to say or not to say....

[Atha]

i dont know if i should say this, its a fairly scary thing for me... but years ago, I went to a preacher and felt like something was taking over me... he did something, prayed over me, and for about 30 min I felt my heart beating again... but after that things took a turn for the worse... I have a mental illness and most people think I am weird or crazy, but im really not that bad of a guy, but after that, it seemed like things went out of control... I don't know how or why but after that 30 min time, I believe many more spirits came against me... when I was at church which I sat in the back because I felt so uncomfortable, when the music started to play, like a 8 foot tall demon walked straight out of me, and I needed all my strength just not to yell as loud as I could... a year or so later, I was in intense prayer and something happened, I was a little set free, and a dog outside started barking and howling like crazy it went on for about 1 hour... but im not sure how long ago now, I was praying and very suicidal the day before I took a bunch of pills and a week before I was in the hospital... but I said something to God like, lift up my faith and let down my doubt, minutes later a demon cursing and swaring rose up and I said, "in the name of Jesus Christ demon I cast you to hell" then another voice came and it was worse and I said the same thing, but it said 'im not a demon' so I said, "by the Power of Jesus Christ devil I condemn you to hell" then I said "the Lord rebuke you!" which had worked many times before, and it started to shake and scream kinda and terror ripped across my body until it was finally gone.... its been about a month and I am thankful to say I am finally free........ it so hard to have a demon or devil or whatever those monsters are, my life I cannot describe to people how bad it really was, it doesn't matter, but I am the only one that had to deal with them and I was the only one that cast them out, if it wasn't for the name and power of "Jesus Christ" I would have surely ended my life... this is just one story of how bad those monsters are, but I didn't know anything about it other than what the bible said... please people if you know how to use his name I have met so many people that were cursed like I was, I was just lucky to have Jesus' help... they usually don't... if the priests would do their job and heal and cast out the spirits the world would be a better place, but they don't they cant they just go on with their dutys and leave everyone to a world without faith... im sick of religion, after what happened to me, and the thing is, there was no one to help me, my mom wouldn't believe me she said it was all my sickness, the priests never did a thing, and the preacher that started this whole mess..... im just happy to be free, but you wont find me in any church for awhile...