Triggered... :(

[beckybooiloveu]

For chemistry this term we have to do this huge huge huge prac write up thing... and my prac was to do a spectrophotometric analyses of aspirin... I am in the middle of writing my report up and am doing all the background research for it and i am feeling really triggered because in my research it keeps coming up with overdose information about aspirin and things like that it is really hard to read about it all...
im sooo tired of everything...
and im really sleep deprived..

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Sis, please remember to take care of yourself Hun. The only thing I can think of for sleeping more is talking to your psych about the anxiety and I'd suggest mentioning this part too Beautiful.

I'm guessing you've already done the assignment, but Bec, if you're ever put into a situation where you know you're going to be triggered, maybe it's a good idea to make sure you've got a friend you can trust with you at the time. ie. If it's an assignment, do it with someone .

I'm praying for you Gorgeous and you know I'm always here sis .

Shalom,
Steffi

 

[Soulwings]

Praying that things are okay, Bec. Like Steffi said, have an "accountability partner" while doing such an assignment. It would really trigger me too so I can totally understand where you're coming from.

Hang in there, gorgeous. Try not to get too stressed out about end of term. And about the sleeplessness - I'm not much good with that, but like Steffi said (once again) (she says a lot of very wise things!!), can you talk to your psych about it? 'Cause she's there to help you with whatever problems you're having and it's pretty obvious that not sleeping well is a big one right now. Anxiety sucks. But there are meds that really help it.

If you ever need to talk, I'm here, sis!

 

[mamalonglegs]

For chemistry this term we have to do this huge huge huge prac write up thing... and my prac was to do a spectrophotometric analyses of aspirin... I am in the middle of writing my report up and am doing all the background research for it and i am feeling really triggered because in my research it keeps coming up with overdose information about aspirin and things like that it is really hard to read about it all...
im sooo tired of everything...
and im really sleep deprived..

Dear Beck: Being triggered is no fun. Like the others, if you know it's coming, set yourself up with a support system of people to talk with about what's going on. Sleep deprivation compounds the problem. You should truly work on straightening that out as soon as possible.
Also, I don't if you are able to do this. When I have to do something that I know might be triggering. I suspend personal feelings about the subject and simply do the assignment from a cognative point of view. Not everyone can do this though. Next time, try to have a plan already in place before starting the assignment, or task. mamalonglegs.

 

[beckybooiloveu]

Sis, please remember to take care of yourself Hun. The only thing I can think of for sleeping more is talking to your psych about the anxiety and I'd suggest mentioning this part too Beautiful.

I'm guessing you've already done the assignment, but Bec, if you're ever put into a situation where you know you're going to be triggered, maybe it's a good idea to make sure you've got a friend you can trust with you at the time. ie. If it's an assignment, do it with someone .

I'm praying for you Gorgeous and you know I'm always here sis .

Shalom,
Steffi

I'm really sorry i am just not up to talking with my psych atm... im trying to sort things out in my mind before i go to her and tell her how i am feeling if that makes sense... I was going to do the assignment with someone else but then our teacher said we had to work by ourselves and so i had to do it be myself... i was stupid ot choose that experiment... but my friend begged me to do the same one as her...
I'm doing my best to take care of myself... it is getting sooo tiring...

Hang in there, gorgeous. Try not to get too stressed out about end of term. And about the sleeplessness - I'm not much good with that, but like Steffi said (once again) (she says a lot of very wise things!!), can you talk to your psych about it? 'Cause she's there to help you with whatever problems you're having and it's pretty obvious that not sleeping well is a big one right now. Anxiety sucks. But there are meds that really help it.

If you ever need to talk, I'm here, sis!

Thanks April, ummm... i am on meds that are meant to help with my depression and particularly my anxiety atm... i have been on them sinse about june i think... adn i have had sleeping tablet before but my psych wouldnt let me keep having them because she doesnt want me to get addicted...

Dear Beck: Being triggered is no fun. Like the others, if you know it's coming, set yourself up with a support system of people to talk with about what's going on. Sleep deprivation compounds the problem. You should truly work on straightening that out as soon as possible.
Also, I don't if you are able to do this. When I have to do something that I know might be triggering. I suspend personal feelings about the subject and simply do the assignment from a cognative point of view. Not everyone can do this though. Next time, try to have a plan already in place before starting the assignment, or task. mamalonglegs.

im not much good at suspending personal feelings... i have tried it before... I would have done a plan up or something except this term has been so rushed and crazy i didnt get time...

Thanks for your support, wisdom and advice everyone!
I love u all!
I am taking abit of a step back from cf for a little while to try and sort things out... ill still be around... but to support others...
Love you, Bec

 

[Im-revived]

Hi Becky,

Think about this:-
Your in the middle of prep work which involves a lot of thought, understanding and writing.
Your absolutely worn out.
your feeling emotionally weak before even the other is mentioned, your usual way of battling is by not being under pressure, or finding another way out.

So ok your writing compositions regarding aspirin which explains overdose etc etc, I know how it feels I was the same through a lot of training I did for something, everytime the word came up my mind automatically changed into the negative mode. Now im not sure wether your a Christian or not but at present I feel because your so tired your struggling to battle these thoughts off. So I'll leave you a prayer:-

Lord Jesus, you know how much becky is feeling triggered in what shes reading and learning, but although shes feeling like this I ask Lord you'll strengthen her to fight all these emotions off. Amen

Im-revived

For chemistry this term we have to do this huge huge huge prac write up thing... and my prac was to do a spectrophotometric analyses of aspirin... I am in the middle of writing my report up and am doing all the background research for it and i am feeling really triggered because in my research it keeps coming up with overdose information about aspirin and things like that it is really hard to read about it all...
im sooo tired of everything...
and im really sleep deprived..

 

[beckybooiloveu]

thank you im-revived