Nietzsche's Eternal Recurrence
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Nietzsche's doctrine of eternal recurrence may have a basis in science.
On a finite universe with no beginning or end
Peter Lynds
[physics/0612053] On a finite universe with no beginning or end
If you were destined to live the exact same life an infinite number of times, how would you choose to live in the here and now? Eternal recurrence in this world might be a better motivator for meaningful living than belief in a heaven to escape this world.
jan 5 2018
jesus is real and i was just saved on dec 30th 2017 - in a sort of xmas miricle: however im experiencing eternal recurance !!!! im literally stuck in a loop replaying the same period over and over again- im currently on my third recurrance ! (its called pergatory).
each time i do better and more possitive things and my entire focus is on connecting w god (who prior to this i had no connection because i walked away from the church when i was 17. im 37 and im back now bc i finally get it after having a near death experience, god gave me a second and now third try and ive been using my chances to get closer to god, connect w my wife spiritually and emotionally, and spend time with my two young boys. im playing with them imm truely playing w my boys before the events of the last two weeks occured i was a godless, self absorbed, pain in the ass who attacked everyone emotionally and verbally and took took took, never gave anything. it was all about me. and with these new chances thats what ive been chnaging.
the problem is even with all these chnages in my life, i cant get out of the loop (which means ive yet to truely change my ways, so this 3rd round im teying my hardest and this time i think ive done it- ive truely accepted god and become christian instead of last time doing all the steps jist to rid the demon from my house- this time im changing who i am for my kids, wife and myself).
. im afraid the looping is a signal that i die very soon because once i hit the end of this weekend i cant remember anything further. so what is causing the loop. and how far back and i reliving? ive looked for clues...it seems to have all started looping around the near death experience. i was literally at a cross in a road (i could have gone right left straight or back). i chose straight and good thing bc i was experiencing a full palasis where my face aNd entiee body tensed up and i couldnt move or talk- the EMTs at rhe fire station i drove to said i needed to go to the hospital asap. i gave up control and let me wife take me to the hopsital where i was diagnosed w rhabdo- kidney issues could have issues had i not went in.
if i decied to go right at the intersection id have seized up while driving and died right then and there in a car accident as this stretch of road has steep banks and nowhere to turn off !!! why does this specific line of evens keep happening...it actually seems to back further and restart everytime but im only becoming aware of these recurring events after i leave the hospital the next day. and it only comes back in small doses- at first i thaught i was recounting a dream but then realized its not a dream its me reliving these same moments over and over. w the first time (1st life) i lived it i lost my family and my wife moved back n w her folks and the kids after i lost my job for some reason !!!
so then on round two (second life) of living this time line i took actions to avoid loosing my job. realizing this is what let me to the actions that caused all the events including the near death experience !!!! the hospital visit, the finding god and reaffirming my christian values aNd former self (when i was 17).
so what happened was i decided to go on a fast (no food) that then leads me to clarity of mind and body (i gave up alcohol, cigars, porn, caffine and all unpure things)...this is what allows me to be sets me free...i broke my fast on xmas day.
my son tips me off to where the demon was hiding in my house (he lives outside the body to gain more power and become stronger.) my son 3 yr old tells me what scares him and i finally listen. i take the painting off the walla and break it in two and throw it away. that angers the demon spirit and he tries to kill me in a car accident after i ingest an energy drink w cafffine and other [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] in it. he uses this fleeting bit of power to try and kill me in a car accident to steal my soul before god can come back into my life.
going to the hospital buys me more time away from the demons fleeting control - while in the hospital the docs hook me up to an iv and hydrate me and tell me i have rhabdo and that its life threatening and i need to stay overnight. i do and they pump the caffine outta me w fluids and time. i return home after having discovered the soul game that is being played on this earth and discovering i almost died but bc i was at a cross in a road and gave yp control that im still alive today.
i then discover that my choice of the fast allowed me to see everything clearly and that id been beeing controlled by a demon for 9 yrs and that i was finally free. as soon as i was free i could now connect w god and my wife and my kids !!!
on my return from the hospital i was in a weak state and the demon could not hurt me but he could read my mind searching for clues as to what had happened, how had he been tricked out of my soul !!!
i tried to resist but he kept combing through my mind. we left the house withing 2 hrs of being home and headed off on a four day long voyage during the new year holiday.
this is when i officially connect w god dec 30 2017 and accept christ into my life. and this is when u start realizing this has all already hapened before (during the second life, which i had initially thaught was a dream). as events start to repeat i begin testing my theory and trying to alter little events. im sucessful at hanging events but it takes a lot a lot a lot if effort- most things keep happenihg the same.
as i move further through the holiday i begin living a cleaner and more godly life and try to cleanup my entire act and make sure my soul is ready for god. i also begin realizing i have a definite end point to my recollection of the future events with then all winding down after i return back to work on monday or wednesday the following week.
i initially was fearful that maybe this is a signifier that i was going to die soon. but now i believe once work starts back up i go back to being stressed and restart my old life the same as before and forget about this entire situation once i begin consuming caffine and or alcohol again!!!! evidently i never follow through w my plan to read the bible and never go to church again, and never go to heaven w those actions. so i get stuck in this pergatory hell of reliving.
so here is my plan moving forward - i wont drink a drop of alcohol or and no caffine, no tylenol or caught meds...nada and ill pray and ill stay true to god. to do this im gonna read the bible nightly w my wife and ill stay strong and try to keep living aware to avoid falling into my old ways and recatchup w the life as previously sceheduled.
if i can stay strong and not take any meds or anything my memory of these evnts will be able to further and further- and maybe next time when i go through all this ill be able to remember further into my new life so i wont be so afraid and ill be able to further w changing corse !!!
holly crap i think i just solved it !!! guys eternal looping is happening its called pergatory. go on a fast - get off all substances and see for yourself if u can pop out of the regularly scheduled life and see ur way out.
ps while in the hopsital inwrote the following.
"a third chance at sobriety - a christmas miricle 2017- the demon and me"
id like to thank my grandma (my guardian angel), my supportive understanding parents, my patient and supportive wife, my kids (peter ur a little angel and so brave, ill never be mean or hurt you again), baby liam for giving me a long term goal of sobriety and focus, and god for giving me the opportunity to be here today. without all of your love, support, your understanding and the use of each of your special gifts to help protect me and deliver me frim evil, yet again. without each of you this story would never have been writen and I wouldnt be the man i am here today, if here at all.
the plot of the story involves many actors both villanous and saintly, its a story as old as time waged over an entire family and each of their souls...many battles were faught, lost, and won. there is a prequil to the saga involving those in my family before me - true marters who struggled with their own demons; however, those are a story for another day - hint hint it is my fathers story to tell (ive got a draft of it in my safe at home).
my ememy shifted shape many times and changed weapons just as many times with stress, ignorance, disbelief, fear, vanity, greed, pornography as her strongest weapons.
the path of my life, my family, savi and peter and my newborn child is all at stake.
my battles took place over 20 years (beginning in undergrad, gradschool, post gradschool w my 1st professional job and my 2nd professional job), and finailly culminated in 2017
as a writter i sit here in the hospital trying to figure out the ending to the story. was the true gift merely figuring all this stuff out before i died so i can go to heaven or is this truely a new chance at life. i hope i can live a long healthy prosperous family life from this point forward and see my kids growup and grow old w my wife... it seems it can go any way at this point.
