- Apr 30, 2013
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I have been diagnosed the past few years with Irritable Bowel Syndrome, but in the past few months, it's got a new twist- I seem to have trouble digesting gluten (in wheat, barley, and rye) and A1 casein (in cow milk- goat milk may be easier but it's $$$). Consuming either causes days of constipation and pain, and leads to fibromyalgia flare-ups. My gastroenterologist did a colonoscopy and bloodwork and doesn't believe I have Coeliac disease, but I am skeptical- rarely this sort of bloodwork is a false-negative and people have the condition anyways.
This has wrecked havoc with my spiritual life. At first I continued to receive the Eucharist at the Independent Catholic parish I went to. But finally I just decided not to risk it, as repeated fasting from wheat and challenging again confirmed I was intolerant of wheat. Even the small amount of wheat in the Host began to trouble me in my mind as I started to see all wheat as basically poison to my body that I didn't want (misery has a way of causing that sort of aversion), and doubting the Sacrament lead to further spiritual issues. Right now I'm not sure what to believe exactly, sometimes. It almost feels like someone is playing a big prank on me, and I'm missing the humor.
I have occasionally visited the local Episcopal cathedral because I've started to become disilluniosed with the liberal Independent Catholic focus on the Eucharist (which is self-intinction and since they don't bring the chalice down to me, I cannot receive anyways) and the moralistic preaching there (albeit focused more on social activism). I've delt with so much pain, I have a real sense of heaviness and the brief moralistic sermons seem to leave me feeling dry. I talked to the deacon at the IC church but the bishop has been so ill and busy he hasn't gotten back to me.
I talked to an Episcopalian deacon on sunday and he said he would have to talk to the pastor at the Eucharistic service at the cathedral. The pastor (whom I have talked to before, the canon at the cathedral) came to me before the service and explained to me that he would just let me drink from the Chalice and the sacrament would be valid.
At the distribution of Communion in the small chapel, the priest went around with a minister. But when he came to me, I think he looked a bit perplexed on what he should do, he holds up the Host and says "The Body of Christ", shows it to me in front of my face, then puts it away. The whole thing seemed very ackward. Soon afterward the minister with the chalice followed behind him and seemed to walk past me until I gestured to bring the Chalice to me as I wanted to receive it. I left feeling grateful that I had received communion at all but upset that the whole thing was handled in what felt like a haphazard fashion. In some ways, I think I'd just prefer the Medieval practice of "Ocular Communion", where the laity don't actually receive the species at all, to what is going on.
This has wrecked havoc with my spiritual life. At first I continued to receive the Eucharist at the Independent Catholic parish I went to. But finally I just decided not to risk it, as repeated fasting from wheat and challenging again confirmed I was intolerant of wheat. Even the small amount of wheat in the Host began to trouble me in my mind as I started to see all wheat as basically poison to my body that I didn't want (misery has a way of causing that sort of aversion), and doubting the Sacrament lead to further spiritual issues. Right now I'm not sure what to believe exactly, sometimes. It almost feels like someone is playing a big prank on me, and I'm missing the humor.
I have occasionally visited the local Episcopal cathedral because I've started to become disilluniosed with the liberal Independent Catholic focus on the Eucharist (which is self-intinction and since they don't bring the chalice down to me, I cannot receive anyways) and the moralistic preaching there (albeit focused more on social activism). I've delt with so much pain, I have a real sense of heaviness and the brief moralistic sermons seem to leave me feeling dry. I talked to the deacon at the IC church but the bishop has been so ill and busy he hasn't gotten back to me.
I talked to an Episcopalian deacon on sunday and he said he would have to talk to the pastor at the Eucharistic service at the cathedral. The pastor (whom I have talked to before, the canon at the cathedral) came to me before the service and explained to me that he would just let me drink from the Chalice and the sacrament would be valid.
At the distribution of Communion in the small chapel, the priest went around with a minister. But when he came to me, I think he looked a bit perplexed on what he should do, he holds up the Host and says "The Body of Christ", shows it to me in front of my face, then puts it away. The whole thing seemed very ackward. Soon afterward the minister with the chalice followed behind him and seemed to walk past me until I gestured to bring the Chalice to me as I wanted to receive it. I left feeling grateful that I had received communion at all but upset that the whole thing was handled in what felt like a haphazard fashion. In some ways, I think I'd just prefer the Medieval practice of "Ocular Communion", where the laity don't actually receive the species at all, to what is going on.