Very depressed

[southernwonder]

I am having a hard time dealing with the details of my divorce, as well as the regular aspects of my life.

I have been too depressed to get out of bed. I do not want to face the pain that awaits me.

BTW, my husband did not leave me for another person. He said he no longer wanted to live a lie.

 

[Winter]

Praying for you SouthernWonder ....

Hang in there. Its going to be ok. ((hug))

 

[healingrainbow]

I'm going through hard times almost similar to that. I don't know what's it like to be truly loved by a human being but I had some friends who were nice but not compassionate (if you know what I mean) I had a really good friend and she moved to a state that's really far from where I live and she never keep in touch. And I had a friend who was nice to me but now she's putting me down and I stopped talking to her. It seems like the love doesn't last long enough. I also had it really hard when I was in my teens. My mother's ex bf was supposed to raise me but he didn't let me be myself and he wanted me to act like a 20 year old when I was 16. He flirted with me and I told him to stop and he got mad at me. I was also harassed at school. My mother can't understand why I feel sad. It's like as if she was never hurt by anyone and doesn't understand no matter how well I explained it to her.
You're not alone. I know how it feels and I'll do my best to help ya. I'll pray and encourage you!

 

[razzelflabben]

depression is a deep hole in which we as people tend to feed the depression rather than to fight it.

May you see light in your darkness and may you recieve a love so powerful that it humbles you in ways you didn't know existed

 

[aflower4God]

Hi there my dear sweet loving sister,
FIRST a BIG welcome to CF.
Second it is totally understandable that you are feeling this greif, it is a loss. I will pray for you my dear sweet loving sister and KEEP us all posted. GOD BLESS YOU and LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU {{{{{{{{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}}}}}}}

 

[nessa9522]

Do you attend a church? You can make friends there and being in that environment helps alot. I prayed for you. God loves you and will see you through this trial you are going through. trials only make us stronger.

 

[razzelflabben]

May you find hope for the future, joy in the moment, and comfort in the trials as you put your focus on God and your trust in His love.

 

[gavinsgirl99]

Southern Wonder, If you can believe it, I logged on tonight for the first time b/c I too have felt a deep emptiness, disappointment, and overall saddness. I am also a counselor and work in a hospital helping patients who also have difficult emotions they are trying to get through.

What you and I need to keep reminding ourselves is that we are NOT the only ones feeling this way. Depression has a tendency to create awful thoughts in ourselves..."we are the only ones feeling this way." Etc etc. The truth is, there is an immense love and light coming straight to us from the Lord above. He loves us no matter who we are. No matter how we feel about ourselves at the time. He has an incredible love for us that we can't imagine ever deserving. But He says that we do. He loves us for being his children...and He always will.

Depression will get better. There are things we can do and there are healings that need to take place. I am wondering if a pastoral counselor specifically trained in grief and loss is what you need. They are experts in healing through some pretty tough stuff. In the meantime, God gave you the strength to protect yourself---open the windows...let in the light...be around people...even if it's at a local library or walmart...fight the isolation.

You are beautiful and you are loved. We both are. As women, i think we could do a better job of understanding depression is so common for us...we need to support and encourage each other through this...your feelings are normal for what you've been through and the Lord loves you no matter what!!!

Stay encouraged. And let in the light!

 

[razzelflabben]

May the Lord's wisdom abound as you seek Him and not yourself. May you see His light as you fumble in the darkness, may you know His strength as you find yourself too weak to continue on.

 

[razzelflabben]

May you this day have eyes to see truth, and courage to discard lies

 

[razzelflabben]

May you learn to lean on God, may you find real, supernatural joy in the midst of your sorrow and pain.

 

[TomCS]

I am having a hard time dealing with the details of my divorce, as well as the regular aspects of my life.

I have been too depressed to get out of bed. I do not want to face the pain that awaits me.

BTW, my husband did not leave me for another person. He said he no longer wanted to live a lie.

I'm so sorry for your pain and trouble. I wish that I had some profound words of wisdom for you, but I don't. All I can say is that I know that feeling of not wanting to get out of the bed. This may not help much, but as a fellow sufferer, I know how you feel. I hope it gets better for you.

 

[Jeshu]

I am having a hard time dealing with the details of my divorce, as well as the regular aspects of my life.

