As a individual who is still struggling with alcohol it is hard to just stop.
For me, I began drinking after I had my daughter. My relationship between my daughter's father and I ended badly, I felt alone, and unwanted.
At first it began with just going out to the club with friends once a week or on the weekends every once in awhile. Then it became a ritual to go every week. The ritual became a habit of going during the middle of the week as well. And finally a need to go every day.
I'd always find a reason to drink. Whether I was happy, sad, mad, or just needed to sleep.
I'd then sleep all day, wake up feeling exhausted and weak. I didn't want to get out of bed and face the day.
Days I would go without drinking I'd be irritable.
Alcohol was the only thing I'd talk about, like it was the highlight of my life.
In order to cope with issues in my life I would go to the bar, get really drunk, stumble and say rude things to people and make even more poor choices like doing drugs and having sex.
I was a totally different person and I had even given this person a name.
My mind was so clouded that I couldn't think or speak clear even when I was sober.
Mind you, I'm not old...I come from 2 parent household, a middle-class background, no abuse whatsoever from within my home.
As I look back to what really got me started....Excuses....
I was raped at 14....But regardless of what happened in my past, I know I should not have turned to the bottle...because I was supposed to be a Christian.
So if you're struggling with alcohol, you aren't alone...Pray and God will guide you to the light.
For me, I began drinking after I had my daughter. My relationship between my daughter's father and I ended badly, I felt alone, and unwanted.
At first it began with just going out to the club with friends once a week or on the weekends every once in awhile. Then it became a ritual to go every week. The ritual became a habit of going during the middle of the week as well. And finally a need to go every day.
I'd always find a reason to drink. Whether I was happy, sad, mad, or just needed to sleep.
I'd then sleep all day, wake up feeling exhausted and weak. I didn't want to get out of bed and face the day.
Days I would go without drinking I'd be irritable.
Alcohol was the only thing I'd talk about, like it was the highlight of my life.
In order to cope with issues in my life I would go to the bar, get really drunk, stumble and say rude things to people and make even more poor choices like doing drugs and having sex.
I was a totally different person and I had even given this person a name.
My mind was so clouded that I couldn't think or speak clear even when I was sober.
Mind you, I'm not old...I come from 2 parent household, a middle-class background, no abuse whatsoever from within my home.
As I look back to what really got me started....Excuses....
I was raped at 14....But regardless of what happened in my past, I know I should not have turned to the bottle...because I was supposed to be a Christian.
So if you're struggling with alcohol, you aren't alone...Pray and God will guide you to the light.
