With love and respect, brother Doughnut. you can ask this question as many times as you like. no matter how much you don't like the answer, the truth will always be the same. Knottmatt and the others gave some pretty sound advise before, and you heard it again from Texastig... I guess if you ask enough people someone will tell you what you want to hear, but it's probably not going to be in a christian forum.
If it does make you feel alittle better no one says you have to make things right tomorrow, but it should definitely be on your "to do list"
I can tell your really struggling with this. So ask for help from someone who can physically be there, or write an apology letter, there so many things you can do to make things right. the point is you don't have to do it alone.