For the last few months I tried learning more about Christ, praying every night, and really feeling this great inner peace trying to live how Christ wanted you to live. There is no doubt that Jesus' teachings on how to live are an excellent way to live life to the purest. Even as I slip back into agnosticism for now, I'll still try to abide by some of his guidelines until I convince myself to choose to be a believer or not.
But one notion always made me backslide. Hell.
At first, I feared that I would be one of the so called Christians that Christ would judge on Judgement Day and to tell me to depart from him even if I called him Lord. I realized I had to live by his commandments as well as repent. To make him Lord of my life, to live by his ways.
That's great, and I felt I was starting to kick some sin out of my life, but now I've come across a distressing predicament. My family's fate.
My family is your typical so called Christian family. Celebrate Easter, Christmas, have holy bread on Christmas Eve, they go to church maybe once a year just to have some food for the Eve blessed. But they don't really confess their faith or live like Jesus. My family is Catholic, so my mother will recite the Lord's prayer every night but I doubt she puts her heart into it sometimes, it's just repetitive and hollow.
Now as I understand it, THESE are the types of people Christ will tell to depart from him. So my own family that I love so much would suffer in hell for ETERNITY. I couldn't handle interacting with my family for a few days, just thinking of them being good family to me that they'd be one day burning forever. It got me angry. How could I enjoy heaven when every second of eternity they'd be suffering in hell? They did nothing wrong, they raised me with love, always offered to help no matter what. My mother even took my father's children he had with his deceased first wife.
She took them in out of love, they're still married today, and my family is close for the most part. I unconditionally love them, but how could God expect me to rejoice in heaven if they won't be with me?
I tried praying for them but nothing changes. I can't change their minds either, they actually thought I was joining a cult because I bought a crucifix necklace and a Bible. Can you believe that? That's how laid back their "Christian" lifestyle is.
Long story short, I'm sure all of you encountered this problem. Loved ones in hell. How can I enjoy heaven without them? Some say God will erase memories of my family so that I don't grieve. At that point, I'm not even ME anymore. Just a shell of what I was.
I also think the notion of ETERNAL damnation is what caused many people over the last 2000 years to truly fear the religion and not risk avoiding it. Zoroastrianism was almost a copy cat religion of Christianity/Judaism (if it wasn't first, that is), but its idea of universal salvation probably lead to a more laid back belief.
But one notion always made me backslide. Hell.
At first, I feared that I would be one of the so called Christians that Christ would judge on Judgement Day and to tell me to depart from him even if I called him Lord. I realized I had to live by his commandments as well as repent. To make him Lord of my life, to live by his ways.
That's great, and I felt I was starting to kick some sin out of my life, but now I've come across a distressing predicament. My family's fate.
My family is your typical so called Christian family. Celebrate Easter, Christmas, have holy bread on Christmas Eve, they go to church maybe once a year just to have some food for the Eve blessed. But they don't really confess their faith or live like Jesus. My family is Catholic, so my mother will recite the Lord's prayer every night but I doubt she puts her heart into it sometimes, it's just repetitive and hollow.
Now as I understand it, THESE are the types of people Christ will tell to depart from him. So my own family that I love so much would suffer in hell for ETERNITY. I couldn't handle interacting with my family for a few days, just thinking of them being good family to me that they'd be one day burning forever. It got me angry. How could I enjoy heaven when every second of eternity they'd be suffering in hell? They did nothing wrong, they raised me with love, always offered to help no matter what. My mother even took my father's children he had with his deceased first wife.
She took them in out of love, they're still married today, and my family is close for the most part. I unconditionally love them, but how could God expect me to rejoice in heaven if they won't be with me?
I tried praying for them but nothing changes. I can't change their minds either, they actually thought I was joining a cult because I bought a crucifix necklace and a Bible. Can you believe that? That's how laid back their "Christian" lifestyle is.
Long story short, I'm sure all of you encountered this problem. Loved ones in hell. How can I enjoy heaven without them? Some say God will erase memories of my family so that I don't grieve. At that point, I'm not even ME anymore. Just a shell of what I was.
I also think the notion of ETERNAL damnation is what caused many people over the last 2000 years to truly fear the religion and not risk avoiding it. Zoroastrianism was almost a copy cat religion of Christianity/Judaism (if it wasn't first, that is), but its idea of universal salvation probably lead to a more laid back belief.