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Greetings,

I detailed a little bit of my struggle in my welcome thread; but frankly I didn't scratch the surface. I feel like I'm whining to you all by doing this. This may sound stupid but I'm forced to consider that there is a god, within the past month or so, for some reason, I cannot stay of this forum. I've been lurking constantly for no reason.

I have stepped down from my atheistic pedestal and am now an 'agnostic' (forum status and all). I have been a Christian before but if there is a god, and there just may be. With my mild Cerebral Palsy I am left to conclude, he just doesn't love me.

Though the roughest points of my life, struggling with a father who has a drug addiction, having cerebral palsy and never being normal, and just all around life. Where was he? I prayed and I prayed, but there was nothing for me.

I have been in the same town my entire life. In this town of about 10,000 there is one baptist church. The baptist church I attended religiously for years, found god, lost god and back again. I can recite verse like no other yet nothing.The church couldn't hold clergy to save its life, and often would have to have deacons preach. The only ones who really felt at home in the youth had the right last name.

What if Christianity was never meant for me?

May the grace of god be with you, always.
 

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Greetings,

I detailed a little bit of my struggle in my welcome thread; but frankly I didn't scratch the surface. I feel like I'm whining to you all by doing this. This may sound stupid but I'm forced to consider that there is a god, within the past month or so, for some reason, I cannot stay of this forum. I've been lurking constantly for no reason.

I have stepped down from my atheistic pedestal and am now an 'agnostic' (forum status and all). I have been a Christian before but if there is a god, and there just may be. With my mild Cerebral Palsy I am left to conclude, he just doesn't love me.

Though the roughest points of my life, struggling with a father who has a drug addiction, having cerebral palsy and never being normal, and just all around life. Where was he? I prayed and I prayed, but there was nothing for me.

I have been in the same town my entire life. In this town of about 10,000 there is one baptist church. The baptist church I attended religiously for years, found god, lost god and back again. I can recite verse like no other yet nothing.The church couldn't hold clergy to save its life, and often would have to have deacons preach. The only ones who really felt at home in the youth had the right last name.

What if Christianity was never meant for me?

May the grace of god be with you, always.
Then why has God placed a hunger and longing on your heart that keeps drawing you back to him?
 
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Then why has God placed a hunger and longing on your heart that keeps drawing you back to him?

maybe I'm just a [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse].
 
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I have been a Christian before but if there is a god, and there just may be. With my mild Cerebral Palsy I am left to conclude, he just doesn't love me.

Though the roughest points of my life, struggling with a father who has a drug addiction, having cerebral palsy and never being normal, and just all around life. Where was he? I prayed and I prayed, but there was nothing for me.
MY DEAR BROTHER,

Suffering sucks, but it is not a valid criteria for judging God's Love for you. If this were so, His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, would have felt the same way as you do. Instead, His final trusting and loving words were, "Into your hands I commend my spirit."

Try doing the same--Jesus is, after all, among other things, a role model--and see what happens. Surrender without limit or pre-conditions, and i think you will be surprised at the result--i certainly was.

What if Christianity was never meant for me?
God has promised, "EVERYONE who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved." You--as His beloved--are certainly no exception to this rule!

MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU IN THE CENTER OF HIS LOVE--whether you realize it or not.

:bow:ABBA'S FOOL,
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maybe I'm just a [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse].
More likely, you are just a child of God in a whole lot of pain and looking for answers.

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I've been lurking constantly for no reason.
Their is a reason even if you can not identify it.

With my mild Cerebral Palsy I am left to conclude, he just doesn't love me.
Does love always give what is asked of it? Does true love always yield gifts that indulge desire? Do you love your child with Palsy? would you give him what ever he asked for?

what if that thing put distance between you and your child's relationship? What if that thing allowed him to hook up with the wrong crowd? what if what he wanted more than anything in the world resulted in his death? Or even worse, what if it resulted in his spiritual death?
Does your model of love allow for this type of gift giving?

Though the roughest points of my life, struggling with a father who has a drug addiction, having cerebral palsy and never being normal, and just all around life.
If I listed all of the mess my life has yielded thus far you'd call me a liar. What I have learned from it all is the Bad does not equal punishment or God's absents. You are in the furnace where iron gets forged into steel, where Gold is purified, where we have the opportunity to die to self and be made new and stronger in God.

Where was he?
Carefully monitoring the heat and adding some elements and taking some away so as to purify you and forge you into a well crafted tool that maybe used to further His Kingdom.

