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This one would vote #4. Bear in mind the Job paradigm may not be the one best fitting your situation. There bes also the general spiritual warfare paradigm, and that one bes big, tangled, complex and convoluted. Simplest way possible would be to separate your role in this from his. So what bes spiritual warfare where you enter it may be result of his sin where he enters it, or it may be a combination of both for you both with each of you having a proportion different leaning more heavily one or the other.
Tell this one more about precisely what DID happen, from human experiential (not trying to explain it) standpoint. Tellsy the events themselves, an it may better comprehend and help you.
Okay, a timeline...you are so playing into my analytical tendencies.
- I make a profession of faith, age 5, 1972
- I grow up in very, very strict fundamentalist church
- LisaI lose my faith at age 13 after observing hypocrisy her entire life. Folks are one way in church and another way at home.
- Combine all of this with a great deal of abuse
- I live my life feeling like I am under a curse but I don't know how to reconcile back to God and become one of those I have watched my entire life.
- I have a vision in a movie theatre and I try to rationalize it away for two days.
- I finally get on my knees and cry out to God. Joy, love, freedom, and peace are received.
- My heart becomes burdened for my family. My husband is very self-destructive, partying and heavily into drugs.
- My husband makes a profession about a month later. My husband does not completely quit the partying.
- Heart Attack #1, June 2004.
- Son is diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome, August 2004
- Grandmother is diagnosed with Alzheimers, December 2004.
- Husband is fired from long time job due to drug use and increasing symptoms of severe paranoia, March 2005.
- Heart Attack #2, July 2005.
- Husband is fired from second job because he did not reveal having had the first heart attack.
- Husband's drug use increases, and mental instability continues.
- Grandfather passes away suddenly, September 2005.
- Husband is diagnosed as Bipolar, September 2005.
- Husband's drug use continues. Mental state is erratic as he begins abusing prescriptions for Bipolar Disorder.
- Husband takes a job with a very shifty company. All cash basis. He promises it is just until he can find something else. It worries me because of the IRS implications. My husband is collecting unemployment while working for this company.
- April, 2006, Lisa begins preparing to leave husband as he has become so self-destructive and even abusive. Plan is to leave in July when money is available.
- I am praying all of this time for my husband's salvation and my marriage to be saved.
- June 2006, my husband is crushed between a tractor trailer and a van.
- I spend 25 days in Miami Florida nursing my husband who stays in a psychotic state most of the time.
- Return to North Carolina and have to admit my husband into a psychiatric unit two days after returning home because he became violent and was a danger to himself.
- I take over the care and nursing of my husband, administer IV's twice a day, make sure he receives his medicine correctly, and he stablizies.
- My husband recovers enough to begin driving. He immediately begins the drug abuse again.
- I find out that he is now dealing drugs.
- Financially, things are a mess. I have used every last penny of our savings (the divorce fund), there is no way out.
- I finally seek treatment for my own severe depression and am nearly hospitalized myself. Do the fancy dance with the MD's to keep out. (Sept 2006)
Lisa
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