Good day, Chad -
I think you're trapping yourself into a label you made for yourself. Eventually, when we describe ourselves into enough adjectives and specificities, we become that adjective, we become that description, we become that label. In the past, I've labelled myself shy and melancholic and antisocial for so many years that I've eventually become one and I only managed to break free when I surrendered everything completely to Christ. When you lose yourself to Christ, you lose your perceived strengths yes, but you also lose your weaknesses. And you gain His strength. Try this:
Don't Define Yourself.
Don't let the world or your neighbors or even you yourself define who you are - but let God define you. You are not a victim, nor are you powerless or hopeless. Read God's words and you'll know what he calls us. We are loved. We are sons of God. Children of the Most High. We are more than conquerors. Priests. Soldiers. Ambassadors. Pilgrims from Heaven. We are exalted, chosen, lifted up, special. And yes, we are also called by God to be "apart" from the World. To not be conformed, but to be transformed for the better. To be spiritual not physical.
Value God more than your Neighbors.
Try not to raise your neighbors into a status higher than God. For short, be accountable to God, not to anyone else. When someone wrongs you, immediately look to heaven and see the world as God sees it. See this person as God sees him/her. Unbelievers that look strong to the world are like mere children to God. Look to David, how did he overcome Goliath the Giant, it is in understanding that hid God is greater, stronger, and larger than even this giant Philistine. Imagine God looking down into the earth and he sees Goliath facing David. Is not the giant a mere speck in the eyes of someone who created the cosmos?
Surrender to God's Purpose.
There is no way of understanding life. Life has no meaning outside of God. God created the world with a purpose - and if we simply look at the world and not the Creator, then we cannot understand what the world is for. It is like looking at a new invention and not bothering to consult the inventor, or even read the instruction manual. We will only see the mechanical parts moving, twirling, but we will have no idea why it does so. In the same way, we may see the events of the world, the tragedies and successes - but outside the PURPOSE of the world, such becomes random events and thus become meaningless to us. We must look to the world's PURPOSE or else we can never understand why something happens the way it does. Nor can we accept it. In simple terms, understand who is in control of your life and the world you live in.
It's not about us.
Life as we know it is not about us. It is about God's purpose through us. Moses was not called to comfort, he was called to walk into the wilderness, to be persecuted by the people he saved from the Egyptians, to be hungry and thirsty and tired. But he became a patriarch because he persevered amidst trial and went ahead in faith. Noah did something ridiculous for a hundred years. He built a large ark in dry land and people laughed at him while he did so. He was persecuted as well, but he did not budge, instead he simply trusted in God's vision and DID HIS WORK.THis is the singular way of knowing that we are doing "good" - it is by OBEDIENCE.
Your suffering makes you strong.
Sometimes we fight against suffering and thus see it as a punishment from God. But is it? Read Paul's account below.
To keep me from becoming conceited... there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me: "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." ... That is why for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
- 2 Corinthians 7-10
Think of suffering in this world as a weighing scale - in one end, you have all your trials - insults, persecutions, and so forth. The weight placed upon you by the world will make the weighing scale's side fall hard. But God's response is not to remove such weights from the side of the world, but to create a counterweight of eternity in the other. In contrast to your worldly sufferings, God gives you counterweights from eternity - blessings, spiritual rewards, eternal life, treasures from heaven. As such, compared to such eternal counterweights, our physical problems seem small and light. It is when we are weakest that we are strongest. It is when we are most tried that we are most rewarded.