I prayed and I prayed, but there was nothing for me.
I am confident that He did provide everything you needed except an easy way out. Once you yield yourself to God and work with what you are given, you will be given more. Until then, ask for contentment, if things get to be too much ask for a break or if that does not seem like enough simply say mercy God, Mercy.
I remember a time when everything was collapsing around me, and all I could do. the only prayer I could pray was just one word over and over.. Mercy, Mercy...

If you are there, then do not be afraid to ask. If you are not then ask that you eyes be open and your ears be made to hear so you can see and hear what He wants you to learn from being in this place. (then maybe you can leave)

I can recite verse like no other yet nothing.
Ask god to help you write those verses on your heart. knowing what the bible says is completely different than knowing where it says it. I was talking to my wife and i confessed to her that out of all of the stuff i write here I may know 6 to 10 bible verses book chapter and verse by heart. I have to look everything up, every single time when I want to quote something. Without a doubt, through the grace of God i know what the bible says, just don't know where in the bible it is said. I only tell you that to say that the two are not mutually exclusive. just because you know one does not mean you are automatically privy to the other.

The church couldn't hold clergy to save its life, and often would have to have deacons preach.
This is not a measure of a Good body of believers. The only question that should be asked is; can God be found there?

The only ones who really felt at home in the youth had the right last name.
If you see this as a problem then help make a change.

What if Christianity was never meant for me?
Because you did get what you wanted from Christ-mass?
I know you are hurting, but you sound like a spoiled child. When has love ever equaled unchecked gifts?? When has God ever advertised that if you believe we get wishes? God is not a magic genie, we do not get wishes, we get "good gifts." Remember Good as in good from the perspective of an eternal relationship with Him. not as in good this life is easy and i don't have to rely on Him. Or Good i get to go to God on my terms. Good is a relative term. If "Good" does not sound good enough then ask that your perspective be changed. If God will not change your situation then ask that He to change your perspective.
 
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Greetings,

I detailed a little bit of my struggle in my welcome thread; but frankly I didn't scratch the surface. I feel like I'm whining to you all by doing this. This may sound stupid but I'm forced to consider that there is a god, within the past month or so, for some reason, I cannot stay of this forum. I've been lurking constantly for no reason.

I have stepped down from my atheistic pedestal and am now an 'agnostic' (forum status and all). I have been a Christian before but if there is a god, and there just may be. With my mild Cerebral Palsy I am left to conclude, he just doesn't love me.
I posted a thread in the deeper fellowship forum titled: "The Light of Men". I am not all that computer savvy; I would like to give you a link but I don't know how :) I think it may help you with the whole "Is there a God thing?"
Also in the same forum, is a thread titled: "What is Faith". Please, if you have the time, read both of them. I am sure they will help you with your struggles.

Though the roughest points of my life, struggling with a father who has a drug addiction, having cerebral palsy and never being normal, and just all around life. Where was he? I prayed and I prayed, but there was nothing for me.
I too struggle with physical infirmity. I believe in the healing power of God; But the question persist, why do we suffer? I believe it is because of our fear and doubt about miracles. Our physical world is so strong in it's presence that our minds have great difficulty comprehending the spiritual. If we only had the faith, as the size of a tiny, little mustard seed....
God is love. There is so much hatred, violence and suffering in the world that it makes it hard to find our place with God. God loves you despite what the world has given you.


May the grace of god be with you, always.
This closing statement by you, shows me, that you have the love of God in your heart.
Peace unto you :pray:
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Dear Meow,

God understands the hardships you have faced. And while it may be difficult to see, your afflictions place you in good company. This is what the Apostle Paul wrote about his own afflictions.

2 Corinthians 12

24. Five times I received from the Jews the forty lashes minus one. 25. Three times I was beaten with rods, once I was pelted with stones, three times I was shipwrecked, I spent a night and a day in the open sea, 26. I have been constantly on the move. I have been in danger from rivers, in danger from bandits, in danger from my fellow Jews, in danger from Gentiles; in danger in the city, in danger in the country, in danger at sea; and in danger from false believers. 27. I have labored and toiled and have often gone without sleep; I have known hunger and thirst and have often gone without food; I have been cold and naked. 28. Besides everything else, I face daily the pressure of my concern for all the churches.
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7. Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.


I have a Christian brother; an amputee, who was a Muslim living in Afghanistan. He became a believer and follower of Jesus Christ, and because of this, he was arrested and put in an Afghani prison 9 months ago. He will be executed if he does not deny Jesus and reclaim Islam. He has been violated by guards and inmates, beaten, spat on, starved and kept awake. Through all of this, he managed to win his cell mate, a Jihad Taliban, to Christ. It's possible his whole life had prepared him for that moment when a radical extremist prisoner's soul would be saved.

