The OCD cycle again?

[guitarintro]

I thought I was doing well; I thought I was gaining control. However, just when I thought everything was okay, something struck me, again. I was just eating fruits with my family and my parents were watching a movie. I saw a scene and it looked violent, so I made the comment that it looked violent. Right after I said it looked violent (in cantonese), the actor started speaking in tongues. In fact, they even had it on subtitles. I may have had a bad thought come across, but am not sure. Still, I have doubt.

I am not sure if I did anything wrong there. Advice on this situation much appreciated.

Another thing is, I was planning to go to the Christian club the next day. There is this Christian girl I wanted to meet. Should I still go to the club?

 

[seajoy]

Yes, go to the club. You did nothing wrong. You have ocd - it causes awful thoughts, that's all. It has nothing to do with your salvation.

Do the "oh well" to every blaphemous thought that you have. Then don't back track. Also, do you have a doctor yet? You need one. He/she will teach you how to cope with your disorder.

God bless.

 

[guitarintro]

Thanks for the response. I haven't found a doctor yet. To be honest, I wouldn't know where to look for one anyways.

My OCD seems to fluctuate a lot. There are times I can control it and understand it is just a thought. For example, today when I was withdrawing books for researching my paper, I had intrusive thoughts and started to relate it to Bible. I told myself that and then I carried on with what I was doing. I identified it as OCD and moved on.

 

[seajoy]

Thanks for the response. I haven't found a doctor yet. To be honest, I wouldn't know where to look for one anyways.

My OCD seems to fluctuate a lot. There are times I can control it and understand it is just a thought. For example, today when I was withdrawing books for researching my paper, I had intrusive thoughts and started to relate it to Bible. I told myself that and then I carried on with what I was doing. I identified it as OCD and moved on.

Good job!

 

[Jayangel81]

There is this Christian girl I wanted to meet. Should I still go to the club?

Go have fun. You deserve it

 

[MandyG]

guitarintro,
I think you should go to your club. Make this statement today:
"I am Going to Enjoy My life, in spite of OCD!!"
Like Jayangel81 said, GO HAVE FUN!
-Mandy

 

[guitarintro]

I thought I'd update my situation.

I sometimes feel like I am on the verge of eliminating the OCD in my life, but there's always something that drags me back into the cycle. This time it is a coincidental incident.

I was countering something in my mind from earlier on. I was saying to myself 'no, that is not blasphemy against The Holy Spirit'. As soon as I thought of that phrase, the television said 'sex'. I got quite anxious and depressed. Does that mean sex is blasphemous?