Hi
@glenninindy,
First of all, let me say I'm very sorry to hear about your situation. It sounds like you are going through a traumatic time. Death is a cruel slave master that comes for us all and it never ever gets easier to face him. So I feel your heart and I'm saddened by it.
But what of God in all of this?
If God lets this happen without healing him, I am done praying. I will never get over this. I will always hold this against God. I was promised that God can do anything. Nothing is impossible to God
I can understand why you are holding God accountable on this. But are you right in doing so?
Let's say God did answer your prayer and this person recovered and didn't die. Wouldn't they still have to die eventually? What would you do when they start to die again, pray for more years? When would you stop?
We all must die. You and I and this person you are speaking of. Sometimes we get a long lifespan. Sometimes we get a short lifespan. But death isn't the end of us. Death just means that we are no longer present in THIS world. We have moved onto another, ahead of the great judgement day. We can't escape that inevitability with prayer. And, even if we do get a prayer answered and God grants us 15 more years, then death will still always come back to collect.
It wasn't meant to be this way. We weren't meant to die at all. Death came into this world because of Satan fooling Adam and Eve. And now Death has a claim over all of Adam and Eve's children - even over Jesus when He was born as a man. But in the new life, the true life that God intended for us like in the Garden of Eden, Death has no claim over the resurrected children.
But is what's happening to you God's fault? Again, if He granted a few more years to this person, what would you say when they would die years later? Wouldn't you start blaming God again and say "I will aways hold this against Him"?
Consider this seriously. All the joy, happiness, memories and love you feeling towards this person - how were you able to feel all of these things? Who gave you a heart to feel with? Who gave you a mind to think with? (Which you now turn against Him). Yes, you are feeling sadness now, but what about all the love you have experienced and feel? Do you ever thank God for that or do you take it for granted and only come "storming the gates of Heaven" when it's time to complain and petition? Did ever you "storm the gates of heaven" in gratitude for the gift that this person has been to you? Or would you prefer that God would have never brought you two together at all?
Be careful what you say my friend. God sees and hears everything, even on forums. He isn't easily offended or upset, but your words are disrespectful to the Creator of All, and so they are dangerous. For you say "I will always hold this against God". What then if on Judgement Day He says to you "Likewise, I will hold all your sins against you". At that very late stage, there is no further allowance for repentance. So repent of your words now, quickly, so that He might not hold anything against you in like manner.
We may not understand God's plan or the path of our life but we should never criticism Him and we should never say we will hold grudges against Him. We all like simpletons, so how can we start casting serious judgements over such weighty matters with our limited intellect.
Yes, sometimes He grants more life to those who are dying, but most times He doesn't as it's their time to go. So, if our loved ones stay - Praise be to Yahweh. But if our loved ones go - Praised be to Yahweh. I'm not saying we can't mourn or be heartbroken but to remember things in perspective - that all the goodness and love we have felt and enjoyed can only be possible because of Him - for He made us and gave us the ability to feel all these things.
Finally, realise that He is Yahweh, the Creator of All - not a genie in a lamp that call on for wishes when we see fit. A prayer is a petition to the King and Creator of All, not a demand a servant must carry out. And remember that one day Death and Satan will be destroyed and the world will return back to what it always should have been, like the Garden of Eden. I know that might not give you much comfort. But ultimately God will make everything right in the end and settle accounts with everyone and everything in the end. We all must face Him. So make sure you don't say or do anything in this life that will will regret massively in the next.
“Naked I came from my mother’s womb,
And naked I shall return there.
Yahweh gave, and Yahweh has taken away.
Blessed be the name of Yahweh.”
Through all this Job did not sin, nor did he give offense to God. - Job 1:21-22
Apologies for rambling and I hope you don't think I was being rude at all. The truth is, I wouldn't have written all of this if I didn't care or wasn't concerned for you. Find your peace with God, whatever happens with this person. And may the Yahweh, the Creator of All things bless you with peace and maybe some more time. Every day is a gift.