I'm not saying that you will go through what these men have gone through because you have a disability; I simply mean that God uses people who have hardships like yours. "My power is made perfect in weakness."

In my opinion, the Holy Spirit draws you here to seek and find answers. I believe God has a plan for you that will take you far in life if you choose to believe in Jesus Christ.
 
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Drich - Time for you to read the book of Psalms. Also, I find it laughable when Christians spout off about mercy while sucker - punching someone with a disability who is only seeking help. That was completely uncalled for.

Next time, take on somebody your own size. I'm available anytime.:thumbsup:


Meow - Keep seeking Him. You're getting somewhere....I'm pulling for you kid!:prayer:
 
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Drich - Time for you to read the book of Psalms. Also, I find it laughable when Christians spout off about mercy while sucker - punching someone with a disability who is only seeking help. That was completely uncalled for.

Next time, take on somebody your own size. I'm available anytime.:thumbsup:


Meow - Keep seeking Him. You're getting somewhere....I'm pulling for you kid!:prayer:

There are only a few replies to this thread. Who are refering to?
 
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A few night ago I was laying in bed and the verese from the bible came to me "With patience possess your souls". Today my wife was reading the bible and said here is a verse I think you will like. She read it and it was

Jas 5:7-8 Be patient, then, brothers, until the Lord's coming. See how the farmer waits for the land to yield its valuable crop and how patient he is for the autumn and spring rains. You too, be patient and stand firm, because the Lord's coming is near.

I had no need for the verse and wondered why I would need it, becasue as far as I knew I was being patient. But I wonder if the LORD has meant it for you. Not that I think you are not patient, to endure your illness you must be very patient person. But I want to transfur these things to a spiritual sense when the LORD comes you will be free from your illness, you just have to endure a little while longer. Reach out to him, draw near to him, eventually like a farmer you will yield a crop of eternal and full life.

Also while you wait try this guy http://www.johnmellor.org/ he has a healing ministry and has seen many impossible cases healed.
 
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Greetings,

I detailed a little bit of my struggle in my welcome thread; but frankly I didn't scratch the surface. I feel like I'm whining to you all by doing this. This may sound stupid but I'm forced to consider that there is a god, within the past month or so, for some reason, I cannot stay of this forum. I've been lurking constantly for no reason.

I have stepped down from my atheistic pedestal and am now an 'agnostic' (forum status and all). I have been a Christian before but if there is a god, and there just may be. With my mild Cerebral Palsy I am left to conclude, he just doesn't love me.

Though the roughest points of my life, struggling with a father who has a drug addiction, having cerebral palsy and never being normal, and just all around life. Where was he? I prayed and I prayed, but there was nothing for me.

I have been in the same town my entire life. In this town of about 10,000 there is one baptist church. The baptist church I attended religiously for years, found god, lost god and back again. I can recite verse like no other yet nothing.The church couldn't hold clergy to save its life, and often would have to have deacons preach. The only ones who really felt at home in the youth had the right last name.

What if Christianity was never meant for me?

May the grace of god be with you, always.
What exactly convinced you that there was a deity? Just that you were lurking? I've been lurking for the past few months, though it was more to hear people say stupid things about atheists (a desire that wasn't disappointed). I know a lot of people that lurk from the Atheist Forum, for much the same reason.
 
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Drich - Time for you to read the book of Psalms. Also, I find it laughable when Christians spout off about mercy while sucker - punching someone with a disability who is only seeking help. That was completely uncalled for.

Next time, take on somebody your own size. I'm available anytime.:thumbsup:


Meow - Keep seeking Him. You're getting somewhere....I'm pulling for you kid!:prayer:

Welcome to CF! I am glad I inspired you to join.

That said, know that my approach to this situation does not differ from yours at all. Look at the mercy and grace you bestowed upon me, and I was not even seeking it from you.

Also know We do not all seek the God you have carved out of your understanding of the book of psalms. When I wrote what i did, when I saw that your general understanding of the mercy of God was going to be well represented. I decided to provide the other aspects of the same mercy and grace, you want to ignore.

When i went through my trials, it wasn't the empty solace of strangers that saw me to a stronger relationship with God is was assigning purpose to my trials and reasons as to why I was not getting my wishes granted that gave me greater understanding. which allowed me a direction to take my change to heart. It was this change of heart that provided me with contentment. Something that endless encouragement can not provide.

There is nothing wrong in supplying endless encouragement to the one who needs it. The question is, at the point you joined the conversation how do you know this person is one of these people?

