrong that I said and latch onto that. I feel like I deliberately led him astray, but I can't remember everything I said. Thankfully he's the type to analyze pretty much everything, and I did tell him that he should talk to the pastor, but still.
Edit: in fact, I texted him this morning telling him to just mentally throw away everything I said and start over with the pastor. Which I guess is technically impossible, but it's the best I can do now.
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