uncomfortable with mens due to sexual assault, is that wrong?

[tronicII]

I am happily married for almost 3 years. I love my husband very much.

I was sexually molested from a small child by my step grandfather. His son, my stepfather also touched my sister and me. My 16 year old baby sitter when I was around 6 or 9 tried to have sex with me and make me kiss and touch him to play his nintendo while my parents were at NA meetings.

I went to college and I put it all behind me. I had a long term BF that I had sex with and never felt repulsed.

I went into the Army and got drunk at a party and my then battle buddy tried to have sex with me when someone walked in.

I got married later. But having sex with my husband (my second partner by choice) has never been pleasurable. I'm almost repulsed by the thought of it) the penis. I've never been with a woman but don't know if being with a woman would make me feel secure and safe emotionally and physically. I would be fine to NEVER have sex with a man. But I do because do man would stay married to a woman who didn't want to have sex.

How would God see that? I feel like if none of this happened I would never feel like this. So how would that be bad to be curious?

I am currently seeing a psychologist but haven't told her this.

 

[Johnnz]

Being sexually molested will have made sex so uncomfortable for you. you will tend to fear men in general, especially when associated with anything sexual. You have done well to be married and prepared to engage in sex with your husband in spite of how you feel.

i suggest you talk about this issue with your psychologist.

John
NZ

 

[OGM]

I am happily married for almost 3 years. I love my husband very much.


I went to college and I put it all behind me. I had a long term BF that I had sex with and never felt repulsed.

I got married later. But having sex with my husband (my second partner by choice) has never been pleasurable. I'm almost repulsed by the thought of it) the penis. I would be fine to NEVER have sex with a man. But I do because do man would stay married to a woman who didn't want to have sex.

[FONT=&quot]I noticed you wrote when you had sex with your boyfriend you never felt repulsed. While sex with your husband has never been pleasurable and now you almost repulsed by the thought of a penis. Why do you think that is? Is it something about your husband?

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[Criada]

I agree with Johnnz - sexual assault leaves lasting scars, and it often comes back later and causes problems.
Your psychologist should be able to help you work through this.. talk to her, sweetie

Praying that you can get past this and enjoy your marriage in every way

 

[tronicII]

no, when i went to the army, my battle buddy tried to have sex with me while i was drunk but apparently someone walked in on it. that incident was before i started becoming sexually intimate about my husband...he was just someone i was dating then

 

[OGM]

no, when i went to the army, my battle buddy tried to have sex with me while i was drunk but apparently someone walked in on it. that incident was before i started becoming sexually intimate about my husband...he was just someone i was dating then

Thank you. TronicII, I have to agree with everyone else on this forum in saying that you should definitely tell your psychologist about all of this. It is extremely important that you tell her everything. I am sorry but I can’t really say anything else on this thread because my opinion of your; step grandfather, stepfather, baby sitter and “battle buddy”, is unprintable.