I have been too depressed to get out of bed. I do not want to face the pain that awaits me.

BTW, my husband did not leave me for another person. He said he no longer wanted to live a lie.

To be forsaken Jesus also knows about, He is the strongest when it comes to this - for even His Heavenly Father forsook Him in His deepest hour - we don't ever have to suffer that deeply.

Love yourself beloved - love yourself with God's promises - and refute your accusers with Christ's undying love.

Yes slap your enemies on the jaw, using God's unconditional loving truth, and so repent of 'eating' those unloving thoughts and feelings fuelling your depression.

Each time you remember good life - don't just hurt it - but thank God for it - and ask for a better return for that so Good life will stay - please don't forget to say thanks to God, keeping doubt and unbelief out at all cost - those spiritual thieves steal everything if not stopped with God's love, faith and hope. (Just watch how it goes inside of you and you will see what I mean.)

(I suffered my deepest depression for 7 years - 18 months of these years I was suicidal. There are no medications which can help me.

Sowing God's promises into me - eating The Word - daring to believe He would get me out - is what changed my inner world!

It took Jesus only 3 1/2 years to teach me to love and forgive God, myself and those others and stay out of the pit.

Now my depressive cycle hardly hurt bad no more as praying for others who hurt during such times works wonders and is not destructively self focussed as depression always seems to turn me into in the past.

So please be of very good courage!

For emptying ourself of our bad life and learning to have Faith in God's loving truth works absolute wonders and truly brings New as established from Old.


Many blessings my dear.


Gerry


psalm 119:33-56

h He

Teach me, O LORD, to follow your decrees;
then I will keep them to the end. Give me understanding, and I will keep your law
and obey it with all my heart.
Direct me in the path of your commands,
for there I find delight.
Turn my heart toward your statutes
and not toward selfish gain.
Turn my eyes away from worthless things;
preserve my life according to your word.
Fulfill your promise to your servant,
so that you may be feared.
Take away the disgrace I dread,
for your laws are good.
How I long for your precepts!
Preserve my life in your righteousness.
w Waw

May your unfailing love come to me, O LORD,
your salvation according to your promise; then I will answer the one who taunts me,
for I trust in your word.
Do not snatch the word of truth from my mouth,
for I have put my hope in your laws.
I will always obey your law,
for ever and ever.
I will walk about in freedom,
for I have sought out your precepts.
I will speak of your statutes before kings
and will not be put to shame,
for I delight in your commands
because I love them.
I lift up my hands to your commands, which I love,
and I meditate on your decrees.
z Zayin

Remember your word to your servant,
for you have given me hope. My comfort in my suffering is this:
Your promise preserves my life.
The arrogant mock me without restraint,
but I do not turn from your law.
I remember your ancient laws, O LORD,
and I find comfort in them.
Indignation grips me because of the wicked,
who have forsaken your law.
Your decrees are the theme of my song
wherever I lodge.
In the night I remember your name, O LORD,
and I will keep your law.
This has been my practice:
I obey your precepts.

 

[Criada]

Still praying for you, sweetie, for comfort and strength

 

[JESUS<3sYOU]

Thank you for your prayers and encouragement. Things are very difficult.
I am struggling with believing lies and I feel like I am under spiritual attack. I have been having nightmares every time I sleep since the day I told you my therapist thought I was under spiritual attack and had you pray. I wake up stressed out, terrified, depressed...from disturbing dreams.

I admitted to my therapist what I had been feeling since my husband told me he wanted to divorce me - the awful feeling that led me to attempt suicide on New Years Eve. I feel like my life is not worth living without my husband, He was the first person to make me feel loved (because of traumatic childhood) and safe. For the first time in my life I did not feel lonely and alone. My therapist said that as long as I believe my life is not worth living without him in it, that I will not get better from my depression and I will be stuck in grief.

I am struggling so much with this belief - I guess I know it is a wrong way to think, but I do not know how to change it. My husband meant everything to me... He was a huge support for me during graduate school and struggling with my depression. He was my only and best friend. He was my comfort and my sunshine.

When I look at my future, without him, it looks dark and horrible. I see loneliness, more despair, and lack of connection. I do not see anything good there because he is not in it.

I know that is so sinful - that I believe my husband can give me hope and a future, but that God can not. I know I gave him a place above God in my life...I felt loved for the first time and I was greedy for it.

