Hi Colter
Well, good to know faith 'isn't enough,' but when I was a believer, I was taught that it 'should' be enough. Soooo...it's not enough for you, either. Does this mean you have scads of proof to share?
"The more of science you know, the less sure you can be; the more of religion you have, the more certain you are."
Jesus would have had doubts, but his doubts never
became a religion, his faith became a religion. It wasn't so much that he wanted man to merely believe in him as he asked us to trust and believe
with him; to share his faith in the Universal Father. Atheism is a religion of doubt, it's a form of faith because they cannot disprove God to the point of certainty.
But I have no absolute proof, even Jesus demonstrated that so called miraculous proof is overrated. He would perform some amazing act of healing yet some religious fanatic would point out how he didn't wash his hands before he ate??? Or claim that he got his power from Satan. Man may develop spiritual laziness if he were "certain".
I've grown, through experience, to appreciate the Fathers love and wisdom in allowing me to find truth legitimately rather then violating his own natural way, depriving me of the exhilarating adventure out on the high seas of faith adventure. Some of my friends who are former Atheist came by faith legitimately, they didn't buy into a ready made religion, rather through experience they came to a faith in a
God of their own understanding.
While I have had tons of experiences and observations of God, as well as doubts, I can share this fact with you. On the day of my unanticipated psychic conversion, I was a hopeless, drug addicted alcoholic who often entertained suicide. My life was an unmanageable mess! I was anti religious, although I never had a big problem with Jesus the man. One moment I had no hope, the next moment I had hope. (There was no at will testable BS process).
They say that when the pupil is ready the teacher will appear. I'm so humbled by the fact that I didn't even realize how profound my personality change was, others saw it in me, my family, friends, but alls I knew was that I wanted help and went to a 12 place to get it. I haven't had a drink it drug for 29 years. People who new me say I only mildly resemble the criminal a-hole they once knew.
Other things about me that you may note:
* I do not now nor have I ever thought that God wrote ANY of the current books on the list that make up the Bible. The books of the bible were written by holy men, some more holy than others. The OT books were redacted and edited during the Babylonian captivity, they were written by the elite Hebrew priest class for a scattered Israelite audience. They made NO claim of writing the word of God. They took a mostly ordinary secular history and converted it into a miraculous fiction! After the return the Jews would frankly loose sight of their destiny and purpose, sadly they rejected the Son when he finally did come. Further complicating matters was the contamination of evolved Christianity by OT thinking and the prevailing Pagan doctrines of human sacrifice.
* I believe in cosmic evolution, the fragmented story of Adam and Eve shows evidence of their arrival on a previously populated, fallen earth.
* The Noah flood story is the most ridiculous story in the bible, it was a result of the Hebrew priests failure to trace their blood line back to a much older Adam, so they just decided to drown the whole world in its own wickedness to fill in the gap.
* Jesus knew the errors of the scripture, but rather than
reform Judaism, he revealed new truths making use of what was true in the older writings and letting the untrue ideas die on the vine.
* In the plan of life God has has decreed that "human wisdom must evolve", he will not deprive us of that. Besides, man is in partnership with God in the evolution of God the Supreme in time and space through the collective of our unique, individual faith experiences in the very face of uncertainty.