Or do you contend that God is not any bigger than your understanding of Him, and you are required to openly rebuke one who does not agree with your understanding of Him?
 
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Drich - Welcome to CF! I am glad I inspired you to join.

Thank-you. But it was this particular forum and the honesty of the non-believers frequenting it that inspired me to join.

Drich - That said, know that my approach to this situation does not differ from yours at all. Look at the mercy and grace you bestowed upon me, and I was not even seeking it from you.

I wasn't aiming for mercy or grace. The Bible is profitable for correction. God bestowed His mercy and grace upon you and that was very kind of Him.

Drich -Also know We do not all seek the God you have carved out of your understanding of the book of psalms. When I wrote what i did, when I saw that your general understanding of the mercy of God was going to be well represented. I decided to provide the other aspects of the same mercy and grace, you want to ignore.

My understanding of the Psalms is correct. I am married to a theologian who is fluent in Biblical Hebrew so I'm not sure this will be a fair argument. There is tension in Psalms whether you would like to acknowlege that or not. Tension between mere finite human beings and an infinite almighty God. The psalmists are struggling and hurting and wailing and moaning yet they still acknowlege who God is in all their suffering. Would you tell them they are having a pity party and they shoould grin and bear it? Should we just cut out that part of the Bible? I haven't carved anything out of the Book of Psalms and that includes some strange god. I've studied.

Drich - When I went through my trials, it wasn't the empty solace of strangers that saw me to a stronger relationship with God is was assigning purpose to my trials and reasons as to why I was not getting my wishes granted that gave me greater understanding. which allowed me a direction to take my change to heart. It was this change of heart that provided me with contentment. Something that endless encouragement can not provide.

You are not God. You do not get the opportunity to provide the purpose for someones trials or struggles. You are practicing experientialism and it is NOT a test for truth. It is subjective to you and there are too many variables to count. You can find God in your trials, and we all have, but you cannot extrapolate the reality of who God is based on your trials alone. Our theology of God is based in Scripture NOT our experience. You are not the interpreter of God's work in this person's life.

Drich -There is nothing wrong in supplying endless encouragement to the one who needs it. The question is, at the point you joined the conversation how do you know this person is one of these people?

How do you know they are not one of these people? If Gods mercy is endless why should I then not be an imitator of Christ? Please point me to the Scriptural reference where we may arbitrarily decide to withhold mercy and exact judgment on someone who is sufferring.

Drich - Or do you contend that God is not any bigger than your understanding of Him, and you are required to openly rebuke one who does not agree with your understanding of Him?

I could have rebuked you privately but since you chastised this fragile seeker in a forum frequented by non-believers and other seekers I felt someone needed to challenge your position. This had nothing to do with my understanding of God which you could not possibly have known anything about since I had revealed nothing about my belief system to you. However, I can assure you, we all have a testimony. But many of us are not wielding it over others as an excuse to create our own theology while possibly pushing others futher in the wrong direction just to bolster our own ego.
 
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Thank-you. But it was this particular forum and the honesty of the non-believers frequenting it that inspired me to join.
...Then thank you for choosing my "honesty" to respond to first.

I wasn't aiming for mercy or grace.
Precisely, and yet that standard is expected from all other posters/me.

My understanding of the Psalms is correct.
If there was only one correct interpretation of the book of psalms I sure you would have it. But know the book of Psalms is one of 66. Some of which delve into the topic at hand not consistent with a correct or complete understanding of that book. In other words not all instances of heart ache and mercy are found in that book. So to limit your ministry to that book takes a measure of foolishness and pride.. Do not let your pride twist my words. I did not say the book is foolish or proud I said limiting your ministry to that book when there are other instances of mercy and grace given throughout the bible is foolish and proud.

I am married to a theologian who is fluent in Biblical Hebrew so I'm not sure this will be a fair argument.
If I was married to a doctor would that qualify me to write prescriptions? Does that even make me a nurse? and yet your a theologian. Those who are lacking in wisdom seek accommodation to hide their deficits. (not talking about your husband.)

There is tension in Psalms whether you would like to acknowledge that or not. Tension between mere finite human beings and an infinite almighty God. The psalmists are struggling and hurting and wailing and moaning yet they still acknowledge who God is in all their suffering. Would you tell them they are having a pity party and they should grin and bear it? Should we just cut out that part of the Bible? I haven't carved anything out of the Book of Psalms and that includes some strange god. I've studied.
Your pride in the knowledge your husband has, has blinded you to my message. I am not ignoring or casting out what is written in the book of psalms or the messages of those who have paralleled their teachings with what is written in psalms. I even identified these teachings as good. I am just providing the rest of the picture. As I have said not everyone takes comfort in endless comfort. Some of us look for purpose. If this is a person who looks for purpose rather than your brand of comfort would you deny them the type of comfort they seek, just because it does not match with your understanding of the book of psalms?