I could really use your prayers to get out of this darkness and to have the RIGHT beliefs about my future and to grieve properly.
I feel so terrible and sad. I can tell when I am under spiritual attack certain times when I cry. I feel totally out of control, I want to die, I feel completely hopeless. It is terrifying. It is hell. It makes me want pick up something and hurt myself. It is scary. Tonight was like that for several hours.

I feel hopeless about my future - getting over the depression. I am feel so stuck and trapped, like I cannot move or even see out of the pit I am in.

Please pray that I will be able to overcome the false beliefs, especially the one about believing I need my husband to have a future. I just feel hopeless about it. I miss him so much.

Thanks for sharing.

Do you believe that God can heal you?

 

[razzelflabben]

May you find this day strength and hope as it reaches out to you.

 

[southernwonder]

I saw my soon to be ex-husband this weekend and it was very difficult. I hadn't seen him since September (he lives 12+ hrs away). We held each other and cried. He apologized and begged me to take care of myself.

I got my two dogs from him. They are getting adjusted to being here at my parents house. The trip wore me out due to my fibromyalgia and depression. I feel so tired now - I am exhausted. It takes so much effort to take care of the dogs right now.

There is no way that I am giving away my dogs.

Please pray that I will find rest and the anxiety of the divorce/dogs/depression will be soothed by God.

 

[Jeshu]

I saw my soon to be ex-husband this weekend and it was very difficult. I hadn't seen him since September (he lives 12+ hrs away). We held each other and cried. He apologized and begged me to take care of myself.

I got my two dogs from him. They are getting adjusted to being here at my parents house. The trip wore me out due to my fibromyalgia and depression. I feel so tired now - I am exhausted. It takes so much effort to take care of the dogs right now.

There is no way that I am giving away my dogs.

Please pray that I will find rest and the anxiety of the divorce/dogs/depression will be soothed by God.

I cry for you and your broken life my dear and pray that Jesus will restore Good Life soon so this agony can die in you.




Please heed Jesus He knows the Way out!


Psalm 36

For the director of music. Of David the servant of the LORD.

An oracle is within my heart
concerning the sinfulness of the wicked:
There is no fear of God
before his eyes. For in his own eyes he flatters himself
too much to detect or hate his sin.
The words of his mouth are wicked and deceitful;
he has ceased to be wise and to do good.
Even on his bed he plots evil;
he commits himself to a sinful course
and does not reject what is wrong.
Your love, O LORD, reaches to the heavens,
your faithfulness to the skies.
Your righteousness is like the mighty mountains,
your justice like the great deep.
O LORD, you preserve both man and beast.
How priceless is your unfailing love!
Both high and low among men
find refuge in the shadow of your wings.
They feast on the abundance of your house;
you give them drink from your river of delights.
For with you is the fountain of life;
in your light we see light.
Continue your love to those who know you,
your righteousness to the upright in heart.
May the foot of the proud not come against me,
nor the hand of the wicked drive me away.
See how the evildoers lie fallen—
thrown down, not able to rise!

 

[razzelflabben]

May you find rest in the care of our Lord and peace in the midst of your storm

 

[brinny]

I am new to this forum and in need of Christian support/encouragement. I have suffered from depression since my teenage years (I am in my late 20s). I lost my job two years ago due to being unable to function. One year ago my husband told me he wanted a divorce because he no longer believed in God and could no long fight the homosexual feelings he had been having since a child. Our marriage was a loving one and I miss him so much. Please do not say anything negative about him. Our marriage was real and he married me believing God had healed him from his same sex attraction. He gave in to sin and I know that.

I am living with my parents now. I see a Christian therapist and a psychiatrist.

I feel like I am in hell. I am having such trouble letting go of my husband. When I met my husband, I felt safe and loved for the first time in my life. I never felt loved by my parents. It is so hard to let go of him. I am so afraid of being unloved and alone.

I am so alone right now. My already weak support system has fallen apart. I do not have friends that are supportive.

My future seems so bleak and dark. I know what the Bible says but I am still so afraid of my future.

In the evenings, I feel so much pain and hopelessness that I want to die. My therapist thinks spiritual attacks are occurring when I am at my weakest point in the evening.

I just need some support and encouragement. And prayer.

Lifting you up to our Abba, dear heart ((((hug)))))