Our Echelon,
I am sorry to say my friend, but I for one don't think you ever fully recover. You become like an alcoholic, counting the days that you've been free of it, but one taste, and it can send you into a downward spiral so fast it can make you sick.
I was in therapy for a brief time. I made alot of progress in a short time. Our point of focus...my porn addiction (though thats not what I was there for, it seemed that the porn was causing the other problem).
I watched my first porno at the age of 11. Lost my virginity at 14. Lost my first wife of 10 years to it. You name it, I have seen it on the net. Some things so nasty and vile I almost puked!
There is hope, though!!! I swear that there is.
First off, you have to block your computer from being able to view it. I have excellent advice on how to do it. Just send me a PM, and I'll be more than happy to share it with you.
Second, get help. I
strongly suggest going to:
http://www.settingcaptivesfree.com . Take the Purity course. It's free...it's scriptural, and it's gonna slap you in the face (in a very good way though, I promise).
Another thing to keep in mind is this: In order for visions to remain in our mind, we have to continually feed them. If we keep thinking about certian things, the never passages will remain open and alive. Our brain will actually allow nerve cells that we don't use to wither and die, so that new ones can form. Want proof? Tell me what you had to eat for breakfast when you were 7 years and 255 days old? Certainly, your brain stored the information. Information is stored every 1/1000 of a second in our brain (don't quote me on that exact number...I believe that's what it is though). But, you cannot remember that information, because you stopeed retrieving it years ago. It has vanished from your ability to retrieve it.
As time goes on, the pictures of porn in my head are becomming harder and hard to recall. I am doing my darndest to not put new ones in there (though a woman walking down the street in tight jeans still seems to stick).
It is an on going process. One that you will however, be victorious over!!!
Just be prepared...it is a war. You are going to experience defeat at times. It may even be the hardest thing you've ever engaged in (it is for me). But, with the Lord, you will be victorious!!! vbmenu_register("postmenu_21395443", true);
