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Back in 2020, I realized the error in my beliefs. I used to be involved in the new age and saw these new age to jesus testimonies online. All of this took place after I had experienced evil, not only in my childhood home, but a couple of times where I live currently. Something stopped me from becoming a full on christian. I didn't actually believe that jesus was real. I thought to myself, "How could there only be one religion?" "What about those who have never heard of Jesus?" And "Was he even real in the first place?"
It was after this, that I began falling back into my old ways. There was something I didn't want to let go of. Years passed and I find myself back here again. I've experienced some very eerie and strange things. My house isn't haunted, but due to falling back into my old ways, I now have even more evidence of something dark having a hand in my life.
About 2 weeks ago, I practitced a form of witchcraft. I remember closing my eyes and asking the "spirits" to give me an answer to a question. It was after watching a paranormal video, I learned that you are able to recieve answers when in a trancelike state. I kind of knew this because upon falling asleep, I would get these visions. So, I did just that. Upon entering this trance state, I saw an image of myself. Actually, I didn't know it was me until the image became clearer.
I was hardly recognizable because my skin was grey and I looked dead. I then realized that this was the same woman I had seen in my dreams. Nearly every night, I'd see this woman with the same skin color haunting my dreams, but I never knew it was me because the image was blurry.
It was after seeing this image in this trance state that I began to have all these negative feelings of anxiety attacking me. They came out of nowhere and that's when I realized that whoever these beings were that had been sending these messages had been giving me negative thoughts. The feelings associated with these thoughts were intense. I theorize that the severe depression I experienced was a result of these demons.
This was just weeks ago that I had been deeply knvolved in these old ways and this past week, I realized what I was doing and came to Jesus. Just a few nights ago, I was drifting off to sleep and heard demonic laughter and then I was drifting off to sleep again and heard it a second time. I prayed to god and it went away.
I started spending time with god and wanted to spend time with him more and more and then yesterday, I lost the desire to. I find myself struggling to want to be a christian as I fear sharing my testimony for being judged. I once had a friend who betrayed me. She was a christian and I got judged and bullied by christians at my church. I am by no means a child. This is just the experiences I've had.
I've come to this forum to seek help and a community. I guess this is my story so far and my introduction. Hello to everyone on this forum! I hope I can contribute and learn something new.
It was after this, that I began falling back into my old ways. There was something I didn't want to let go of. Years passed and I find myself back here again. I've experienced some very eerie and strange things. My house isn't haunted, but due to falling back into my old ways, I now have even more evidence of something dark having a hand in my life.
About 2 weeks ago, I practitced a form of witchcraft. I remember closing my eyes and asking the "spirits" to give me an answer to a question. It was after watching a paranormal video, I learned that you are able to recieve answers when in a trancelike state. I kind of knew this because upon falling asleep, I would get these visions. So, I did just that. Upon entering this trance state, I saw an image of myself. Actually, I didn't know it was me until the image became clearer.
I was hardly recognizable because my skin was grey and I looked dead. I then realized that this was the same woman I had seen in my dreams. Nearly every night, I'd see this woman with the same skin color haunting my dreams, but I never knew it was me because the image was blurry.
It was after seeing this image in this trance state that I began to have all these negative feelings of anxiety attacking me. They came out of nowhere and that's when I realized that whoever these beings were that had been sending these messages had been giving me negative thoughts. The feelings associated with these thoughts were intense. I theorize that the severe depression I experienced was a result of these demons.
This was just weeks ago that I had been deeply knvolved in these old ways and this past week, I realized what I was doing and came to Jesus. Just a few nights ago, I was drifting off to sleep and heard demonic laughter and then I was drifting off to sleep again and heard it a second time. I prayed to god and it went away.
I started spending time with god and wanted to spend time with him more and more and then yesterday, I lost the desire to. I find myself struggling to want to be a christian as I fear sharing my testimony for being judged. I once had a friend who betrayed me. She was a christian and I got judged and bullied by christians at my church. I am by no means a child. This is just the experiences I've had.
I've come to this forum to seek help and a community. I guess this is my story so far and my introduction. Hello to everyone on this forum! I hope I can contribute and learn something new.
