I often have troubles praying to the Lord, often because he an power figure, and associating with power figures often have to much power, knowledge etc,
I think you get the point and makes me embarrass to even to pray to him, even for repentance because it degrading to my heart. I know that kinda sad to hear but that what I personal feel with my emotions. I accepted that Jesus Christ as my savior, but have not been baptize to receive the holy ghost as an gift. I do not know what wrong with me, it like I am an silent person or just I do not know.
I often question myself for this paradox, and also I want to confide that I happen to be masturbating, and continue to do so because I am addicted to it, and I know it very disgusting sin to perform and without repenting. I truly do want to follow his will but I am so afraid of the path to follow.
Most of my life I have been an introvert person never really opening up to anyone for any kind of relationships, leading an very solitude life by myself.
Also scripture states that an person that knows he is sinning and not repent is in grave danger.
Be really careful on how you respond to this message, it may influence me to walk an absurd route of unknown mentality. In my last repentance towards masturbating, I keep hearing voices, and clearly heard someone said while I was repenting that I must suffer now.
PS. It was weird that I had an urge to laugh at this message for like 3 minutes. I knew some of the lord message back 3 years ago, but I turn my back against him just because I do not want to pray due to this paradox.
I think you get the point and makes me embarrass to even to pray to him, even for repentance because it degrading to my heart. I know that kinda sad to hear but that what I personal feel with my emotions. I accepted that Jesus Christ as my savior, but have not been baptize to receive the holy ghost as an gift. I do not know what wrong with me, it like I am an silent person or just I do not know.
I often question myself for this paradox, and also I want to confide that I happen to be masturbating, and continue to do so because I am addicted to it, and I know it very disgusting sin to perform and without repenting. I truly do want to follow his will but I am so afraid of the path to follow.
Most of my life I have been an introvert person never really opening up to anyone for any kind of relationships, leading an very solitude life by myself.
Also scripture states that an person that knows he is sinning and not repent is in grave danger.
Be really careful on how you respond to this message, it may influence me to walk an absurd route of unknown mentality. In my last repentance towards masturbating, I keep hearing voices, and clearly heard someone said while I was repenting that I must suffer now.
PS. It was weird that I had an urge to laugh at this message for like 3 minutes. I knew some of the lord message back 3 years ago, but I turn my back against him just because I do not want to pray due to this paradox.