So, I'm on my faith journey to find where I belong and that's all well and good but... I'm a bit anxious about it all. My grandparents (who I live with) allow me to attend whatever churches that I want but... as for actually joining one, I'm not sure if they would actually let me do that. They are hardcore Catholics and last time I brought up converting to another religion that wasn't Catholicism, they got pretty upset at me. Well now that I'm looking at Christianity, I'm sure things will be better... but I still don't think Catholicism is right for me. It would be nice if I could be Catholic, but I disagree with too much in order to actually be Catholic so that's probably not an option for me. I want to be Episcopalian, and I'm not sure that my grandparents will be okay with me getting baptized under them.
They'll try to talk me out of it so that I can start attending RCIA classes, which would make me uncomfortable because that's not the road that I want to go down. And if I try to say no, they'll press me and try to get me to tell them the reasons why I don't want to be Catholic. I don't want to tell them because then it will start an argument and they'll try arguing me into changing my mind. They'll likely win their arguments too because they're trained apologists, making me feel like a fool, hurting my feelings immensely, and not changing my mind on anything one bit. And that might push me away from Christianity again. So, sadly, I feel like maybe I'll have to keep quiet about my possibly growing faith in Christ until... well, I'm not sure when.