You are not God. You do not get the opportunity to provide the purpose for someones trials or struggles.
Obviously I am not, but I am one of his servants that He has seen to give a seemingly semi-unique perspective. What would you or your husband suggest I do with this gift? As you rebuke reads, it sounds as if your telling me to bury it in the sand so your gifts can be better appreciated. What teaching of Jesus is this consistent with?

You are practicing experientialism and it is NOT a test for truth. It is subjective to you and there are too many variables to count. You can find God in your trials, and we all have, but you cannot extrapolate the reality of who God is based on your trials alone.
Your pride runs deeper than I had originally assessed. now your saying, "I don't even need to ask you for scripture that you think that backs your interpretations, because "we" know the bible so well this explanation can be the only explanation. God has set aside the book of Psalms and there can be no other interpretation in the quest for solace and mercy than what is written here."

May God show you mercy where you do not know mercy to be found.

Our theology of God is based in Scripture NOT our experience. You are not the interpreter of God's work in this person's life.
My proud sister neither are you and yet you continue to post and rebuke..
My experiences have opened my eyes to scripture that i all but ignored before. (at least in the way of offering mercy and solace.)

How do you know they are not one of these people?
I do not nor have i ever claim to. It is because I don't know who this person is I felt it necessary that both sides of comfort are represented here. Even if this person is not one who seek purpose in a trial over comfort, there maybe other who do. Or They may be others who need to be introduced to the concept of finding purpose in pain rather than simply smothering all who seek mercy, with the book of Psalms as their spouse understands it.

If Gods mercy is endless why should I then not be an imitator of Christ?
Are you saying that Your interpretation of Christ is the only one?

Please point me to the Scriptural reference where we may arbitrarily decide to withhold mercy and exact judgment on someone who is suffering.
Before we get into scripture, I need to see you write that you do understand and accept that "mercy" comes in different forms, and that finding purpose for some is indeed a form of mercy.

I ask that you do this because most legalists or people who tend to have a singular or locked view of scripture can be rather obstinate when it comes to an interpretation that does not sync up with how they have been told to think about scripture. If you can not admit to a simple principle like this one, then trying to change a harden view or singular view of the bible is not worth the effort.

I could have rebuked you privately but since you chastised this fragile seeker in a forum frequented by non-believers and other seekers I felt someone needed to challenge your position.
So rather than taking a chance on what the bible tells you to do, you thought it better to ensure my cooperation by openly rebuking me, and calling into question all that i believe. So that means it is OK to go outside of what is written when you deem it necessary, but not for anyone else..

Does this not ring of hypocrisy to you?

This had nothing to do with my understanding of God which you could not possibly have known anything about since I had revealed nothing about my belief system to you.
But you did. As your "fruit" have just pointed out. Your are a do as I say and not as I do type of Christian.

However, I can assure you, we all have a testimony. But many of us are not wielding it over others as an excuse to create our own theology while possibly pushing others further in the wrong direction just to bolster our own ego.
Just because my efforts are different than your does not automatically make them any less valid. We need people like you for those like you. Those who need to be patted on the head and told everything will always be OK, no matter what happens.. But what of everyone else? Have You ever wonder if you are indeed speaking the complete word of God, why it is you can not connect with everyone seeking a connection? Or why you only are able to connect with others of a similar view of God?

It's because even if you had a complete understanding of what is written in the bible. You do not have a complete view of God and how He relates to every signal personality type and culture on this planet. No one does. That is why your job (like mine) is to take God's word and apply it to our lives. in this case it includes how we deal with grief and pain. For me it means looking beyond the book of psalms, because for whatever reason God did not make the comfort and mercy recorded in that book real to me. If you should do much ministering outside of a church atmosphere you will find the meanings of that book have little impact.. I have done some grief counseling in my time, and have found that those not raise on that book do not find comfort in it. They often times want to know why. It is impossible to know why, but it is not impossible to teach those who are struggling to find contentment. Nor is it impossible to teach them to find purpose.. And because this is section is dedicated as a way for non-christians to deal with struggles, it though a non-psalmist approach should also be represented for the OP as well.
Just in case he or she was not raise on this book, or sought something more that the expected "christian" answers.

Again I have not discounted anything anyone else is saying. i am simply offering an opportunity to seek out possible purpose for the pain. rather than more reassurances.
 
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