The first time in 2 yrs

[Godsgirl481]

Well, I cut again for the first time in 2 years. I was able to fight the urges up until now. I am so disappointed in myself

 

[Renwolf]

Staying safe for 2 years while still having the urge to self injure is a huge accomplishment, whether you realize it right now or not.

A relapse isn't a failure, it's a chance to learn more about yourself. Push aside the disappointment for a minute and try to think about why you relapsed. What led up to it? What feelings or emotions were involved? What's a good way to recognize these triggers in the future? What are three safe things you can do the next time you're triggered in this way?

The good news is...you made it 2 years! If you did it once, you can definitely do it again.

-Ren
(who recently relapsed after 3 years and is trying to take her own advice)

 

[ChasingADream]

I am so sorry to hear that. Coincidentally, I just cut last night and that was my first time in 2 years also. I am angry with myself and scared that I will end up as bad as I was back then. I even kept the blade so I can do it again. I can't believe I just said that.

 

[always_hope]

God doesn't want you to be angry with yourself or feel disappointed in yourself. I never made it 2 years (yet!), I think that is huge!! God loves you and wants you to turn to Him and let Him help you and learn more about yourself and Him.

I am praying for you.

Love,
Hope

 

[Godsgirl481]

thank you for replying guys. I kept the blade too...cause this struggle has me beat at the moment. I can resist at times...but sometimes, I am just way too weak to not do it....

 

[shazabella]

Hey Bams,

last night was my first time in 2 yrs ... i just hit rock bottom. for you


- Shaz

 

[Annoula]

Staying safe for 2 years while still having the urge to self injure is a huge accomplishment, whether you realize it right now or not.

A relapse isn't a failure, it's a chance to learn more about yourself. Push aside the disappointment for a minute and try to think about why you relapsed. What led up to it? What feelings or emotions were involved? What's a good way to recognize these triggers in the future? What are three safe things you can do the next time you're triggered in this way?

The good news is...you made it 2 years! If you did it once, you can definitely do it again.

-Ren
(who recently relapsed after 3 years and is trying to take her own advice)

i agree with this. self awareness will help us all in our struggles.
self awareness will help us understand why we do things by bringing the unconcious to the concious. then it is easier to fight a "bad" behaviour.
there are also times that when we get to understand why we have a specific behaviour, the behaviour loses power and eventually fades away by itself.

i strongly believe that self-awareness is also the key to a better understanding of God and Christ.

i wish you all the best in your struggles.

hugs,

Anna

 

[Mr.Cheese]

I'm not disappointed in you.
*hug*

 

[Godsgirl481]

I'm not disappointed in you.
*hug*

Thank you Cheezy man....hugs to you too. You need to come back to AIM so we can talk...I've missed you...