- Feb 12, 2005
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I was thinking about my past which has been coming up in my thoughts recently. This is more 'my story' which I am willing now to tell. It is easier to mention it to people who I have never met than directly to one I know.
To start, my family growing up was a mess. My mom lacked compassion and didn't sleep in the same room as my dad for years as I remember. Always a fight and arguments. In 5th grade or so, my dad lost one of his two businesses and we lost our house as well. They got in a divorce within a year after. For two years I lived with her, she suffered from severe depression and I went through some rough changes that I regret. I became a 'punk', 'anarchist', and so on. Never drugs, alcohol, or ****, but I became addicted to porn.
I moved in with my father in 8th grade. He moved in with his girlfriend and her kids after only 2 weeks living with him. Then I was enrolled in their school for 2 years. Again, my dad lost his last remaining business and we were forced to move again. This time out of New York to Minneapolis. I hated it there. Disliked the people, area, almost everything. And then I entered another stage and combined that with the previous 'radical' era I went through. This time, all out 'hacker.' With this, real anarchy could be attempted.
Luckily, I never got myself into any trouble. We moved within a year to Atlanta, where I am now. This is where a complete turn-around occured. I got rid of my punk wear and everything along those lines and conformed for the first time in years.
I started thinking more about church and god. I broke the porn habbit after 7 years, and I was shortly blessed with an angel, that in which I call my love. God had planned this out long ago. Now it is extremely evident. He built up a character for me for my whole childhood, and the point finally achieved was maturity, and continued to a start of spiritual maturity. I picked up a bible and actually studied it on my free will.
Through this girl however, God has worked in me. Her father is a pastor, and she guides me (1 peter 3). I fear family is looking at me and thinking that I did this because of her, but just the contrary, I am doing it for myself and my Lord in heaven. She is the one who enlightened me. Someday, I hope to have her in my arms when I wake up to go to work. I feel it will happen. Certain things occured, now I have absolute faith of my mission in life.
Anyway. Thats all that is present in my memory at the moment. I'm not looking for sympathy. I just want to get to know everyone (hard with so many people here), so I figured I'd share myself initially.
Thanks
~Luke
To start, my family growing up was a mess. My mom lacked compassion and didn't sleep in the same room as my dad for years as I remember. Always a fight and arguments. In 5th grade or so, my dad lost one of his two businesses and we lost our house as well. They got in a divorce within a year after. For two years I lived with her, she suffered from severe depression and I went through some rough changes that I regret. I became a 'punk', 'anarchist', and so on. Never drugs, alcohol, or ****, but I became addicted to porn.
I moved in with my father in 8th grade. He moved in with his girlfriend and her kids after only 2 weeks living with him. Then I was enrolled in their school for 2 years. Again, my dad lost his last remaining business and we were forced to move again. This time out of New York to Minneapolis. I hated it there. Disliked the people, area, almost everything. And then I entered another stage and combined that with the previous 'radical' era I went through. This time, all out 'hacker.' With this, real anarchy could be attempted.
Luckily, I never got myself into any trouble. We moved within a year to Atlanta, where I am now. This is where a complete turn-around occured. I got rid of my punk wear and everything along those lines and conformed for the first time in years.
I started thinking more about church and god. I broke the porn habbit after 7 years, and I was shortly blessed with an angel, that in which I call my love. God had planned this out long ago. Now it is extremely evident. He built up a character for me for my whole childhood, and the point finally achieved was maturity, and continued to a start of spiritual maturity. I picked up a bible and actually studied it on my free will.
Through this girl however, God has worked in me. Her father is a pastor, and she guides me (1 peter 3). I fear family is looking at me and thinking that I did this because of her, but just the contrary, I am doing it for myself and my Lord in heaven. She is the one who enlightened me. Someday, I hope to have her in my arms when I wake up to go to work. I feel it will happen. Certain things occured, now I have absolute faith of my mission in life.
Anyway. Thats all that is present in my memory at the moment. I'm not looking for sympathy. I just want to get to know everyone (hard with so many people here), so I figured I'd share myself initially.
Thanks
~Luke
