Trapped

[step_by_step]

I have heard all the clichés, read all the verses, prayed all the prayers.

That isn't what I need. What I need is a serious life overhaul to be free from this sexual sin. I am stuck in a loop, convinced over and over again by Satan to keep giving in. For even though I desperately want to be clean and desperately want to serve God, I keep getting sucked back in.

Do not tell me that I don't want freedom enough. If it were that easy, no one would struggle with habitual sin. I'm at my wit's end.

I don't want to continue like this. But I can't seem to get free. If this is the way my life is going to be lived, I don't want to live.

 

[Southernscotty]

I am praying for you Step. I know sometimes these things can be so hard to overcome and it seems impossible but keep praying and seeking God above all friend.
May He fill you with the strength needed to overcome this addiction.

Heb 4:15 For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin.

 

[sunshine100]

praying

 

[Monna]

This may sound like a cliché, but it may work for you ...
I have found the best way to break a habit is to substitute it with a better one.

John Bourke, in his book "Soul Revolution" describes a habit to get into - and with Lent coming along soon you might find additional motivation for it:

Commit yourself to spend at least a minute every hour (preferably on the hour) you're awake thinking about/talking with Jesus your Lord, and do that for 60 days - to begin with. He calls it the 60-60 commitment. I can recommend the book - it provides a lot of useful thoughts, do's as well as don'ts in terms of changing one's mindset. (Hopefully, at the end of the 60 days, you'll have found it so habitual, that you won't stop! ​

You are not the first one to be plagued by this habit, and you won't be the last. Still, you're brave to come out and admit you have it. Bourke also recommends you find a "running mate" - someone you can trust and share your feelings, your struggle, your progress, your setbacks - someone who is not condemnatory, but a source of encouragement, a listening ear. And someone you don't mind asking you how you're doing with this habit. Do you have someone like that?

I have also found it useful to understand at depth the truth of Jesus' words "Without me you can do NOTHING!" I'm (all too) slowly coming to realize that this is TOTALLY true. But He also said "With God, NOTHING is impossible!" So do not give up. If your heart is serious about getting past this, HE will NOT give up on you! You gotta fill your mind with something ELSE, and the best thing is with Jesus himself.

You think it'll take a miracle? Read John chapter 9 - the story of the man born blind. Jesus' disciples - like us - were always trying to find out the cause of an effect: "who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?" Jesus in effect said - "sin did not cause this, neither his nor his parents'. This man is a miracle waiting to happen, for the glory of God." Then he healed him ... and by letting him participate directly in the miracle ... he had to go and wash off the muddy spit Jesus had put on his eyes. So, tell Jesus you want to be a miracle happening too!

God bless!

 

[Monk Brendan]

I have heard all the clichés, read all the verses, prayed all the prayers.

That isn't what I need. What I need is a serious life overhaul to be free from this sexual sin. I am stuck in a loop, convinced over and over again by Satan to keep giving in. For even though I desperately want to be clean and desperately want to serve God, I keep getting sucked back in.

Do not tell me that I don't want freedom enough. If it were that easy, no one would struggle with habitual sin. I'm at my wit's end.

I don't want to continue like this. But I can't seem to get free. If this is the way my life is going to be lived, I don't want to live.

We fall down, and we get up. We fall down, and we get up. Lather, rinse, repeat.

Repentance is a lifestyle, not a once-and-you're-done thing.

 

[Lost4words]

I have heard all the clichés, read all the verses, prayed all the prayers.

That isn't what I need. What I need is a serious life overhaul to be free from this sexual sin. I am stuck in a loop, convinced over and over again by Satan to keep giving in. For even though I desperately want to be clean and desperately want to serve God, I keep getting sucked back in.

Do not tell me that I don't want freedom enough. If it were that easy, no one would struggle with habitual sin. I'm at my wit's end.

I don't want to continue like this. But I can't seem to get free. If this is the way my life is going to be lived, I don't want to live.

Same as me my friend. A never ending circle that i am trying to escape from.

I fall many times. But, i always get back up and turn to Jesus. Always.

I may be losing hundreds of battles but i am determined to win the war my friend. However long it takes.

Offer up your cross to Jesus.

God bless you my friend.

 

[david tyler]

I WILL PRAY FOR AMEN

 

[Mydreams]

Lord we bring step_by_step, and this praher, let you set step_by_step free from sexual sin. Bless step_by_step's life with righteousness, peace and joy. In Jesus precious name, Amen!