This Life Path We Take

[oceanofdreamz]

Whinding to the end I see it now,
I see I missed it all along,
I was so lonely in life,
But now as it comes to a close,
I relize I was negeltive,
My heart always wanted to show the truth,
But still I lived for me,
My life was never complete,
A void,
Struck me painfully,
But I kept going on like it was alright,
That was the spring,
The beginning of all sorrows,
I knew where to turn,
But I pushed it in a box,
And made it be locked away,
I am now in the winter,
Of my life,
Wilting away like a flower wilts without water,
I still can smell beauty,
I can still see my life at the start,
I kept it locked away,
My pain vividly held me in bondage,
I was strucken without a hope,
I felt totally and completely lost,
I was in despair,
I tried to find help,
But I was too far gone I was told,
I was there without existance,
I could feel myself giving into,
All that surrounded me,
I was lost,
I was broken,
I thought I couldn't be saved,
I was ageing,
Praying it would all pass,
And I'd be in happiness,
But I was wilting,
My life fading away,
The pain was still there,
I look back down,
My road of life,
I see I could of been helped,
I could of been saved,
I was lost I thought,
Told I couldn't be anything,
That life was just a metafore,
And that I was here for no reason,
I see now in my last moments,
That had I seen the truth,
And not been afraid of acting upon it,
I could of been provided with happiness,
It's all ending now,
Life is fading,
I think I am over,
Had I not been so afraid of the truth,
So afraid of help,
Maybe I could of lived in the outside,
Maybe I could of lived in joy?
I know now,
That my life was a wasted mess,
That all I did was for no one at all,
I was wasting,
I was told I was not worth it,
So I gave up,
My entire life I gave up,
Had I done something different,
Had I gotten help,
Had I seen past the darkness,
Maybe I would be alright now,
Maybe I would be changed?
Maybe my pain would of slipped away,
And maybe,
I would of been,
Saved,
I wonder now,
A few moments to the dusk of life,
Is it too late?
To be saved?
I look back on my life,
Tears forming in my eyes,
How could I have been so niave,
To not live fully?
To listen to those lies,
I was told,
I knew the truth,
I knew the answer,
But somehow I stumbled,
Somehow I was lost,
Somehow,
I was a cause,
To my pain,
Standing here,
The last breath of sunshine on my back,
I wonder could I have been,
Could I be,
Saved?